Maturity...

Because of you
I learn how to live in the current moment and appreciate what I have now
Because of you
I become more matured
Because of you
I explore another side of syane.ms.h2o
Because of you
I have motivation
Because of you
I know I am not alone
Because of you
My mood swing frequency is lower
Thank you very much

Stressful life...
Mocks are killing me
However
I should keep on reminding myself
I am studying for the sake of final
Even I scored badly in mocks
There will still be time for me to improve
Utilise the time to make myself better
Finally
I have done my IELTS
Result will be out on 9 Dec
Crossing my fingers at least 7 please
If I got higher than this
I will be super happy
I want to make my money worth!
Now should focus in my exam
Thinking of ditching Sungha Jung...

The Time

The pages left in my diary is getting less and less
This indicates that the days approaching 2012 is getting less and less
When I flip my diary over and look at the event on certain day
I feel the pressure and tension
I sigh
I know I am running out of time
Yet I am not prepared
Not even one paper
I start worrying
I scared I screw my papers up AGAIN
I cannot afford to screw it up over and over
Now I keep on communicating with my subconscious mind
I can do it I can do it I can do it
I will strive for the best

At the same time
I sigh because time flies
Reading those statuses from my juniors who are the candidates of SPM'11
For me
SPM seemed to be a matter which happened yesterday
Without we realise it
We are one year older
So many things have changed
We are in different path

After another 6 months,I need to say goodbye to my A-Levels life
Say goodbye to my classmates
We may never meet again
I have to welcome the blur future with my opened arms
No one will know what will happen in the future
What we can do is moving forwards with a tough heart

Thanks to all my dears and darlz
Who have accompanied me for this year
They never forget me even though we are no longer in the same school
They still give me support
I don't care how my other friends treat me
For me
You all are the most important one
I am very haengbok now
I have 4 dears and 1 darlz who always support me and love me
I really appreciate what you have done for me
I hope we can still move on with this kind of relationship
I really mean it

God bless me
All my mocks and IELTS are during the same period
So many things are going on at the same time
I hope I am strong enough to withstand the high pressure
Crossing my fingers
Cannot waste time anymore
No way...
2012 Jan
I wish I can keep myself away from all the distractions
Good luck everyone

171111

Today is definitely not my day
My H2O in my body lost through my tear gland
I felt bad and guilty
The feeling of guilt is torturing me
Seriously
I am sorry my dear
Thanks for being frank to me
Let me know what I have done and what I should do
As you know
I treasure and appreciate you
When comes to friendship or even more than that
Nothing is more important than the inner part
Physical or talents are meaningless
When we get along then you will find that the trust is the most important
What I feel glad is the trust exists between us
It is very hard to have such friends
No matter what happen
I will not forget you as the capacity of our file is increasing
Get it?
Live at this moment
I feel better after reading the mail on the pencil
I found it quite meaningful
Thanks for your everything
I do appreciate
Seriously....

Big Question Mark...

It is so suffering to be a human
As a human,we have to carry out our obligation
We have to care this care that in our daily life
No matter what we are doing
We must think twice in order to please the majority
We can barely have the chance to do whatever we want
Be whatever you are without pretending and hiding
Try to use your hand to touch your left side of chest
How long have you pretended?
Who are you actually?
What is your real character actually?
Why must human have feelings?
I wish I can be cold-blooded
I wish I can adjust myself in front of different people

I wish I can have a remote control
But I am clear
What I wished will never come true
Never....
Useful advices will never be nice to be listened to
Words can kill
Seriously...
Use your brain before talking
Some words have the power to tear your heart into 2
Thanks to those who always forgive me
Thanks to those who always listen to my craps
Thanks to those who never giving me up

Before I leave here
I would like to wish my dearest juniors
Good luck in your SPM
All the best.=)
It is a  must to watch "You Are The Apple of My Eyes"
It is great
Credits to Giddens and all the actors and actresses

My pleasure..

Among 7 billion peoples in the world
I meet you
Fate brings us together
It is so amazing
In our life time
We meet so many peoples
How many of them can understand you and click well with you?
Only a handful of them,isn't it?
As time flies,the friendship will not fade
That's the true friendship
We are not going to please everyone in our life
Or I should say we are unable to please everyone in our life
Why must we make our life so miserable?
The joy is intangible when you can talk to someone who understand you well
Without telling in detail
The person will get what you mean
Without showing anything
The person will know how you feel
It is great,isn't it?
Fortunately,I have few of them
I think you know who you are
We always practise mutualism
You give then I take
I give then you take
"Thank you" & "Sorry" do not exist between us
Sometimes,silence wins
Without using any words
Yet,we still can communicate
I don't know why
I recall all the vivid moments I have with you
It is so nice and sweet to recall
As we go on
We remember all the times we had together
一段美好的回忆
值得被留恋
但人始终不能滞留在那里
路还是要走
心里总是希望

在我往后的日子
依然有你的陪伴
因为我的生活有你
才会变得更多姿多彩
因为在你的眼里
我会觉得我是独一无二的
我会觉得我是被重视的
谢谢你给我这种感觉
我亲爱的知己们
人往往不能够期待别人会对你好
因为那不是必然的
在这个世界上
没有说谁没有谁会活不下去
所以当你遇到值得你去好好对待的人
应该要把握机会
因为你会遇到
那并不容易
The "You" I mentioned here
Is a "plural"
I just want to tell "You" one by one
That's why I said you know who you are
syane.ms.h2o thanks God
Because He lets us meet and know each other
That's definitely my Great Great Pleasure

** I miss Christmas **