Marathon

Hello peeps
Today is 220612
The day which syane.ms.h2o finish her exam marathon since 150612
Finally,the super hectic A Levels life has come to an end
The feeling is not as great as I thought
Freedom is here wee..
So wertttt
Busy for 1.5 years and suddenly become so free
It is more likely to be emptiness instead of freedom
I have friends who don't like to snap picture
End up with 0 picture with classmates
So...a bit wasted lar
I don't care! Hope I can have a lot of pictures in Tioman Trip
Next Monday off to Tioman
My last trip with my gang
Today one of my classmates told me about the date of their flight
One of them is going to fly to Nottingham,UK on 18 Sept (pursuing Law)
One of them is going to fly to London,UK on 18 Sept (pursuing Medicine)
One of them is going to fly to Bristol,UK around end of Sept (pursuing Medicine)
One of them is going to fly to Hong Kong around Aug (pursuing Medicine)
One of them is going to fly to Hong Kong around Aug (pursuing Accounting)
The most important one is going to fly to Perth,Australia on 8 July (pursuing Medicine)
So sad
Result is coming out on 16 Aug
Basically now I have no idea where to go
No news from Singapore application
Just day-dreaming
Hahahaha
I'm happy to spend time with you today
A lot more to tell you
Seriously..
Really don't feel like letting you go
But I know it is impossible
The feeling is getting more and more real
Getting more and more =(
Let me keep some to myself
Mmmmmmm...

Goodbye

My exam starts officially tomorrow
160512
Good luck and all the best!
Don't panic
Think carefully
This is the last time and there is no more chance
So
No regret!
Put other things aside!
Good luck to my friends
Pray hard..
See you on 220612

Hwaiting!

Full of Frustration

I don't know what is wrong
Everything seems to be not right for me nowadays
God made my day not smooth
Full of depression and frustration
Maybe He has His own arrangement
So I keep reminding myself to stay strong
It is just one of the challenge in my life
Life is still long
I just can't take the frustration
I fed up,I cried,I get angry,I whacked myself
I did many things to hold myself back to the normal track
It must be my EQ problem
As usual
Some of you may be nodding at this moment
I admit I suck in that
Whenever I wish to give up
I tell myself
If I give up now,what is the point I persevere for so long?
All will be useless,meaningless
Is that what I want?
Definitely no
I want a better life
I don't want so much frets
I want Li Xuan to be stronger and tougher
But why I fail every time?

I'm really tired and exhausted
I keep telling myself to go through this period toughly
This frust period will end soon
Very soon
Trying to make myself to feel better
Today someone told me not to be good to everyone
It is true as you will get hurt eventually
Yesterday I experienced a terrible feeling
People threw away your cares and concerns like throwing rubbish
Okay. Maybe the timing is wrong
Fine. I don't want to care anymore
Thanks for your guitar session
You always be the reason for me to smile
Even though we didn't chat for long
But I felt better because I can feel you are with me
Besides that,I really want to thank someone
Someone who care and love me like a lover
I really appreciate
Without you,I can't imagine how miserable my life would be
Thank you for being there whenever I need you
Your consolation and companion are the best
Good luck in everything
I may not be able to give my companion as good as yours
But I just want to let you know

No matter what happen

You will still have me with you

Thank you very much and love yea
I'm really grateful to meet you and you
who understand me
Sometimes your respond is not the one I expected and wanted
But I still appreciate
Your existence is very very importance to me
Thank you and you for existing in my life
Make my life wonderful and colourful
I will try my best to convert the pain given by those whom I care into motivation
I will try my best to overcome the obstacles
I'm vulnerable
Please don't treat me good if you don't really want to
Please don't think everything I do is my obligation
I can choose not to care
But once I care for you
Mean you worth it
Don't just throw my care like rubbish
Do this if you think I'm nobody for you
To Sin Yee
All the best in your final exam
Same goes to me
Thank you for reading

T.G.I.M.Y.

Time flies
We are getting closer and closer
Is our 5th month
I'm hereby to say
Thank you
Sorry
You mean a lot to me
You are so important to me
Thanks for being with me
Thanks for being my another half
Lastly

Thanks God I Meet You
ILY
<3

Appreciation..

Thanks for those who care for me
You know who you are
I'm sorry because I made you worried about me
Thanks for your concerns
I just get overwhelmed by my stress
I posted this to show my appreciation to those who care about me
I'm glad to have you in my life,my friends
Every single words you used made me feel secured

Mocks are coming

That mean final is coming soon

Never think my A levels life is going to end soon

If I'm not mistaken,next week will be the last week of my A levels
Time flies
Now what I can do is to study super hard
There is no U turn now
This will be the last chance
The final result will affect my future
Whether I can get the offer and the scholarships
Future is unknown
Life is getting tougher
I'm going to face many things soon
Good luck to me and you
Thanks for wasting your time to read all my posts
Thank you
Have a good day ahead

先苦后甜

这几天的我
变得很脆弱
脆弱得我不喜欢
我不喜欢这样的感觉
差不多每一天都尝到眼泪的苦涩
累了，流了
振作起来，继续努力
每一天在睡觉前思考
明天要温习什么科目
要花多少个小时
自己给自己的压力
身边朋友用功读书

无形中也变成了我的压力
抚心自问
我有很努力吗? 我不懂
常常催眠自己，告诉自己
先苦后甜
真的很苦
感觉上很多事情在发生
影影约约觉得有很多很多的事情在前方等着我

我不知道自己还有没有勇气走下去
是自己承担压力的能力太低
我不懂
此时此刻
我真的很希望有个肩膀可以让我依靠
让我觉得我不是一个人在面对
尽管如此，我知道我必须接受事实
目前很多事情都是自己在处理
自己在承受
或许大家会认为
都是我自寻烦恼
做了错误的选择
有时候不是我不分享
只是我看到你们烦的样子
我的心更烦，更乱，更心痛
有些时候就只是希望
可以在你那里得到一些安慰
就只是要这样
我多么希望我可以有一个晚上的时间
去看看电影，跟朋友聚一聚，一起哈拉
给自己一个可以毫无忧虑的的空间
那就足够了
真的累了

又是时候走了
再见

Sigh

Why things can't be perfect?
I want it to be nearly perfect but I don't have the ability
Sigh

Exam is coming soon
It will end soon
Everything will end soon
And we don't have much time
Heartache

Stress
Things can't be done nicely
Work hard until I feel exhausted
Outcome isn't what I want

Money
Trouble me
No money will die
Sigh