Saved in Memory...

160511 - 260511
Within this period
I experienced many things
I had my 1st A Level examination
I made an important decision which is related to my future
I was in dilemma
I set my resolution
I hope I grew up after those incidents
After the important examination
Now it is the time to enjoy our one-month-holiday
Play & do whatever we want within this month
After that we are going to face the toughest semester
Now a lot of things are set in my calendar
Too many things have to do
I joined the 30 Hours Famine
which is one of our SASA project
Our Genting Trip on 250611,260611
Group BOMB
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This is my 1st outing with my gang in HELP
First and foremost
Happy birthday to our Princess Jenn
Who attended the outgoing?
Jenn,Li Shiann,Jia Yee,Cavan,Raj,Sam,Khai & Raymond
Initially should be Cohen instead of Raymond
But Cohen cannot make it and there is an extra movie ticket
That's why Raymond is with us

Thanks to Cavan
We waited for 1 hour plus because he couldn't find the parking
Haha
We had our lunch at Nando's
Jia Yee had ordered too much
Thanks to Jenn & Samuel for the wonderful lunch
After lunch was our movie time
Fast & Furious 5
An interesting & awesome movie
Even though I didn't watch the previous episodes
I didn't feel lost by the way
Thanks to my Friends
You guys are SO understanding & Naughty
After movie time was Laser Tag
This is my 1st time to play laser tag
No,I should say is our 1st time instead
Since none of us play before
Li Shiann didn't join us because she had to go
So 8 of us were separated into 2 groups
Red & Green

But we lose to Blue team which is formed by KIDS
Quite embarrassing but they are the members there
Which means they played for N times
So is ok lar
Raymond was the one who scored the highest among us
What I can say is
I can't really play sports
Lousy wee...
This laser tag which lasted for 10-15 min made me sweat a lot
After the nice game,we cut the birthday cake in the food court
Sang birthday song as loud as we can
Jenn felt embarrassing
Yet she felt happy and touched
Raymond became the professional photographer with his Canon 60D
We snapped pictures after our laser tag and during the cake cutting session
Family portrait pulak
Thank you very much
LOL
All the guys played monopoly in the food court
Once again,Raymond became the winner
Actually this is because the others are 1st-time players
So it is just luck
Haha
Thanks to Jenn's SPECIAL request
I learnt to be sporting
Sam & Raj played pool
Raymond,Khai & I were chatting
In the nutshell
Thanks for giving me a nice memory
Khai will be the one who is teased by the majority due to his "brightness"
Too bad Cohen is not with us
We should have our next and next and next outing
=)
Just now I was viewing the Teacher's Day photos posted by my juniors
Then suddenly I felt that
Wow..I'm old

Without knowing it,I left my secondary school life for almost 6 months
I miss my teachers suddenly
I miss my Cekalians suddenly
All the best in the future and we shall meet up
*To darlz
Congratulations
And you can keep on bothering me
Because I will do so too
So you don't have to worry about that
Hahaha

Walk down the Memory Lane..

I think I'm too bored
That's why I read my older blog posts
So nostalgic
I miss some moments
Of course not those emo moments
A lot of things fly in my mind
Out of sudden
I miss you

I can see the crest and trough
Can really feel my mood when I'm reading my posts
Pity my readers
Thank you because you are always here to be my audience
Listen to what I vomited
I'm glad to have you
Ooooo..
I wish I can go back to some special moments
Experience again what I have experienced
But I know it's impossible lu

Keep in my heart
You are still here
That's the truth
And I found that I'm quite crazy huh?
Sometimes can really come out with some random stuffs

That's my inspirations
But seems long time didn't have that anymore
I wish I can have it back
Because it makes my Garden of Tranquility perfect
=)
Tomorrow is my last paper,C2
Then I'm free for one month
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Hang out with my friends
Celebrate Jenn's birthday and bid farewell to Samuel
Then I may find a job to earn my next sem exam fee
And I may have to work and study simultaneously
Since I choose to reject JPA
But I have to consider very very well

Nothing is Forever..

Forever & Eternal
These words will never exist in my dictionary
Due to some factors
I think "promise" will be deleted from my dictionary too
Happiness will not be eternal
Sadness will not be eternal
Promise may not be fulfilled
Many people betray their partner,their friends
Many people promise but never fulfill it
Many people give hope to others
But at the end,people walk away with disappointment
The world is dull without care & love
People nowadays are too selfish & self-centered
People treat you good
It doesn't mean that it will be long-lasting
Cannot be too innocent
Not to say pessimistic but just prepare myself to face the society
I'm not emo-ing
Don't worry
Suddenly think of that
Witness too many of this kind of incidents
Experienced some on my own
People promised you
Wow
You feel so happy & sweet at that moment
But who knows what will happen in the future
Human will change like the weather nowadays
Sad to say
Maybe changes like me
Nowadays I dare not to put so much "hearts" on sth
I'm scared
You may say I'm coward
You may say this is nonsense
Well,different people will have different perspectives
I saw someone's status few days ago
You feel that someone has changed
This is because the someone doesn't live in the same way as you did anymore
Everything has its limit
Thing that exceed the limit
May come back to the original
But most of the time,NO
It undergoes plastic deformation
Haha
Today is not the end of the world
We are still breathing
Now,do what we should do
Play our role well
Smile and continue our journey
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Nothing is forever

Support

Finally I have made the decision
I changed my mind
I signed the agreement to reject the offer
Thanks for those who support me
Thanks for those who encourage me
Thanks for those who accompanied me when I was in need
I appreciate you
Now the road in the future
I have to explore on my own
Once I choose to stay in A levels
I must score very well
Like what piggie said
No matter what course we are taking
We must study hard and work for it
It's true
Because you wouldn't want to feel regret
To sweet pumpkin
All the best in UTP
I know you can adapt well and do well there
Keep in touch
To darling
Wish you can get what you want
Even can't,you must be tough and pick up what you have missed
*touch wood*

Share sth with you
*Attitude is a little thing that makes a big difference.*

For those who know Chemistry
There is a lame joke which I would like to share
One day, argon walks into a bar and asks for a glass of water. The bartender says "Sorry, we don't serve noble gasses."
Argon doesn't react.

DOESN'T REACT:)))

Can you hear me?

Where is syane.ms.h2o?
Anybody know?
She couldn't find herself now
She doesn't know what she wants
She doesn't know where is her heart
She doesn't know everything
"Why you make the thing so complicated?
It's just simple! "
I really don't know what to do
I don't even know how to interpret thing
I'm trying to make the thing perfect?
I wish to make everyone satisfied?
I'm so sorry because I'm being too annoying
I bring a lot of troubles to my friends & my family
Just a simple stuff
And I keep on bugging others
I'm so sorry for being so annoying
I apologise here
I don't know what I am doing
I don't know which one is the best solution
Everyone believe I can make the best decision
But I think I'm going to disappoint you all
Because the truth is I CAN'T
I'm sucks
TT
Talk about sucks
To tempura
You're not sucks okay?
Now we have to be far-sighted
Because our "circle" before is too small
Now you're in a bigger "circle"
It is normal for you to feel that
But convert it into the energy which can drive you to learn and master it
Add oil yea=)
I think for so many days
Many brain cells died
Much h2o are wasted
I'm dehydrated
I may need a long sleep
I know that I should be brave
I'm running out of time
My heart is pumping slowly
I have no energy ady
Low battery
I'm exhausted
syane.ms.h2o,can you hear me?
God,can you hear me?

Haemolysis...

Finally can log in my bloggie
I'm sorry because I can't control myself
There is a matter which troubles me
Today my mum told me
" Your godmother guessed that the reason you don't want to become a doctor is not because you scare of blood butis because you scare to face death."
I think it is quite true
Now I'm in dilemma
I hate to face the truth that someone is leaving
Now I'm the one who is going to choose to leave
I need to say goodbye to Edexcel A-Levels and Group B
All my friends I met in HELP University College
I'm heavy hearted to leave you all
Actually I haven't decided yet
But most of them said is good to pursue
Can ease parents' burden
And you are 100% confirm you can do Pharmacy
If you continue studying A-Levels
The probability for me to get scholarship in the future is 50%
Honestly,I like A-Levels because it is challenging
I really scare I choose the path wrongly
as it is related to my future
God,can you give me guidance or hint?
I really don't know how to choose
*To -___noob___-
You really...
Make me loss of h2o
I'm not going to forget the "large" file we have
I'm not going to forget every single moment we had
Never
Seriously
I have intangible feeling lu
Don't know how to describe
Sad will do

I'm really don't know how to do
But I will still sit for my exam on mon
Anyone who pass by Garden of Tranquility
Give me some ideas please
*syane.ms.h2o got an offer from JPA
Foundation in Science for 18 months in UCSI
Bachelor in Pharmacy for 4 years in UCSI
She has to reply before 20 May

Register at UCSI on 21st May if she has decided to accept the offer
Insomnia

War starts...

War is going to start soon
And I think this is my last time to blog until my war ends
All my mock papers are with me now
And I believe that you can predict how I score
If I score well then I think I won't be here
Sad case
But now I wipe my tears and get ready to work hard
Like what my Chem lecturer said today
You thought the top in your class are just smart?
Behind the smartness,there is hard work which you cannot see
Ya and I do agree that
I saw and sensed how the top worked
Then all the hard works have paid off
He scored extremely well
Then I look at myself in the mirror
I think
Did I work very hard for the mock exam?

If the answer is no then I deserved the low mark
I'm not hardworking enough if I compare with my classmates
That's what I have to change from now on
I think there is sth wrong on my attitude and study method
Whenever you don't understand a small little matter
You cannot ignore
If you tends to ignore,the question marks in your head will be more and more
Then you will know the consequences
To all my readers
What I realise now is we cannot just study without using our brain
In the class,you have to absorb and think
Not just absorb and copy blindly
I think I always do that
That's why when comes to application
I don't know how to apply my knowledge
I don't know how many of you are still reading my bloggie
But this is just my opinion
For those who still support Garden of Tranquility
Thank you
*To those who are going to sit for exam or sitting for exam
I wish you all the best
Don't be distracted by anything
The more the distractions,the lower the probability for you to score
Exam is 99% hard work and 1% luck
So I believe hard work is the one which lead you to success but not luck
See you after 26 May

Ouch..It's so painful...

The Garden of Tranquility in my heart is covered by cloud
Dark cloud
And eventually the rain dropped and made the land wet
At this moment,h2o made the land in my heart wet
The rain came and went
And this process is repeated for so many times
Sunlight is unable to come in
Cloudy and rainy day in my heart
I know I deserved it
But it is really painful
Whenever I tell my family or classmates
Their response is "Huh?!"
I'm so sorry for disappointing you
Seriously I need to slap myself ady
Regret for nothing
Devastated~
Sob sob
I'm so sorry
I need time to recover from the pain
The pain of April is gone
No more
Now this is pain of May
Here I would like to thank
1.Sweet pumpkin
She has a tough time because I keep on throwing negative stuff on her
Her eyes and ears have to suffer because I always merungut
Thanks a lot,dear~
2.Darling
She is the best darling ever
The best consultant and motivator ever
She came at the right time when I need her
I will remember "mutual"
*To sweet pumpkin & Darling*
syane.ms.h2o is crossing her fingers
I hope I can get good news from both of you tomorrow
Good luck

3.-_____protie_____-
He always makes joke and makes me feel relax
He taught me a lot of things
Taught me how to see thing differently
Think differently
I never think we can be that close
We are unusual
When two weirdos come together
Nice
Thank you for your companion

That day I saw someone commented on tempura's status in FB
The style is like Pn.Low
I suddenly miss her so much
She can always understand me
And give me useful opinion

I think I need to regulate and recover asap
I don't want to let the thing happen
It will never happen
If I have strong determination
See you guys soon
Thanks for spending your time to read emo post..
Have a nice weekend
=)

I realise...

Every time I read tempura's bloggie
I feel envious and happy
She can do a lot of things with her friends
My life just full of stress huh?
These few days it was really "hardcoring"
I keep on stretching myself mentally
But the pressure does not increase with my output
I realised that I will just come to Garden of Tranquility to express my tension
But not any happiness huh?
So miserable
I have fun and tension at the same time
Can laugh like hell in the college
But I really need to withstand high pressure
Is it because I'm a perfectionist?
I don't know
I don't think I have done my best
It's hard for me to master now
I don't know how to think and how to answer in the right way
Even my time management also has problem
Damn stressful
These few days I can't sleep well
I feel one kind in my heart
Argh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Feel like yelling and shouting like a mad people
If tears dropped
Wipe and stand up
Tell myself not to give up easily
I need to force my brain to work
It is a must!!!!