Can you hear me?

Where is syane.ms.h2o?
Anybody know?
She couldn't find herself now
She doesn't know what she wants
She doesn't know where is her heart
She doesn't know everything
"Why you make the thing so complicated?
It's just simple! "
I really don't know what to do
I don't even know how to interpret thing
I'm trying to make the thing perfect?
I wish to make everyone satisfied?
I'm so sorry because I'm being too annoying
I bring a lot of troubles to my friends & my family
Just a simple stuff
And I keep on bugging others
I'm so sorry for being so annoying
I apologise here
I don't know what I am doing
I don't know which one is the best solution
Everyone believe I can make the best decision
But I think I'm going to disappoint you all
Because the truth is I CAN'T
I'm sucks
TT
Talk about sucks
To tempura
You're not sucks okay?
Now we have to be far-sighted
Because our "circle" before is too small
Now you're in a bigger "circle"
It is normal for you to feel that
But convert it into the energy which can drive you to learn and master it
Add oil yea=)
I think for so many days
Many brain cells died
Much h2o are wasted
I'm dehydrated
I may need a long sleep
I know that I should be brave
I'm running out of time
My heart is pumping slowly
I have no energy ady
Low battery
I'm exhausted
syane.ms.h2o,can you hear me?
God,can you hear me?

Haemolysis...

Finally can log in my bloggie
I'm sorry because I can't control myself
There is a matter which troubles me
Today my mum told me
" Your godmother guessed that the reason you don't want to become a doctor is not because you scare of blood butis because you scare to face death."
I think it is quite true
Now I'm in dilemma
I hate to face the truth that someone is leaving
Now I'm the one who is going to choose to leave
I need to say goodbye to Edexcel A-Levels and Group B
All my friends I met in HELP University College
I'm heavy hearted to leave you all
Actually I haven't decided yet
But most of them said is good to pursue
Can ease parents' burden
And you are 100% confirm you can do Pharmacy
If you continue studying A-Levels
The probability for me to get scholarship in the future is 50%
Honestly,I like A-Levels because it is challenging
I really scare I choose the path wrongly
as it is related to my future
God,can you give me guidance or hint?
I really don't know how to choose
*To -___noob___-
You really...
Make me loss of h2o
I'm not going to forget the "large" file we have
I'm not going to forget every single moment we had
Never
Seriously
I have intangible feeling lu
Don't know how to describe
Sad will do

I'm really don't know how to do
But I will still sit for my exam on mon
Anyone who pass by Garden of Tranquility
Give me some ideas please
*syane.ms.h2o got an offer from JPA
Foundation in Science for 18 months in UCSI
Bachelor in Pharmacy for 4 years in UCSI
She has to reply before 20 May

Register at UCSI on 21st May if she has decided to accept the offer
Insomnia

War starts...

War is going to start soon
And I think this is my last time to blog until my war ends
All my mock papers are with me now
And I believe that you can predict how I score
If I score well then I think I won't be here
Sad case
But now I wipe my tears and get ready to work hard
Like what my Chem lecturer said today
You thought the top in your class are just smart?
Behind the smartness,there is hard work which you cannot see
Ya and I do agree that
I saw and sensed how the top worked
Then all the hard works have paid off
He scored extremely well
Then I look at myself in the mirror
I think
Did I work very hard for the mock exam?

If the answer is no then I deserved the low mark
I'm not hardworking enough if I compare with my classmates
That's what I have to change from now on
I think there is sth wrong on my attitude and study method
Whenever you don't understand a small little matter
You cannot ignore
If you tends to ignore,the question marks in your head will be more and more
Then you will know the consequences
To all my readers
What I realise now is we cannot just study without using our brain
In the class,you have to absorb and think
Not just absorb and copy blindly
I think I always do that
That's why when comes to application
I don't know how to apply my knowledge
I don't know how many of you are still reading my bloggie
But this is just my opinion
For those who still support Garden of Tranquility
Thank you
*To those who are going to sit for exam or sitting for exam
I wish you all the best
Don't be distracted by anything
The more the distractions,the lower the probability for you to score
Exam is 99% hard work and 1% luck
So I believe hard work is the one which lead you to success but not luck
See you after 26 May

Ouch..It's so painful...

The Garden of Tranquility in my heart is covered by cloud
Dark cloud
And eventually the rain dropped and made the land wet
At this moment,h2o made the land in my heart wet
The rain came and went
And this process is repeated for so many times
Sunlight is unable to come in
Cloudy and rainy day in my heart
I know I deserved it
But it is really painful
Whenever I tell my family or classmates
Their response is "Huh?!"
I'm so sorry for disappointing you
Seriously I need to slap myself ady
Regret for nothing
Devastated~
Sob sob
I'm so sorry
I need time to recover from the pain
The pain of April is gone
No more
Now this is pain of May
Here I would like to thank
1.Sweet pumpkin
She has a tough time because I keep on throwing negative stuff on her
Her eyes and ears have to suffer because I always merungut
Thanks a lot,dear~
2.Darling
She is the best darling ever
The best consultant and motivator ever
She came at the right time when I need her
I will remember "mutual"
*To sweet pumpkin & Darling*
syane.ms.h2o is crossing her fingers
I hope I can get good news from both of you tomorrow
Good luck

3.-_____protie_____-
He always makes joke and makes me feel relax
He taught me a lot of things
Taught me how to see thing differently
Think differently
I never think we can be that close
We are unusual
When two weirdos come together
Nice
Thank you for your companion

That day I saw someone commented on tempura's status in FB
The style is like Pn.Low
I suddenly miss her so much
She can always understand me
And give me useful opinion

I think I need to regulate and recover asap
I don't want to let the thing happen
It will never happen
If I have strong determination
See you guys soon
Thanks for spending your time to read emo post..
Have a nice weekend
=)

I realise...

Every time I read tempura's bloggie
I feel envious and happy
She can do a lot of things with her friends
My life just full of stress huh?
These few days it was really "hardcoring"
I keep on stretching myself mentally
But the pressure does not increase with my output
I realised that I will just come to Garden of Tranquility to express my tension
But not any happiness huh?
So miserable
I have fun and tension at the same time
Can laugh like hell in the college
But I really need to withstand high pressure
Is it because I'm a perfectionist?
I don't know
I don't think I have done my best
It's hard for me to master now
I don't know how to think and how to answer in the right way
Even my time management also has problem
Damn stressful
These few days I can't sleep well
I feel one kind in my heart
Argh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Feel like yelling and shouting like a mad people
If tears dropped
Wipe and stand up
Tell myself not to give up easily
I need to force my brain to work
It is a must!!!!

Find...

Few days ago
I read an article which is quite meaningful
But I forget where I put the paper
So I just tell you based on what I remembered
The title is "Pain Is Also A Happiness"
I'm so sorry if the thing sounds weird because I translated it
In the article
They mentioned about pain
We used to think pain is a suffer
But do you ever think that pain is also one kind of hapiness?

In term of health
Without pain,you wouldn't know which part of your body has problem
And you wouldn't know there is a need to undergo a treatment
Let say you suffer from stomachache
Then it is a signal to tell you that you may have digestion problem
If one day you don't have any feeling
or you are numb
Then only you should feel scared
That's why if there is a problem occurs in our liver
By the time we realise the pain,it's too late
So,pain helps right?
In term of love
Our mothers suffered from pain while giving birth
That's why she will not abandon you
And I found sth interesting
There stated that if a mother has more than one child
If she gives more love to a particular child
That mean she suffered a lot when she was delivering the child
But I don't know it is true or not
On the other hand
You won't feel the pain if you didn't love him/her
In term of relationship with girl/boy
Once you break up
You may feel it is very suffering
You suffered because you love him/her
From what I get from the article
Pain is actually an indicator or stimulation
Without pain
You wouldn't realise the importance of the thing/person
Sometimes we just need patience
Find and wait for the right thing/person/timing to come
Because syane.ms.h2o believes that
Eventually,you will find the right one
It will appear but just the timing problem
Like what my friend told me
The Law of Attraction
The more you want,the higher the chance to get it
But you must work for it 

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Now it's my turn to talk about my thing
Guess what
I saw a Lamborghini in my college
Damn nice
It is white in colour and the owner is a P license holder some more
So rich!!!!
But it is really awesome
I think I'm going to fail my Bio Mock Exam
I think I did badly
TT
I don't know how to say and what to do ady
Is it because of phobia?
I can't even finish my paper
I felt I'm so stupid and useless
Can't even perform well

Quite disappointed

Sometimes envy will not bring any effects
You may just stand there and feel envious
Maybe because of my character
I admit I'm a weirdo
However,I believe I'm able to find someone who can understand me
I don't need everyone praise me or what
I just need someone who are real and frank
Maybe I don't have whole gang of buddies
But if I have few friends who can let me talk "deeply"
Shoo you,emptiness and loneliness
Even tough I miss and I envy
But nothing is perfect
This is my destiny
So what I can do is to try my best to be myself
People who know you
They will definitely know
This is more precious,isn't it?

Perhaps I'm eager to have sth
And the sth still hasn't left my heart
But I can just keep the faith on myself

Hypnotizing myself
Life will be better if you're lame and playful
Don't be so serious man...

Raining...raining...raining...

Recently Garden of Tranquility is so quiet

Everyone is not updating their bloggie

Too busy I think

Actually now is raining heavily
 Once it's raining,the thunder and lightning won't be absent to join the party

Wind will do the same way too

It has been a long time for me to stand in the rain
Feel like trying again
Sometimes I felt that my life is quite boring
Nothing special but I'm feel ok with it lu
Because I used to it
My bad character appears again
So dumb
I think I should stay away from Garden of Tranquility huh?

It seems most of the things are meaningless ady

I miss a lot of things now

Weird
I GTG
See you...=)