Style...

After giving myself three days holidays

I hope I can have a clearer mind

I hope I can perform better in the coming exam

Rest is to walk for longer journey

Syane.ms.h2o says 

"Once I decide to pay for you,I won't give up easily.

Once you are my target,I will try my best to let you be mine.

Yet,I understand force no happiness.

But I will try my very best to do the best.

No matter on people or things.

Don't be too kiasu."

That's syane.ms.h2o.

That's me.

I would like to be perservering

But not too obsessive

Now I want to be carefree a little bit

I don't want to be tensed up easily

I welcome challenges

I want to make myself busy and see whether I can withstand the high pressure or not

Tomorrow will be quite challenging and tiring

Class from 8am until 7pm

Teach from 8pm until 10pm

Let's see how I will be

Mock exam is around the corner

I must perform well

Learn from the mistakes in mock exam

After that,do well in the real exam

JPA is not my only target

Just try my best will do

Hwaiting in the interview on Tuesday

Same goes to all my classmates and friends

*Piggie

If syane.ms.h2o did sth which let you feel uncomfortable

She apologises here

Let's just back to normal

Thanks for giving her some nice moments

=)

*Noname

Syane.ms.h2o supports you

Go ahead and work for your new target

I believe you can do it

Don't ever look down on yourself!!!!

=)

*To all my readers

I think I will leave here for a while

I will update when there is a necessity

Or I have the inspiration to blog

If not,I wish I can utilise my time well to do sth else

But I will never forget my Garden of Tranquility

Garden of Tranquility will always be my part of life

My dear readers will always be my part of life too

=)

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Finally...

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Suddenly suffered from a bad headache

Suffering

I have made up my mind ady

I know what should I do ady

 I choose to give up

Or I put it in another way

I choose not to care

I found that I always care for people who don't really care about me

Sometimes I will neglect those who care for me 

Sth's wrong with me right??

Haha

Be a carefree one

I should let myself be busy

As I'm busy right now

I need to make myself even busier

Do not rely on sth else

Enjoy my college life

Maybe my classmates are going to leave us

This is just 1 and a half year for us to be together in HELP

So must enjoy the life there

Laugh as loud as you can

Crap as much as you can

I don't care anymore

Open my eyes
Then I realise it was only just a dream...
It was ONLY JUST A DREAM...

*Garden of Tranquility is the only place I have my own privacy
*I just need my own space
*Stop stalking me
*That's just a simple requirement

It's not the time yet..

Time flies

It comes to April

This is the 4th month in A-Levels

My mock exam & exam are around the corner

Have to work hard and score well

I don't want to resit and burden myself in the next term

These few days I felt exhausted

I need to rest

I wish to fall into a deep sleep

Not to die but to have sufficient sleeping time

Haha

Human will do sth "extraordinary" once in a while

This stupid syane.ms.h2o did it few days ago

I don't know where the courage come from

It may affect sth

which you may not wish to experience it

But since you have done it

Then you have to take the responsibility to accept any consequences

Let it be naturally

It's not the time yet

It's the time to adjust

Thing will come when it's the right time

True right?

Substitute the right thing at the right time

That's what I learnt in Additional Mathematics last time

It's applicable in our daily life

=)

I'm not that kind of person

I'm not...

Caffeine will definitely make people become hyper

I drank Nescafe in order to make myself stay awake after the Chemistry Practical

The chemical we used during the practical made me feel drowsy and sleepy

But I think I shouldn't take in caffeine before test

It made me lost the ability to think

and made me feel more nervous instead

I didn't do well in the test

I didn't even finish the paper

So bad

It's my fault

Must learn from the mistakes

=)

It's not the time yet...

It's not the time yet...

I know it's not the time yet...

=)

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I'm not special anymore...

I'm not special anymore

Is it because I did sth wrongly?

Why I always get hurt?

Is it my fault?

Most of the decision I made are wrong?

Why you never think of my feeling?

I'm a human

An ordinary human

Don't you know word can kill people?

Too many things happen at the same time

I can't take it

Give me some time

I need time to digest everything

I believe I can handle it

But you never give me a chance

I will take the responsibility in everything that I have done 

I believe I can

But you never...

Crying is just a way to express your feeling

But it will not be the solution of the problem

Or I should be brave

And say goodbye to the bad things

Hold the pain and tear

Move forward

I will see a rainbow after the thunderstorms

Unexpectable...

Unexpected thing is a surprise

A surprise can either be good or bad

If you can predict the thing to happen

then it is no longer a surprise ady

In your life you may experience those surprises

Maybe someone just buy you sth that you eager for 

Maybe someone just tell you sth randomly which can make you feel good

Maybe someone just give you a random but beautiful smile

Many things happen all of a sudden

Who knows?

These are the surprises which can "earn" your broad & sweet smile

Make you feel you're in the cloud nine

But do you ever think

Sth happened suddenly

And this unexpected event may bring moodiness & sadness to someone

There is no longer happiness & joy

Due to the unexpected event

Someone may need to suffer from pain 

This kind of unexpected event usually takes short time to happen

Maybe just one hour,one day,one week....

Changes can take place within a week,a day or even an hour

Not everyone can withstand the changes which took place all of a sudden

No one will know how long does the effect act on the person

Feeling is the one can get people into different mood

But different individual will have different situation

It may be or it may not be

Like what ET said

Scorpio's 6th sense is always that accurate

+ Girl's instinct

This is why what I guess are mostly correct

But not all the time

Because my intuition may be "on the blink"

Haha

But most of the time I trust my intuition

And this is the reason why I will feel insecured sometimes

Because I can sense sth is wrong

I know it cannot be trusted 100%

Since the efficiency of my intuition is not 100%

Sometimes due to the curiosity

You will eager to know the answer of sth

But you don't have the courage to ask or inquire for the answer

End up with a big question mark in your mind

which may distract your attention

I feel because I care

=)

First and Last...

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Today is the last day of March

And this will be my last post in March

So I'm going to make a conclusion for my March

Within this month

syane.ms.h2o experienced a lot of things

I gained new things

I lost somethings

No pain no gain mah

Life is like a curve

There are positive and negative curve

It's like a cubic curve 

There are some turning points

I just glanced through my posts in March

As you can read from there,you can know my life in March

Quite interesting for me

But now those have become my memory ady

Fond memory

Today I flashed back a lot of things

That's why I'm here

Hehe

Now you can understand the "Last" from the blog title right?

About the "First"

It is because I'm undergoing a new process

Sound weird right?

Haha

I don't know

But the "First" means I wish to have a new and better life

A better me too

I don't know what I have done wrongly

Maybe hurt someone or what indirectly

But I just want to apologise here

I'm so sorry..

Dear readers

Don't get prank or prank people tmr ooh

Happy April Fool

Have a nice weekend too

Karma....

Being buried by tonnes of homework

Being buried by the coming tests

It's the time for me to take my breath here

Time for me to relax myself and vent sth here

Hehe

A short post will do

Thing that I don't want it to happen

Finally it happened

I can do nothing except doubting and wondering

It's a karma

I did it to other then now it's my turn to experience it

Cause & Consequence

So I will not say anything

Smile smile smile 

And the thing will "fade out"

Hopefully

Because I cannot afford anymore if I didn't get myself away from that

To my readers

Don't scratch your head and wonder what I'm talking about

This is my inner voice 

So it is a secret =)

Pray hard for me and give me some supports will do

I need courage and determination desperately

See you