I realise...

Every time I read tempura's bloggie
I feel envious and happy
She can do a lot of things with her friends
My life just full of stress huh?
These few days it was really "hardcoring"
I keep on stretching myself mentally
But the pressure does not increase with my output
I realised that I will just come to Garden of Tranquility to express my tension
But not any happiness huh?
So miserable
I have fun and tension at the same time
Can laugh like hell in the college
But I really need to withstand high pressure
Is it because I'm a perfectionist?
I don't know
I don't think I have done my best
It's hard for me to master now
I don't know how to think and how to answer in the right way
Even my time management also has problem
Damn stressful
These few days I can't sleep well
I feel one kind in my heart
Argh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Feel like yelling and shouting like a mad people
If tears dropped
Wipe and stand up
Tell myself not to give up easily
I need to force my brain to work
It is a must!!!!

Find...

Few days ago
I read an article which is quite meaningful
But I forget where I put the paper
So I just tell you based on what I remembered
The title is "Pain Is Also A Happiness"
I'm so sorry if the thing sounds weird because I translated it
In the article
They mentioned about pain
We used to think pain is a suffer
But do you ever think that pain is also one kind of hapiness?

In term of health
Without pain,you wouldn't know which part of your body has problem
And you wouldn't know there is a need to undergo a treatment
Let say you suffer from stomachache
Then it is a signal to tell you that you may have digestion problem
If one day you don't have any feeling
or you are numb
Then only you should feel scared
That's why if there is a problem occurs in our liver
By the time we realise the pain,it's too late
So,pain helps right?
In term of love
Our mothers suffered from pain while giving birth
That's why she will not abandon you
And I found sth interesting
There stated that if a mother has more than one child
If she gives more love to a particular child
That mean she suffered a lot when she was delivering the child
But I don't know it is true or not
On the other hand
You won't feel the pain if you didn't love him/her
In term of relationship with girl/boy
Once you break up
You may feel it is very suffering
You suffered because you love him/her
From what I get from the article
Pain is actually an indicator or stimulation
Without pain
You wouldn't realise the importance of the thing/person
Sometimes we just need patience
Find and wait for the right thing/person/timing to come
Because syane.ms.h2o believes that
Eventually,you will find the right one
It will appear but just the timing problem
Like what my friend told me
The Law of Attraction
The more you want,the higher the chance to get it
But you must work for it 

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Now it's my turn to talk about my thing
Guess what
I saw a Lamborghini in my college
Damn nice
It is white in colour and the owner is a P license holder some more
So rich!!!!
But it is really awesome
I think I'm going to fail my Bio Mock Exam
I think I did badly
TT
I don't know how to say and what to do ady
Is it because of phobia?
I can't even finish my paper
I felt I'm so stupid and useless
Can't even perform well

Quite disappointed

Sometimes envy will not bring any effects
You may just stand there and feel envious
Maybe because of my character
I admit I'm a weirdo
However,I believe I'm able to find someone who can understand me
I don't need everyone praise me or what
I just need someone who are real and frank
Maybe I don't have whole gang of buddies
But if I have few friends who can let me talk "deeply"
Shoo you,emptiness and loneliness
Even tough I miss and I envy
But nothing is perfect
This is my destiny
So what I can do is to try my best to be myself
People who know you
They will definitely know
This is more precious,isn't it?

Perhaps I'm eager to have sth
And the sth still hasn't left my heart
But I can just keep the faith on myself

Hypnotizing myself
Life will be better if you're lame and playful
Don't be so serious man...

Raining...raining...raining...

Recently Garden of Tranquility is so quiet

Everyone is not updating their bloggie

Too busy I think

Actually now is raining heavily
 Once it's raining,the thunder and lightning won't be absent to join the party

Wind will do the same way too

It has been a long time for me to stand in the rain
Feel like trying again
Sometimes I felt that my life is quite boring
Nothing special but I'm feel ok with it lu
Because I used to it
My bad character appears again
So dumb
I think I should stay away from Garden of Tranquility huh?

It seems most of the things are meaningless ady

I miss a lot of things now

Weird
I GTG
See you...=)

I miss You..

To all my readers

syane.ms.h2o misses you so much

Thanks for spending your time to be here

I'm here to update

Firstly

I want to shout

Finally I finished my LAN exam

I just wish to see a "P" there

A "P" will do

Haha

But next week is a horrible and hectic week

I'm going to be buried by tests and mocks

Must do very very well

Secondly

I miss all my sis suddenly especially Mushroom

This few days I never hear about her

Don't even online

So sad

Nowadays I'm quite busy

But that day I had my gathering with my primary school classmates

Wai Mun has created a group in Facebook

And we meet many of our friends

The gathering was so successful

I like it so much

Actually Mei Shan should be the main character 

This is because she came from Penang

She seldom come back to KL

That's why we decided to have a gathering at the last minute

That day I had fun but I'm still being teased

They all never change

=.=

Pity Deolacus

And out of sudden

Jing Hao said he liked me before

Quite surprising

=)

I wish all my friends are doing well now

Especially to sweet pumpkin,darlz and noname

Sweet pumpkin & darlz

I really hope you can get what you want

I know you are obsessive

Haha

Noname

I know it's stressful now 

Hope you can work better under the high pressure 

That's what I told you before

But must know how to take it yea

Later denature..xD

I think that's all for today

Tomorrow have to wake up early to help in the 9th National English Debate Competition

See you

=)

Give up...

I have struggled for some time

Keep on figuring the answer out

Scratching my head

I think I know what to do ady

The answer is the title of the blog post

Give up

I have to give up in order to protect myself

I'm quite calm now

I will bury that thing

Now syane.ms.h2o is back to normal

So I hope the thing won't trouble me anymore

Because I understand force no happiness

My instinct is accurate as I mentioned before

Just because I'm stubborn and I insist to try

That's why I suffer

So now

No more

Goodbye...

As one of my friend told me this

" Maybe the God is trying to help you,

if not pursuing some worthless mission isn't going to help in the end. 

It's better for you to give up early than later.

Save your golden time."

I will take it positively

Thanks for your advise

=)

Goodbye...

Style...

After giving myself three days holidays

I hope I can have a clearer mind

I hope I can perform better in the coming exam

Rest is to walk for longer journey

Syane.ms.h2o says 

"Once I decide to pay for you,I won't give up easily.

Once you are my target,I will try my best to let you be mine.

Yet,I understand force no happiness.

But I will try my very best to do the best.

No matter on people or things.

Don't be too kiasu."

That's syane.ms.h2o.

That's me.

I would like to be perservering

But not too obsessive

Now I want to be carefree a little bit

I don't want to be tensed up easily

I welcome challenges

I want to make myself busy and see whether I can withstand the high pressure or not

Tomorrow will be quite challenging and tiring

Class from 8am until 7pm

Teach from 8pm until 10pm

Let's see how I will be

Mock exam is around the corner

I must perform well

Learn from the mistakes in mock exam

After that,do well in the real exam

JPA is not my only target

Just try my best will do

Hwaiting in the interview on Tuesday

Same goes to all my classmates and friends

*Piggie

If syane.ms.h2o did sth which let you feel uncomfortable

She apologises here

Let's just back to normal

Thanks for giving her some nice moments

=)

*Noname

Syane.ms.h2o supports you

Go ahead and work for your new target

I believe you can do it

Don't ever look down on yourself!!!!

=)

*To all my readers

I think I will leave here for a while

I will update when there is a necessity

Or I have the inspiration to blog

If not,I wish I can utilise my time well to do sth else

But I will never forget my Garden of Tranquility

Garden of Tranquility will always be my part of life

My dear readers will always be my part of life too

=)

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Finally...

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Suddenly suffered from a bad headache

Suffering

I have made up my mind ady

I know what should I do ady

 I choose to give up

Or I put it in another way

I choose not to care

I found that I always care for people who don't really care about me

Sometimes I will neglect those who care for me 

Sth's wrong with me right??

Haha

Be a carefree one

I should let myself be busy

As I'm busy right now

I need to make myself even busier

Do not rely on sth else

Enjoy my college life

Maybe my classmates are going to leave us

This is just 1 and a half year for us to be together in HELP

So must enjoy the life there

Laugh as loud as you can

Crap as much as you can

I don't care anymore

Open my eyes
Then I realise it was only just a dream...
It was ONLY JUST A DREAM...

*Garden of Tranquility is the only place I have my own privacy
*I just need my own space
*Stop stalking me
*That's just a simple requirement