To make you feel my love

If you believe in God,then you will know His arrangement is meant for you to learn

No pain no gain

He will arrange nice thing after you have gone through the bad one

It is just the matter of time

In life, we will meet different kinds of people and different kinds of problems

Undeniably, God loves me

He let me meet some awesome people in my life

Without magnifying the bad part of my life, these 19 years of life is good enough

I must be grateful enough 

Do not look at the mountain which is far away

Look at the stone in front of you

We shouldn't describe the obstacles right?

However, this can only be done when you gain your positivity back

This morning, I was down due to a small matter

My world was full of dark clouds suddenly

I felt myself so useless and did some unnecessary stuffs

I didn't think I contribute to my family 

Instead, I am increasing their burden

All kinds of sh*t flooding my brain

Sitting in front of the laptop for whole day

Did those i-lectures for my lecture preparation for these two days since I have the time today

Renovated my bloggie (credit to noname.mr.h2o )

Had a super simple dinner - cereal

Thank you Jenn for coming out for me

I really appreciate that

The feeling was so warm

To the only one

You made my day

You always put efforts just to make me happy

I was so touched until I feel like tearing

I can truly feel your love 

That kind of warm feeling,guess I didn't make you feel that before right?

Seriously, I really appreciate it 

It makes me recall many things

We are always the 1 

I'm glad and lucky to have you

I'm fortunate to be the special one for you 

Thank you bee

The Second Month & The First Week

We said goodbye to August and welcome the September

Time flies,I have started my degree-Bachelor of Pharmacy in IMU

Last week was my orientation week

I'm quite lucky to meet some awesome friends and seniors here

Friends from all over the place

Some orientation programmes were pretty boring because of those uninteresting talks and briefings

Some were nice because there was a commitment between the members of the orientation group

The best one was the station games that I joined

Basically I'm still adapting to the degree life

Classes will start from this week onwards

Guess I will be getting busier and more hectic

Just hope I can do everything smoothly

Meet awesome people

*To chin

All the best! I don't know how I should you instead

Just can give you moral support and talk to you when you need a listener

There was something happened 

Yet we are still able to cope with it

No matter how long it will take

The most important thing is not to give up

We may feel tired or frustrated

But must let it last for a while only

Thank you and sorry if you feel something

We have coped it for 2 months

Smile and move on! 

The Process

The beginning is always the toughest part 

Some people choose not to continue because they cannot bear the hardship

End up with nothing

The process may be suffering but we have to proceed in order to succeed

In our daily life,we have to go through so many different processes

We may face different difficulties during the process

For me,success will not come without any hardship and endurance 

Recently I seldom update my blog 

There are happy,upset,sweet things happened

Just that I have no inspiration and time to blog about it

Friendship and relationship

I have a few great friends who always share their happiness and sadness with me

They will let me know how they think and how they feel

We are close until we can simply tease and insult each other without feeling bad

We are close until we can share something personal and private

I am glad to have friends who can be frank to me

Tell me what they think about me in order to let me improve myself

Thank you very much 

A great appreciation and gratefulness to you 

Without you,I wouldn't have realised those problems

We do respect each other 

Let them know my stands,so do them

The main thing in maintaining friendship is concern and respect

Always be a good listener when they want me to lend them my ears

Always be a good consultant when they want me to give opinions

Always be a good mirror when they want to do self reflection

Always be a good partner when they want my companion

Vice versa

That's how friendship can be maintained

Now at this age,the friends whom we are looking for are those who can help us in our life 

The true friends

Unfortunately,it is kinda hard to get this kind of friends

Therefore,we must appreciate and be grateful once we get them

God arranges everything with His reason

I always believe in that 

To my besties, thanks for making me not lonely 

Thanks for spending your time with me when I am in need 

All the best to you in your studies and life 

I may be passive sometimes but I will always think of you

To the only one

I'm coping well as you said even the process is not easy

I hope this can last as what we planned 

But must remember force no happiness

Thank you for making my days 

Without you,I will not be as positive as I can

Thank you for helping me to solve problems when I need opinions

Thank you for thinking to lighten my burden 

You are always the source of my energy besides my family and close friends

The support you gave to me means a lot to me

We are always the one 

Two hearts beat as one 

I will always be grateful and thank God 

Thanks God for sending so many wonderful and awesome people to me 

They make my life more meaningful and wonderful 

Thank you so much!

Growing up & Take it as Challenge

I'm going to experience the next stage of life soon

In the progress of preparing myself,I realise that there are so much to learn

The attitude and mindset should be different

It is the time for me to behave like an adult

Have a mature thinking and yet not too conservative 

Actually I found that I can rarely be positive in thinking

That's why God send you to me 

In order to remind me to stay strong and be positive in life

The challenges come one after one 

It will never come to an end as life is all about learning and coping 

I hope I can cope well 

It may be very suffering and uneasy at the beginning

But I must always remind myself to endure and persevere 

I cannot be defeated that easily 

If not what is done is all wasted and become meaningless

I need to grow up 

I need to overcome the obstacles alone but with the support from those who love me

I must tell myself to be grateful 

I'm having a life which is much more better than others

Trying to communicate with my subconscious mind and hypnotise myself

Quote from my only one 

"First step is to dream

Second step is to believe

Third step is to act

Fourth step is to succeed"

I will tell myself not to give up and always believe in God

Believe in what I'm going to do 

To believe it,we must have a strong determination

Never be influenced by any negative power which lead you to failure

To take action,we must be determined too

These are the toughest part to succeed

Must always remind myself by listening to "The Climb" by Miley Cyrus

I appreciate those friends who gave me some ideas and advices 

In our life,we can't meet many of friends who can point out your mistakes when you did sth wrongly

Who can put themselves in your shoes and understand your situation

When I'm down and upset,I may not accept all the things you guys told me

But after I have calmed down,I will really consider what you guys said to me

Frankly speaking,I always expect some kind of consolation from people

That usually won't happen in the real life

This only make my life seems more miserable 

My biggest weakness

I should be grateful because people still with me when I'm not in the right mood or I'm facing problems

I'm glad to have you to be with me

Those who did,you know who you are 

Thank you and sorry

Good luck to Sinyee tmr!

The Dark Night

Before the night came,I thought it would be a "bright" night

I have so many things in my head to share

Yet something ruined it

Thanks to it,my mood all gone

I can't even talk properly,can't even listen properly,can't even enjoy properly

It is so hard to seize the chance

It just went off 

At this dark night

I realise that I'm such a bitch

I always think I'm right

I don't know how to think for others

I don't know how to put myself in others' shoes

I don't know how to understand people and be considerate

I sucks

I always think I can manage I can do it

In fact,I can't

I overestimate myself 

I confused

I need some guidances 

I need some ideas

I don't know I can cope with it or not

My brain is full of question marks now

I'm doubting about my own ability

I don't know.........

A month

Loiter to Garden of Tranquility

Just drop by to update about my current life

As most of you know,I got a call from IMU two weeks ago
According to IMU,my conditional offer will be withdrawn if I still cannot confirm with them

Due to this call,I need to make up my mind earlier than what I expected 

Tomorrow I'm going to settle the first instalment and some documents to confirm my offer

Out of all this,the most troublesome and fretful one is the accommodation

Now it is kinda hard to get a room that I'm looking for

What I got is "sorry,it is rented out" 

"sorry,it is no longer available"

Due to a sudden call,many things have changed 

Due to financial problem,I need to settle so many things regarding the fees

Due to financial problem,I need to give up my dream-study in overseas 

I will pursue my study with my hard work and enthusiasm 

Last thing,the perseverance 

I'm so sorry because few days didn't touch my h3lix 

A nice outing with my gang

I still feel one kind because you are not there

Like a body without a soul

Went to the place we hung out before

It is like reminiscing our sweet time

Thank you for making the outing meaningful,my friends

We are going to face the day together-16 August

That is the day which you know where to proceed

Good luck friends and me

Good luck to those who did Cambridge A levels-13 August

Take care everyone

And the only one

I miss you so much

ILY

The Third Week

Today is the third week we persevere

You are still as busy as a BEE

But I can understand

I don't know what's wrong with me today

Just feel like crying

I feel that my heart is very heavy today

Suffer a bit from heartache

My day seems so packed and occupied 

But my mind is extremely emptied and messy

Trying hard to make myself feel better and happier

Maybe I need a rest or what

Seriously,I have no idea

I should make myself busier and occupy my time with many many things

So that I won't have time to think so much

Suddenly recalled how hard I cried that day

Now I feel there is sorrow deep within but I can't do anything
Not even crying

Seriously,NO IDEA

Maybe somebody said something and the "fire" in my heart is blew out

This "fire" does not stand for anger

But it is a spirit,determination

It is kinda demoralising

It is the time for me to wake myself up and keep the "fire" burning in my heart

It should not be extinguished by anything

I can stand firmly,I can...

I must tell myself to stay strong to face any possibilities

And now I should make myself adapt to a new life

A life of being alone 

Stand still and face every single difficulties alone 

Toughly...

And yea,I should be able to do it

Should be...

To Sinyee

Actually be a tutor is not really hard

Maybe I have no qualification to comment about anything 

But just to let you know patience is the most important

Your students are kids,so this is different from my situation

But I can truly understand your feeling

This is quite normal as we are students too

Sometimes we need to be a bit carefree

Not to say give up on the students or what

Maybe lecture will do

I don't know because my students are secondary school students

They should be able to understand what I'm saying

But we are human and we can't control what they think

That's why it is kinda hard to change their mind and attitude

Take it easy 

This will definitely be a good chance for you to grow and gain something

Smile and welcome it..=)