1 flies and 2 comes..

Today is the last day of 2011
First and foremost
Happy Birthday to You
My dearest DAddY!!

In 2011
There are so much changes in my life
Sweet,bitter,happy,sad...
I said goodbye to my secondary school life
And said hi to my A Levels life
Obviously,the life is totally different
Talk about college life
I think my college life is not as interesting as others
But I am glad to meet all of you who are from different backgrounds
Excluding our exam period
We left 3 months + to be together
After that we will be in different edge of the world
Meeting new friends,pursuing different things
Hope you guys have a wonderful 2012
May all your sweet dreams come true
My future doctor friends
Talk about secondary school buddies
One year has gone
Yet, we are still close
I appreciate our friendship
Especially to my dear intimates
I hope we can still stay close
And share whatever we want
Be crazy whenever we want
Maybe the chance for us to meet up will become lesser
I still hope our friendship will not "rust"
I love you
Talk about family
In 2012
Grandfather is not with us anymore
But he will live in our heart
I miss his voice and his smile
All my family members
Stay strong
I hope we can gather frequently
Those who work,good luck in working
Those who study,all the best in study
The most important thing is
STAY HEALTHY!!!
I love you
My F.A.M.I.L.Y.
Talk about you
My present in 2011
I am lucky and grateful to have you
We don't know how long we can go
So why don't we just hold hands and walk as far as we can
Yours fits mine
I will never forget every single moments we had together
Now is the time for us to have a new folder for 2012
Saranghaeyo

Simple.=)

Life is simple when we don't think too much
Life is interesting when we don't complain much
Life is wonderful when we learn to forget and forgive
Time is what we need when we are not in the right mood
Talk to someone whom you trust
It may make you feel better
But most of the time
I can't find anyone when I am in need
So I must learn to face it alone

Time will heal all the wounds
People will emo when they think too much
And they start doubting
At that moment,we have to keep on telling ourselves
Thing is not as bad as we thought
We must keep on believing
Convince yourselves to believe
I know that is not easy as I always fail to do so
But it really takes time
Sure can overcome it
It is just the matter of time
Keep the mind as simple as we can
Then life will not be too miserable
Do not expect anything
Keep on telling yourselves like that
It is really bitter to taste disappointment and tears

Thanks to Edexcel
I have no Christmas & CNY celebrations
Coincidentally,I can't really celebrate CNY next year even I have no exam
I always tell myself
Bitterness comes before sweetness
The stupid brain is trying hard to take it in
I hope the brain is really telling me I can do it
This time round,my stress doesn't drive me work harder
Kinda suffering
Strive for the best !!!!
Must~~~~

Fate...

很多事情其实早已注定
怎么样逃也逃不掉
生老病死
是每个人必经的过程
真的没想到
我看着我的公公病倒
看着他微弱的呼吸
看着他痛苦
心也痛了起来
一直到他闭上双眼长眠
这些所有的所有
我还历历在目
有点难接受他就这样走了
真的很心疼
感谢dears在我需要的时候给我安慰
问候我，疼我，关心我
想办法哄我开心
我真的非常感激与珍惜
公公曾经因为我说我要做医生而感到开心
之前还在犹豫
现在我想做医生的心更加坚定
我希望我可以让王家引以为傲
成为王家第一个医生
所以我必须更加坚强
更加努力

你
谢谢你不惜一切的为我付出
我都看在眼里
谢谢你的爱
我真的很庆幸可以认识你
我真的没有想到我可以遇到一个跟我那么有默契的人
太多的巧合
似乎不是巧合那么简单了
每次我们有很多巧合的时候
其实我真的很开心
也很庆幸
觉得自己很幸运
可以遇到那么好的人
虽然不知道会有多久
但我只想珍惜我们所拥有的每一刻
不要让彼此后悔
喜欢彼此有的默契
喜欢彼此之间的妥协
喜欢彼此所付出的一切
喜欢彼此的所有
真的真的很珍惜与在乎
已经是笔墨所能形容

感激所有可为我付出的朋友们
你们永远是最棒的
我王俐璇真的很幸运
能够在你们的生命里留下我的脚印
谢谢
我爱你们
打从心里的话

Sooner or Later..

Everything will come to an end eventually
Just the matter of time
No matter how
We should just appreciate what we have now
Be grateful because you own it
Regardless human or objects
Thank God because we still alive
We are still breathing
We still have the ability and strength to do what we want to do
Most of the things are fated
You can't stop it from happening
That is quite impossible
So what we can do is just accept
Even though you know the thing may end soon
You must appreciate
Don't let yourself feel regret
At the end,you will still have the memories with you
Do what you want to do as long as it is still within the limit
Don't be too demanding
Don't exceed the limit and disrupt the equilibrium
Dearss
Just stay with me as long as you can
That's all
I will stay with you all as long as I can too

Maturity...

Because of you
I learn how to live in the current moment and appreciate what I have now
Because of you
I become more matured
Because of you
I explore another side of syane.ms.h2o
Because of you
I have motivation
Because of you
I know I am not alone
Because of you
My mood swing frequency is lower
Thank you very much

Stressful life...
Mocks are killing me
However
I should keep on reminding myself
I am studying for the sake of final
Even I scored badly in mocks
There will still be time for me to improve
Utilise the time to make myself better
Finally
I have done my IELTS
Result will be out on 9 Dec
Crossing my fingers at least 7 please
If I got higher than this
I will be super happy
I want to make my money worth!
Now should focus in my exam
Thinking of ditching Sungha Jung...

The Time

The pages left in my diary is getting less and less
This indicates that the days approaching 2012 is getting less and less
When I flip my diary over and look at the event on certain day
I feel the pressure and tension
I sigh
I know I am running out of time
Yet I am not prepared
Not even one paper
I start worrying
I scared I screw my papers up AGAIN
I cannot afford to screw it up over and over
Now I keep on communicating with my subconscious mind
I can do it I can do it I can do it
I will strive for the best

At the same time
I sigh because time flies
Reading those statuses from my juniors who are the candidates of SPM'11
For me
SPM seemed to be a matter which happened yesterday
Without we realise it
We are one year older
So many things have changed
We are in different path

After another 6 months,I need to say goodbye to my A-Levels life
Say goodbye to my classmates
We may never meet again
I have to welcome the blur future with my opened arms
No one will know what will happen in the future
What we can do is moving forwards with a tough heart

Thanks to all my dears and darlz
Who have accompanied me for this year
They never forget me even though we are no longer in the same school
They still give me support
I don't care how my other friends treat me
For me
You all are the most important one
I am very haengbok now
I have 4 dears and 1 darlz who always support me and love me
I really appreciate what you have done for me
I hope we can still move on with this kind of relationship
I really mean it

God bless me
All my mocks and IELTS are during the same period
So many things are going on at the same time
I hope I am strong enough to withstand the high pressure
Crossing my fingers
Cannot waste time anymore
No way...
2012 Jan
I wish I can keep myself away from all the distractions
Good luck everyone

171111

Today is definitely not my day
My H2O in my body lost through my tear gland
I felt bad and guilty
The feeling of guilt is torturing me
Seriously
I am sorry my dear
Thanks for being frank to me
Let me know what I have done and what I should do
As you know
I treasure and appreciate you
When comes to friendship or even more than that
Nothing is more important than the inner part
Physical or talents are meaningless
When we get along then you will find that the trust is the most important
What I feel glad is the trust exists between us
It is very hard to have such friends
No matter what happen
I will not forget you as the capacity of our file is increasing
Get it?
Live at this moment
I feel better after reading the mail on the pencil
I found it quite meaningful
Thanks for your everything
I do appreciate
Seriously....

Big Question Mark...

It is so suffering to be a human
As a human,we have to carry out our obligation
We have to care this care that in our daily life
No matter what we are doing
We must think twice in order to please the majority
We can barely have the chance to do whatever we want
Be whatever you are without pretending and hiding
Try to use your hand to touch your left side of chest
How long have you pretended?
Who are you actually?
What is your real character actually?
Why must human have feelings?
I wish I can be cold-blooded
I wish I can adjust myself in front of different people

I wish I can have a remote control
But I am clear
What I wished will never come true
Never....
Useful advices will never be nice to be listened to
Words can kill
Seriously...
Use your brain before talking
Some words have the power to tear your heart into 2
Thanks to those who always forgive me
Thanks to those who always listen to my craps
Thanks to those who never giving me up

Before I leave here
I would like to wish my dearest juniors
Good luck in your SPM
All the best.=)
It is a  must to watch "You Are The Apple of My Eyes"
It is great
Credits to Giddens and all the actors and actresses

My pleasure..

Among 7 billion peoples in the world
I meet you
Fate brings us together
It is so amazing
In our life time
We meet so many peoples
How many of them can understand you and click well with you?
Only a handful of them,isn't it?
As time flies,the friendship will not fade
That's the true friendship
We are not going to please everyone in our life
Or I should say we are unable to please everyone in our life
Why must we make our life so miserable?
The joy is intangible when you can talk to someone who understand you well
Without telling in detail
The person will get what you mean
Without showing anything
The person will know how you feel
It is great,isn't it?
Fortunately,I have few of them
I think you know who you are
We always practise mutualism
You give then I take
I give then you take
"Thank you" & "Sorry" do not exist between us
Sometimes,silence wins
Without using any words
Yet,we still can communicate
I don't know why
I recall all the vivid moments I have with you
It is so nice and sweet to recall
As we go on
We remember all the times we had together
一段美好的回忆
值得被留恋
但人始终不能滞留在那里
路还是要走
心里总是希望

在我往后的日子
依然有你的陪伴
因为我的生活有你
才会变得更多姿多彩
因为在你的眼里
我会觉得我是独一无二的
我会觉得我是被重视的
谢谢你给我这种感觉
我亲爱的知己们
人往往不能够期待别人会对你好
因为那不是必然的
在这个世界上
没有说谁没有谁会活不下去
所以当你遇到值得你去好好对待的人
应该要把握机会
因为你会遇到
那并不容易
The "You" I mentioned here
Is a "plural"
I just want to tell "You" one by one
That's why I said you know who you are
syane.ms.h2o thanks God
Because He lets us meet and know each other
That's definitely my Great Great Pleasure

** I miss Christmas **

Surprises..

I have the greatest 18th birthday this year
What I can say is
All my friends are the best actors and actresses
Seriously,you all are good event planners
I was really surprised by you all
My 1st surprise was on 251011
My greatest last day of 17
Thank you
You know who you are
I am happy you are with me this year
My 2nd surprise was on 261011
Thank you
Chin*Sweet pumpkin*Noname.mr.h2o*ET*Hl*Pk*Froggie
You all made me TT
I was touched !!!!
Although it just last for 2 hours only
But it is more than enough. =)
At the night time, I have great time with my family
I love you,my family^^
My 3rd surprise was on 281011
Thank you
JY*Jenn*Noobie*Cavan*Raj*Sam*Cynthia*Khai*Raymond*Peter
I never expect everyone is coming
Since you all acted so well,gave me all the reasons
Touched touched
Thanks for the movie *Real Steel*
This movie is awesome
Thumbs up!!!
**** I enjoyed the processes ****
I appreciated what you have done
Thank you for all the wishes,cards and presents
Love you
<3

Sensitivity...

Sensitivity is the ability to detect the small changes
In Physics, it is good to have such an instrument
In real life, it is not really good to sensitive people
They tend to think too much when they are able to detect the small changes
Unfortunately, syane.ms.h2o is such a person
Once she detected sth is wrong
Her feeling will go wrong
Then she will feel the whole thing is wrong
I don't like the changes that I have detected
Maybe because I am too sensitive
Maybe I think too much
Maybe it is my problem
I understand
I will try to fix the problems
I gain happiness on the other side
I lose sth on the another side
God is fair

He gave you sth
He must do sth to balance it to prevent us from overwhelming
So, is it better not for us to overwhelm in sth?
I wonder..

I should apply my thinking skill in my study instead
Wasted wasted...

Fine powders..

I enjoyed 10 months of A-Levels life
Within these 10 months
I have learned many things
Either academical or non-academical
The main thing which I learn :
We must learn how to think
We should not narrow our mind
Think out of the box
Don't control your own curiosity and tell yourself
" It is okay."
Then you will lost an opportunity to enrich your mind
Be straight forward under certain circumstances
At the same time, we must care about others' feeling
To prevent them from having hard feelings
Slow your fast-moving footsteps down
Spend much time on the people around you
Who care you and love you the most

Education is very important
I just want to emphasise that early education is vitally important
We are like a white cloth without any stains
Parents are the painters who are going to make us to be better
What colour they want to use
What shape they want to draw
All depend on the parents
How we will be in the future is determined by our parents when we was young
I do believe that
Whether we have nice personality or not
All depend on the early education

Why is someone so special?
He must have something which others do not have
And the characteristic makes him to be outstanding
You can see he shines from far
I got the inspiration all of a sudden
So, it is such a random post
Anyway, good luck and take care
=)

Blessing...

During this period
I think most of you have to prepare to fight in a war
So you may not be able to read this post
This post is meant to convey my message to all the friends that I care
Especially those who are sitting for exam
To my friends who are doing Cambridge A-Levels
Good luck in your AS final exam
To Tempura
I know you are tensed up
Seriously, I never feel your stress & pressure until I read your post
I can feel your stress obviously
I know you are determined and you can do it
Stay calm and fight !
Good luck
All the best yea !
To my friends who are doing STPM
To ET & Froggie
I know both of you won't be able to read my blog
But I just want to send my blessing to you
Good luck in your exam
Especially ET
Don't be so pessimistic yea
Kinda worried about you lar
All the best !
To my friend who is doing SAM
The only one - noname.mr.h2o
Not only trial papers
Must finish your final papers too
You are running out of time
Good luck in your coming final exam in Nov
Although you keep on saying that you are lazy and bla bla bla
But I know you did put effort
Try your best to do your best yea
Remember your new file cover written by syane.ms.h2o
To my friend who is a JPA Scholar
Yes, the only one - bee
My whatsapp-pal
Most of the thing I will tell you through Whatspp
So you will know what I am going to say
Keep the memory with you to motivate yourself k?
Don't waste your water in your body
Later get dehydrated
To my friends who stay in jungle
A dear and a darlz
Take care
To sweet pumpkin
I know you will be very busy
But just organise your time well and you will be able to accomplish your task
To darlz
Open your big eyes and walk carefully
No more next time
Hope you are having a good progress in recovering
To all my juniors who are SPM candidates
Good luck in your coming SPM in Nov
Do well , no regret in the future
To all my current classmates
Good luck to you who are doing UKCAT, IELTS, SAT or BMAT
Good luck to us in the test next week
Sorry for being wordy
Take care friends...

Challenges...Overwhelming...

Recently I am not sure whether is my own problem or what
I get tensed up easily
Every night I will be stressful
Every night I am in stretched state
Kinda suffering
Maybe because of stress and tension
My body sent me a signal
My health is affected
I don't know what is wrong with my stomach
A pain that is intangible
Don't care for now
Many tests are coming
Time passed swiftly
Preparation for final should be started
Not much time left
This period is the toughest time I ever have
The normal syane.ms.h2o has gone
Left a vulnerable syane.ms.h2o
I need time to get myself back

Do not pursue the wrong thing

So I won't expect anymore
Go with the flow
=)

Sungha Jung
I will meet you on 4th Dec
Excited =D
Luckily noname.mr.h2o & et are with me
If not,it will be weird..

See you
Good luck in everything
Take care

Satisfaction...

The happiness and satisfaction are really great when you are able to help people
Sometimes you may not help directly
Indirectly, your attitude influences the people around you
When people succeed due to your influences
The satisfaction is intangible
You can feel the true happiness in your heart
It is really awesome!
On the other hands
When you pay sth and you get feedback
You will feel relieved as the effort that you put is worthy
What I wish now is my students will improve and do well in their coming exams
I will try my best to teach and hope they will be able to score
When your effort is appreciated
The feeling is great!
Time will prove that
No matter how
We have to endeavour 1st
I know this contradict with my previous post
But this is what I feel now
Just wanna share with you

Sungha Jung is coming!
He is a talented fingerstyle acoustic guitarist who is younger than me for 3 years
I am interested in his live in KL
Do you?

Goal..

Goal is a desired result to achieve
Many people endeavor to reach goal by setting a deadline
The process of setting a goal allows people to specify and then works towards their own objectives
It can either be short-term or long-term
Knowing precisely what one wants to achieve makes clear what to concentrate or improve on
Goal setting actually promotes long-term vision and short-term motivation
We should recognise and resolve all the guilt and inner conflict
Do not limit your belief
Success requires emotional maturity which most of the people fail to achieve
Including me
Emotional control over a small matter in a single day will make a big difference in the long term
To achieve a goal
We should have good goal management
Once we decided to have a new goal
We should abandon those no longer relevant goals
Resolve inner conflicts
Time management is the main key of achieving your goal
Once we are able to manage our time well
We will be able to increase our efficiency and productivity in the process of achieving our goal
In our daily life
We have to accomplish different tasks
When all the tasks come to you at the same time
We will start feeling panic
We are lost as we do not know which task we should start instead
At this moment
Planning plays an important role which is one of the skill in time management
Most of us might think that planning is nothing
It will not help much as we will not actually follow it
But planning makes your things well-organising
Prioritising
We put those important and urgent tasks at the first place

Life without a goal will be meaningless
I heard from my friend about her problem
So I have the inspiration to write something about goal
Without goal,we will not have any motivation in doing the work
We will not find any interest or passion from the work
When you lost passion or enthusiasm from your work or task
Nothing is meaningful for you anymore
Life will be dull and monotonous
You do not know what you are doing actually
You do not know what is the point for you to do so much of things
Friend
Get up now
Reconsider what you want and what you need
Replanning your life
Nobody can help you except yourself
Your friend is worrying about you
Do not end your life with a mess
No point for you to regret in the future as time will not travel backwards
To all the readers
Live in this moment
Do what you should do
I always agree with this following statement
Education is the way for us to get rid of poverty
No matter how tough the life is
Keep the faith
We will taste the sweetness SOON
You might feel lost now as you cannot see your future right now
Continue your journey with your dream
The vision right in front of you will be clear
I know most of us are facing the same problem
Friends
We can do it!
Good luck in your life

No more...

Does hard work pay?
Last time I used to believe it does
But now, I doubt
Yes, may be it does
It may not be 100%
It is kinda depressing when you know your hard work worth nothing
No matter in what aspect
The result will be disappointing
I pay everything
End up with nothing

The feeling is terrible
People suffer from that kind of feeling
which will not push you to move forwards
Yet, it makes you coward
Stay at the same position for a while
After getting some stimuli
Then only we may take initiative to keep on moving
Now I face some problems which I faced before
Can't I be more outgoing and carefree,can I ?
I should learn to be more outgoing
Remind yourself from time to time please
Enhance your thinking skill please
When sth happened on you
From the matter itself
We actually can see other things from different angle
Some people do give you a nice impression
Some people do give you a realistic reply
At that time you can draw a conclusion for yourself
Don't "water" your love on sth which are useless
You will only end up with pain
That's it
Can some nice nice nice things happen on me and let me change my mind?
Haha. Miracle...

Like a Fool...

A short post will do
I am so terrible until sth bad happened on me
I think is my egoism hides myself from the truth
But now,I admit it bravely
Yes,it is my fault..
I should not repeat again
I couldn't afford to repeat the same mistake again
Never...
At the same time
I did self-reflection
Is my personality very weird?
So I tend to have less friends?
Thing happened but ended up with worse thing
The bad feeling is doubled
Anyway,family is the best
In family,I can truly feel that I am syane.ms.h2o
No matter how bad I am
They are still very supportive
I love you
The world is getting more and more realistic
I am getting more and more insecure
Conclusion
Family is the BESTEST!!
Some friends are like your family
Can you imagine that closeness of the bonding?
But I only have you
The only one
Thanks a lot...
See you soon...
Good luck and stay healthy...

Just A Thought..

有好一段时间没有用中文来打部落格了
真的有点陌生了
刚刚读着小学同学的部落格
才发现自己真的很久没有用中文来书写了
今早姐姐提起"天籁之音"
我连"万籁俱寂" 这句成语都想了老半天
我的文笔向来都不怎么样
但其实还蛮羡慕写得一手好文章的人
仔细想想
其实别人是否都对我抱着很高的期望呢？
也许向来的我一直都很想让别人知道
别人能够办到的 我也可以
那么近来的我到底怎么啦？

那种精神到底去了哪里？

现在的我真的很不像我
我不要以前的执着
难道我连我那种斗志都给丢了吗？
我不懂
或许我一直都是那种
"讲就天下无敌，做就无能为力" 的人
现在的我不是要嘴上的努力
而是手上的努力
自己辛苦耕耘的那种精神
难道是因为现在的竞争
而令我认为我没有办法像别人一样吗？
就因为之前的成绩
而令我现在没有办法放弃我自己
我真的不忍心令对我期望很高的老师们，家人，朋友们失望
或许我真的必须争气
就假设很多人看不起我
我更必须证明给他们看
我行的
此时此刻的我
似乎已经决定要读医科了
只希望自己做对了决定
将来不会后悔
并且迎接将来忙碌的生活
请上天赐给我坚强的心
坚定的毅力
勇敢地走下去
我打从心底的希望自己能够办到
让认为我可以的人引以为傲
谢谢在我身边支持我的朋友与家人
在我懦弱的时候给了我继续往前的勇气
在此我衷心感激大家
谢谢你们认为我能够办到

Life is long,be strong.
告诉我这句话的朋友
我相信你也能够办到
下个星期的final sem test 一定可以熬过去
希望你现在不会因为挂念你的cute little books 而感到不安
加油
Best of luck

To one of the great mind
I think you are the only non-chinese who is following my blog
You know who you are
I know you can overcome the problem you are facing now
It's the matter of time
I think what I can do is just to be your audience
You are the one who is holding the key to unlock the lock
I know it is not easy and you may not know where is the lock
But I know you can as how you know I can
Mutualism yea

欠你很多的我想告诉你
发生在你身上的事
或许是你人生必经之路
一个让你成长的路
你所认为的改变或许是上天给你的考验
就如我一样
解铃还须系铃人
你要加油哦
当然少不了我的支持
祝你考试成功

一个我很久不见的傻婆
那天突然出现在你面前的我
虽然不是常常能够跟你联络
但很高兴你还是会与我分享
关于你提过的问题
其实大部分的人都正在面对着

一种米养千万种人
人是很现实的
我相信交际沟通这一门学问
我们的经验会是一位很好的老师
经一事，长一智
他好，我珍惜
他不好，我忽视
这样自己的心可能会好过一点
因为选择了相信，所以你才会难过
既然选择了相信，那就想办法包容他的不好
良性竞争一定会是很好的推动力
加油
我们只是普通人，问心无愧

今天找我的朋友
对不起，我没有办法实践我的承诺
或许我将它留在下次才实践
很高兴知道你适应得不错
真的很替你高兴
可能以前曾有很多的摩擦
不过一个毋庸置疑的事实就是
我俩还真的蛮像的
哈哈~

一个或许不会读我的部落格的人
或许你没有办法看到
但我只是想告诉你
我真的很羡慕你
也很欣赏你的一切
你是我一个很棒的朋友
很高兴认识你
谢谢你一直陪伴我
也不厌其烦的跟我解释很多我不会的东西

So
Just to help my readers who cannot understand this post
The main thing is
I think I have decided to do medicine after my A-Levels
And for all of you
I will stay in local to continue my study

I think most of you are having sem break
We have to get into the right path
Welcome all the challenges
Sweet,sour,bitter,spicy,salty
We have to taste it
It will enrich our life experience
Good luck to all of you

Intangible...

First and foremost
I would like to thank my dear
I do likewise
I'm glad to have you too
In our college life
We may not find true friends
Maybe they are just passers-by in your life
But they did leave their footsteps in your path of life
Those who treat you good
They will leave a great impact to you and to your life
And Y.O.U
My precious treasure
Your support will always be with me

Whenever I feel helpless
I know you are still with me

I still remember this

I know you like sunset
I miss you so much
Welcome back to KL

And I know you like quotes
So I will share with you at the last part of this blog post
Dear readers,hope you can get motivated from the quotes
So do I
I should have started my revision
I should have learnt my lesson from my result
But why am I still in my comfort zone?
Why can't I do it?
Where is my willpower?
Where is my point of concentration?
A lot of question marks in my head
I know I'm not that brilliant as others
Then hard work is the only thing that I should do in order to score well
I don't mean to be the cream of the crowds
But at least achieve my own target
Do until my own level
The problem is I did not
Such a failure
I shall keep the pain
I hope the pain can be increased
So that it can always remind me to work hard and torture myself

Quotes for today
If you don't like something, change it ;
If you can't change it, change the way you think about it

What is possible? What you will.


Blessed is he who expects nothing, for he shall never be disappointed

It's time to punish myself...

I know what I'm trying to say now wouldn't help much
But I feel depressed and frustrated
I know it is my fault
What I can do is to blame myself
Why didn't I work hard?
Such a brainless person
I overestimate myself
I am not that brilliant
I thought I can but actually I cannot
Can I have a fridge to keep my motivation?
I'm always being motivated FOR A WHILE ONLY
Maybe like Ms.Ng said
We will cry after seeing our result
Then only we're willing to work hard and buck up
Now I dare not to have motivation ady
Since it will not be long-lasting
I feel like doing many things
But I don't have the strength
I want to be a nerd
I want to punish myself
I have to strive for the best in the future with the past at my back
to constantly remind me that my potential has to be fully optimised
God,please give me the strength to go on and fulfill this purpose
Will hope to disappear as long as I can
See you
Hope you guys are doing well in your life

Recently

The calendar is getting more skinny
Time passed without leaving any footsteps
It is just too fast
The date that we have been waiting for is approaching
The speed of time is so scary
Now I'm having my 3 week-break
At the same time,my result for my sem 1 is coming out soon
18 August 2011
I just hope I can score well
At the same time,I must follow my checklist
I must accomplish my tasks
I must keep myself inspired to do well in Unit 2
Train myself to be prepared for the A2 Level units
Settle IELTS before October
Make my mind as soon as possible
Medicine or Pharmacy
I must decide it soon
Recently I get tired very easily
Feel like sleeping only
But I cannot be like that
It makes me feel lazy
I hope I can lighten my parent's burden with my steady salary
Time is the one that I have to sacrifice
Money is burnt when books are bought
Need to pay for exam fee soon
I may be having exam during the 1st day of CNY
Whole Jan'12 will be busy
Time time time
Why are you in rush?

Once in A while

Dear my readers
I'm here for a while
It has been long time I didn't update my bloggie
Such a rare case
Recently I'm inspired
So I wish I can keep the inspiration and move on
So sorry if I miss anything or can't be with you when there is a need
Especially to dear,darlz & bee chin chin
Talk about my recent life lu
I was being quite busy
Buried myself with homework
Revision...Not really...
Saturday I joined 30 Hour- Famine
It was my very 1st time to starve for 30 hours
I never expect I'm able to do so
Such an amazing experience
Wow. I'm great.xD
Such a meaningful camp
But the last few hours before breaking fast was terrible
No energy
Hands shaking
Felt like vomiting
Half dead like that
Finally,we did it!!!!!!
We raised our V soy Soya sponsored by V soy
And said CHEERSSS!!!!!!
My very 1st time to feel the small little chocolate muffin was so tasty
It was the most delicious food in the world
You can't imagine the gratefulness & satisfaction if you didn't go through it
I learnt to appreciate food
I learnt to be grateful with what I have
August break is coming soon
The break is not for me to take my rest and stop my journey
Yet, it is a path for me to accelerate
I should utilise it well
I hope I can make it
I can feel the determination flow in me nowadays
I wish I can share with dear
Dear,your dear here will always support you
She will send her support all the way from KL to Perak
Noname
I saw Danille Lee in the Count Down of 30 Hour-Famine
I just wanted to share with you
But sadly no response from you
Maybe you're busy
But his live singing was really nice
With guitar some more
Like Like Like
That's all
I got to go
See you soon

A Silent Night

I thought Friday night should be a relaxing night
But today is a silent night for me
I was waiting because I think you guys will online
And we can update each other
Whenever I have time
I will online
But now I think I will want to online during weekends only
I wish I can practise it
I want to train myself to adapt life without Internet
I should have utilise my time for my study instead
Should not use it to wait
Waiting is quite wasting
It made me can't focus well
I should not touch my lappie that frequently
Thanks for your message today
Unexpected event = surprise
I never expect you will send me a message
Thanks =)
Now I'm looking at the spaces between my fingers
I'm not only thinking yours fits mine
I'm thinking to remove my fingers from the keyboard too
And hold a pen instead
*I worry about you
I should not slack off anymore
Will update when there is a necessity
I hope I can keep my words
See you after N days

Spill H2o...

Don't ask me why I put "Spill H2o" as my blog title
I'm lost
I'm depressed
I'm tensed up
I feel insecure
My To-Do-List is long
But my determination & willpower just last for a short while only
I feel helpless
I can't describe what's my mood now
Will off to bed to cure
I left my Physics worksheet to lie peacefully in my file without completing it
I know I'm acting like an ostrich
I want to conquer it
I really want to.....
Desperately....
You know what
I dreamt sth bad yesterday night
I saw a little girl fell from a tall building right in front of me
It was a nightmare
It made me think of one of my dreams last time
My own death
I don't know what I'm doing right now
My mind is messy
Don't worry
I will be fine
Soon...

Sunday Mood again...

Sunday should be a nice day for everyone
People can take their rest after a hectic week
People can do whatever they want on Sunday
But for me, Sunday night is the most suffering night
I start to think about the days in the week
Need to plan everything
Indirectly, stress and tension will come to me
Eventually, my emotion graph fluctuates
People can do many things during weekends
But I fail to do so
That's my problem
I understand
But now I just wish I can have somebody to talk to
Listen to the songs that played by Sungha Jung
Hope can make my graph become linear with positive gradient
At least a constant horizontal line
I was happy to chat with my 2 dears and 1 darlz in the afternoon
Thanks for the companion
I wish we can do that again
I'm looking forward to our date
Hope can chat with you guys soon
Take care
Many people have fell sick recently
Must take good care of yourself
Continue with what you have been doing
Hope everything can go smoothly
Strong willpower
Please stay with me...

To You & To Me

[ TO ME ]
= Reply =
We have lost contact for one week
Unbelievable leh
Pity you
That's really a hectic week
I think mine is better than yours
Clarify it soon yea
I believe your willpower will drive you to do so
Don't tell me you cannot do it
I have faith on you
Enjoy your life yea
Do whatever you can to enjoy your life
I will update you now
Hehe

[ To You ]
Actually I don't have much things to update
Just tell you about my life in the week lu yea
Basically,I repeated the daily routine
So nothing special lu
I drove to Mid Valley on Thursday after my class
Two of my friends were in my car
We spent one hour to find parking
How sad it is
We went there to buy pressie for my friend who had birthday yesterday
Since we went to her birthday party
Had fun in her party lu
Although it was awkward at the beginning
Haha.
I'm going to teach on Monday lu
Quite scared because I cannot spoil Mr.Sho's reputation
Haha
So I have to teach well
Hope can earn $$ to support my own expenses
Then I don't have to get allowance from my dad
To lighten his burden lu
And I decided to take IELTS on 17 Sept
Most probably lar
Will register in Aug
Many of my friends start applying to overseas
And they planned what to do soon
I don't know whether I should apply to overseas or not
And I should choose Pharmacy instead of Medicine
Worse come to worse
Stay in local and study in IMU
And now I must train myself
I must force myself to finish my homework after I reach home
Then revise what I learn on that day
It needs a lot of determination & willpower
I must be able to handle work & study simultaneously
Don't know why
I just wanna say
I'm just ordinary
I'm no longer in secondary school
I'm syane.ms.h2o and I need h2o

Haha
Congratulation & celebration to The Great Mind
Tharo aka Darling
Hehehe~~

Jar of Hearts Part II

Thanks to my dear
I feel like making 102.6 FM to work again
Can sing a lot of songs to you
I miss those moments
And now I know a thing
When I feel alone
I just need to look at the spaces between my fingers
and remember
That's where yours fit perfectly
I'm glad to have you
You really mean a lot to me
No matter I have what mood weather
You always stand by me and support me
Actually,we are building our memory gradually
It is like puzzle
Because of you,our puzzle is perfect
All of a sudden,I wanna post this
I'm not boasting or showing off
Human will always appreciate when sth is not with us
At that moment,the "sth" is the worthiest
It is a treasure which is priceless
Dear,thanks for being here for me even I'm not good
Once again
O(∩_∩)O谢谢你，sweet pumpkin.=)
Remember I mentioned about love and habit
Habit makes someone to love the thing
But
Habit =/= Love
Every time after I adapt myself to the particular habit
After it became part of my life

You will take it away from me
It is not a bad habit,isn't it?
Why must you take away from me
It has became part of my life ady
It is so cruel to take it away from me

But I must understand the reality
Once it happened,I have to accept the truth
And adapt myself to the new life
My friend said I'm sentimental
Yes,I admit
I like to keep things that are related to my fond memories
But sth cannot be kept
It is feeling
It can only be kept in the brain memory card
Unlimited capacity
Unless you delete it from your memory card
Huge files you know?
Thanks for the jar of hearts
I don't mind to blog and vent all my feelings
even though I just have 1 reader
All the best in your life
My dear readers...

 That's what I want to tell you
Yes,It's you.

A circle is without an end
And that's how long I wanna be your friend..

Jar of Hearts

Love vs Habit
Many of us are confused
You miss because you love or because you used to have it
It is an unknown
Unless you are pretty sure with your feeling
In doing many things,we need "heart"
Without heart,it means insincere
Nothing is impossible with the presence of "heart"
For me,heart = determination
So now I wish I can have jar of hearts
Because I need it desperately
I can't stand it because it is so contradicting
I need it but I lost it
It is under my control but I made it contradict
It's my fault wee
On the other hand,
For your information,I'm going to study and work simultaneously
I hope I can manage my time well
I don't want to disappoint those who help me
Dear,I miss you
I need jar of hearts
To do many many many things
Take care my friends,my family

Temporary

Actually I don't want myself to online that frequent
But it seems internet is the only device to link everyone together
You won't be isolated or outdated if you are using Internet
This is my second week of my new semester
Stress and pressure come to me
Even laziness comes to me too
Eventually,emo comes to me too
Like what Darlz said
Emotion graph fluctuated
I'm slow
Seriously,my ability to absorb seems fast
Yet,this is not the fact
I can't remember what I have learnt on the next day
I'm just 18 but why my memory is like 81?
Kinda depressed
Physically and mentally exhausted
That should not be my maximum limit
I can undergo further stretching supposingly
What's wrong with me ar?
Extremely exhausted
Homework & house chores are waiting for me everyday
Even today I spent few hours in doing house chores
Then I left very little energy in doing my homework and revision
6 hours of classes (non-stop), few hours for house chores, then come to homework
I'm exhausted
I'm forcing myself to stay awake now
I'm too slow in absorbing
I don't think I put my effort in my study
Study what forget what
The feeling is sucks you know?
Sigh~~~~
Sorry for making my Garden dull
To sweet pumpkin
I have done what I promised
I like the new method
You should know what I mean
Don't worry about me
I'm fine here =)
To darlz
Thanks for your companion when I was in need
To piggie
Get well soon
To my friends who are going to have test soon
All the best yea
I hope the angel of luck will be with you. xD
To all my readers
Please take good care of yourself
The haze is quite terrible
Drink more h2o
I'm going to handle many things at the same time
IELTS soon.
Application soon.
Mock soon.
Hectic life is in the progress
No time to slack off like now
See you

Ex-sigh-ment

Ex-sigh-ment is created from the words "excitement" and "sigh"
This word can be used to represent my first week of new semester
Start a new semester
I started my hectic life again
Maybe I'm not well prepared yet
Sometimes my soul is flying during the class
But I still concentrated in the class
Sounds contradicting right?
Now must keep my study mode button on
Going to deal with 11 papers in this semester
3 units for each pure science subjects
2 math papers
The most important thing is most of the killer papers are in this semester
It is something like the History paper during our SPM
Killer paper ever
So I must have 99% hard work and 1% luck
The luck is minority lar
The main thing is I must use my brain to think
Sigh~Have to work super hard
Recently will get tired easily
So I hope Brand's Chicken Essence can really help me
070711
The first day I drove to college ALONE
Last time I drove but my parent was with me
But now I have tried parking
From 070711 onwards
I will be driving to college lu
Because it is very inconvenient for my dad to work half way and fetch me back
I hope my parking skill can be improved through my experiences
070711
Sweet pumpkin & Darling came back
I was hanging out with them since 1pm till 10pm+
Get scolded by my mum
But it's okay because we seldom meet
I had fun time with you guys
"Traveled" so many places
Met Mr.Sho some more
Sir,I miss you so much
I'm really glad to receive such a sweet message from you
Haha
But I appreciated your precious advices
You're such an understanding teacher
All the best to piggie's IELTS test on Saturday and Sunday
Sigh~
I still don't know when to sit for the test
I have the form with me for such a long time
Noobie is going to take from other branch
No choice lu and I may have to do on my own
Take care my friends
Long time I didn't chat with my skype-pal ady
I miss the moments
Long time didn't hear from noname.mr.h2o too
Hope you are doing well now
Yesterday was Hari Terbuka in JIGSS
As what darling said,feel like visiting our beloved teachers
All of sudden,we felt like serbu-ing to Pn.Low's house
To visit Baby Lewis too
Nyek3~~~
Tomorrow is like having darurat
Better stay at home and don't go anywhere
I hope the demonstration won't bring any -ve effect to our country,our society
Now less people update their bloggies
So "quiet"
syane.ms.h2o is going to update soon
See ya

Transformer

I think of the title not only because I just finished watching
Transformers 3 : Dark of the Moon
It is quite nice
The flow is awesome
In the nutshell, it is worth to watch it =)
On the other hand
I put "Transformer" as my blog title
The second reason is I'm going to start my second semester on tomorrow
I wish to transform
From what had happened just now
I wish to be a soft-spoken girl
Honestly,I am not a good girl
Now I wish to be a good girl
Be a considerate & understanding girl
Not to be too impulsive and too straight forward
People will always ignore others' strength
but exaggerate their shortcomings
I know I have a lot of shortcomings
But the problem is
something is actually inherited from our parents
Our genes carry the characteristics
What to do?
Brand new life from tomorrow onwards
I may want to make myself busy
I hope I can have the chance
If I have the chance,please cross your fingers
I wish I can have the ability too
The ability to take care of many things at the same time
Perhaps I think too much
To Group Bomb
We can meet tomorrow and let's have an awesome Sem 2
All the best in getting our result on Aug
To those who are not be with us in Group Bomb
All the best in your future
Don't forget you have awesome & brilliant Bomb-ians
To noname.mr.h2o,sweet pumpkin and bee chin
Take care
Get well soon =)

At that Moment...

In our daily life
The same thing may happen for so many times
We may be ignorant
As I have mentioned for so many times
Unexpected event = surprise
At the moment
I may find the thing is so beautiful
At the other moment
I may find the thing is just ordinary
Both are the same thing
but we may feel differently at different moments
Yesterday my cousin held my hand when I hugged him
Don't know why
I felt the warmth
On the other hand
When I viewed photos which were captured recently
I found that my dad looked older nowadays
White hair, white moustache, white sideburns
That's the "sin" of time
At the particular moment
You may have been determined to do sth
So sometimes it's better to be impulsive
Do it when you want to
I think I'm crapping now
My mind is messy now
Intangible feeling
I opened my files in my brain
Went through all the files
I have a lot of thoughts
But I don't know how to sort it out
Complicated
Those "heavy files" were buried
Because those are past tense
Luckily the files are saved
OMG
Feel like spilling h2o
I want to be quiet
Zip my mouth and immerse myself in h2o
My h2o world

The purpose, The action, The impact

Few days to go
I'm going to start my Edexcel A-Levels Term 2
I have to pack my mood to get myself ready for the hectic life
My time table is out finally
The time table is quite packed
No break in between the classes
I think my brain is going to be saturated
Now I have to sort my mind out
I must know what I am going to do
Direction is very important for me
Just now my friend mentioned about the future
I found that I'm kinda lost
That's not a good phenomenon
I wish I can smile and walk forward
I want to be a happy girl
Actually nowadays I'm kinda carefree ady

Not to care that much
That is not like previous syane.ms.h2o
Actually I just want to be ordinary
I carry out my obligation
That's all
Everyone is so special
I have so many special and awesome friends
You are just too awesome
Whatever or whoever is good
Don't leave syane.ms.h2o
Please....
I want to have you with me
Promise gives us the strength to forward as we have expectation
On the other hand
It gives us the chance to get hurt
Because out of 100%
I would say about 80% of us won't be able to fulfill
You raise the one to the heaven
And you release your hands and make him/her undergoes free fall
Wounds are everywhere

All of a sudden
I would like to say
I like to sing!!
And I miss Starbucks
I wish I can overwhelm in the aroma of Starbucks coffee
& the wonderful music world

Reminders, Thoughts, Trip

Let me share some happy moments with you
The Bomb in Genting
First and foremost
Thank you,Samuel for organising a nice trip
Secondly
Thank you,Jonathan for those nice photos
I found that our classmates are shy in front of camera
So let's keep those images in our memory instead of camera memory

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We gathered in One Utama
Khai went to Genting on his own from Titiwangsa
Divya was late and she took the next bus
9 of us
( Samuel, Rajpal, Cavan, Jon, Jenn, Li Shiann, Li Ying, Adelyn & Syane )
Genting Skyway, here we were
It has been a long time I didn't take cable car
We put our bags at the bell counter because we can only check in at 1500
Then we had breakfast at Marry Brown
Outdoor theme park, here we went
10 of us because Khai had joined us while Divya still on the way
We just had 1 ride

Too bad,it was raining around 1300
So we went to have lunch at Burger King
The guy gang took away KFC and brought in
They had KFC in Burger King
After the lunch, we went to theme park again for 2 rides
Then we checked in
Due to boredom, we played black jack in Sam's room
The guy gang continued playing Monopoly cards afterwards
Around 1800
Adelyn, Li Ying, Jenn, Li Shiann, Jon, Khai & I went to Starbucks
My favourite Starbucks
I ordered Caramel Macchiato
It was extremely nice to have a Starbucks hot drink there
Warm...
1900
We had dinner but Jenn, Li Shiann, Khai & I didn't eat
So we went to theme park again
4 of us thought that it was not worthy to pay so much and just had 3 rides
Therefore, we were willing to top up 10 bucks to make it worth
Ended up we had 11 rides
I would say we were crazy that night
Li Shiann & I played Corkscrew for 4 times

Khai played for 3 times
Khai & I played Space Shot
Jenn was not feeling so well
So she didn't play much
Li Shiann, Khai & I were crazy
Cyclone for twice
Swing for twice
Ultimately, we were wet
Because we played the Sungai Rejang one
I forgot the name

When the wind blew, we all were shivering
It was really cold especially when we were all wet
From hair till toes.xD
We went back to hotel and took our bath
While we were playing, the guy gang were playing Monopoly card again
Monopoly addict
After watching Private Practice,Li Shiann & I were off to bed
Sailed to Slumberland
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All the girls except Divya went to have Mcd Breakfast
While drinking the coffee, I miss my Starbucks very much
Hehe..I'm addicted to Starbucks
After that we joined the guy gang because they were bowling at the same time
Before that, we accompanied Adelyn to Cotton On
I played few times on behalf of Khai
No more GUTTER,Khai
Around 1200
We checked out
Had lunch in Vietnam House
All of a sudden, Jenn ordered Heineken & Sprite
She wished to make Shandy
Haha..but original tastes nice
Pool time
Let's welcome our SUPER POOL aka Li Shiann
She beat Sam & Raj
It was awesome to watch it
We sat in the gondola when it was raining heavily
Quite scary wee..
It stopped for twice and it swung
We reached the bus station at 1605
Rajpal, Sam, Cavan & Jon played Chor Dai D while waiting for the bus
At 1700,the bus arrived
I was reading my novel and listening to music in the bus
All of a sudden,sth attacked me
My mood weather became cloudy
We reached One Utama at 1750
Everyone gave Sam a hug before going back
Since he is going to leave us and go to Monash University
Sam, all the best in doing your MUFY & medicine in Monash
We will definitely miss you
Our awesome saxophonist
Glad to know you
You're such a funny guy

{ Part 2 - Moody post }
Yesterday night, Sunday mood attacked me again
I had no mood to reply msg
Sorry,Sweet Pumpkin
After finish reading my novel,I can't stand it anymore
Some more the stupid connection made me feel worse
I was unable to come to Garden of Tranquility

I was so upset and frustrated
So I chose the best way - sleep
I used my little pillow to cover my face
So nobody can see
Spill h2o
Fine,it is over now
No point for me to mention it again

Sorry,this is quite long huh?

Noname,seriously..
I miss my long hair too
Darling,I saw Eat,Pray,Love
But it is English version
Where got Chinese version?
I will know my result on Zee Rence's birthday
180811
Pray hard
040711,I'm going to get myself busy again
Welcome,hectic life

Cookies with love..

Kitchen is the place
where can spread the "wonderful aroma" in a family
These few days
I enjoyed my time in the kitchen
I baked cookies & cakes
It is quite time-consuming
But it is worthy to wait
Once the aroma is diffused in the air
I felt excited and satisfied
Just pray that my cookies will be tasty
Overall is okay but I got a failure
My orange cake...
Today I cooked dinner for my family
It is really nice to cook for my family
Even though those are just simple dishes
At least I took the first step to do it
In the future,I believe cooking & baking will be my hobbies
Just read Darling's bloggie
I like it so much
It makes me miss my college life
I scared I can't adapt in the first week after such a long break
I found that I have an ordinary holiday
Most of my classmates did attachment
Some of them were volunteering
It is much more meaningful than mine
But I enjoyed mine because I enjoyed the time with my family
Nothing is more important than this
That is extremely precious
Tea session with my dearest friends
I will make it if the time is okay yea
I like gathering moment
Something cannot be expressed by using words
So I can't express well
Yet,it may be my problem
Because I understand what is my standard
Suddenly wanna shout that
Single life is good

Where is the Sunlight?

My typical Sunday mood came back to me
Yes,Long Time No See
I wonder why are you here today?
Is it because of tiredness?
Once again, Garden of Tranquility is covered by dark clouds
I have no idea
So I will just ignore and off to bed later
About some particular matter
I think I will adapt soon
Life without you
Yeap, I can do it
And I wish I can think wisely and make an important decision
I must not feel regret
I must be able to handle it
For my own future
Think twice
*Announcements*
- syane.ms.h2o is a maxis user now
- JJ is THE BEST..=)
*Sorry..not in a right mood now..*
Where is the sunlight?

Impulsive

I don't know what happen to me
There is a weird and random thought appear in my mind
I never expect this will cross in my mind
I'm not sure since when
I would like to become a pharmacist or chemist
But this few days
I even think of becoming a D.O.C.T.O.R.
Is doctor!!!
I knew my EQ is not good
I may not be able to control my emotion well
But I wish to know why human suffer from the disease
How we should treat and cure the patients
I wonder lar
I don't know whether I will change my mind or not
**To Bee
All the best in your test
**To Noname
I wish I can know and help
All the best in your test too
**To mum & noobie
Get well soon

Destiny...

Destiny is defined as
- Power believed to control events
- Events that happen on sb/sth
(thought to be decided beforehand by fate)
I'm not great
But I hate the feeling of helpless
It makes me feel I'm such an useless person
I can do nothing on it
I can't even contribute any single effort
The feeling is suck
I understand everything is decided beforehand by fate or God
Anything that happen on someone will be his/her destiny
There is a thin line between the dark side and the bright side
Between the positive and the negative
Therefore, you are the key who determine where you want to be in

Your mind is the key who lead you to unlock the problem
It will be very easy when comes to verbal solution
By the time you are going to practise it
You will find that it is really tough
The toughness makes you feel that you're nobody
You're good for nothing
Here comes to devastation
Not everyone can take it
At this moment, I'm not optimistic
Sorry for being emotional
Force no happiness
Don't think sth other than what you supposed to have
You deserved what you have only
Not more than that
Not everything
Nothing is 100 %
Practically accepted
I'm just a human being
I have very little ability and strength to change a thing
Sorry for bringing rainy clouds to Garden of Tranquility

Inspiration and here you are..

It has been long time I used Chinese to blog
Here I am
Shift to another channel for a while yea
就心血来潮

因为好久没有用华文文字来抒发情绪
之前有听说过
人的一生有三位朋友
失去  遗憾  珍惜
人必须先失去某些事情
才感到遗憾
遗憾的是自己已经失去了
倘若能够失而复得
人才会懂得珍惜
所以珍惜往往是最后一个
因为人总是等到失去过才懂得珍惜
就好像你身边的人
一直陪伴你的人
一直以来或许你觉得对方的存在是理所当然
等到有一天
对方离开了你的身边
你才会觉得浑身不自在

空虚

好像少了些什么似的
在这个时候你才真正的感受到对方的重要性
如果你是幸运的那位
或许对方会回到你身边

但有些东西
错过了就无法回头了
时间是不会为任何人而停止
遗憾 ~ ~
虽然这是一个毫无新意的分享
但这是一个人人皆知的道理
不过不知为什么人们总是无法做到
为什么人们常说
当你的年龄越来越大
身边的朋友就越来越少？
但是我认为
朋友不需要多
交游广阔固然很好
但是如果身边连一位懂你的朋友都没有
那又有什么意义呢？

在人海茫茫当中
能遇到懂你的
体贴你的
对你好的知己
其实是一件很难得的事
朋友不需要多
有几位知心朋友就已经足够了
我很欣慰
身边有挺我的
陪伴我度过艰难的时刻的
死党  知己
真的希望你我能够陪在彼此的身边
感激不尽哦
*你丫
好好照顾自己的身体捏
早日康复哦
*你丫
不要给自己太大的压力
全力以赴
不要然自己有遗憾
*你丫
加油
赶快适应
赶快赶完手上的功课哦
*你们丫
早日和好吧
我不喜欢看见这样的你们
我想我该说的都说了
现在就做的总结吧
Back to English session
Sorry for those who can't understand Chinese
If you really use Google Translate
it will be weird
I'm so sorry

Busy vs Idle

I miss my busy life
One month is too long for me
I accepted a job and worked for 3 days
Then I didn't do anything ady
I feel bored and uncomfortable
Because I'm given too long time to rest and relax
Sounds so weird and contradicting huh?
I don't like aimless life
But please give me the strength to proceed what I plan to do
I don't know whether it works or not
Just hope that I manage to do it
On the other hand
I want to save money
Can anyone give me some tasks to do yea?
Laziness please search for new owner but not syane.ms.h2o please
*I hope you enjoy yourself there
**Pray hard for my friends
Wish you all can have strong determination to cope with what you're facing right now
All the best =)
*Hope my mum can get well soon

Special..It's you..

Do you know you are special?
Yes,you are
Everyone is unique
No one can replace anyone
You will have your own uniqueness
For me,my family and friends are special
After watching X-men First Class
I have the inspiration to update my bloggie
Don't ever look down on yourself
Because you cannot underestimate the hidden power in your subconscious mind
Some thing are really amazing
Those are intangible
I can really describe your uniqueness
All my great friends
Glad to have you with me
I understand I'm not easy to get along
But thanks because you're still with me
Who always support me and accompany me
There are many types of LOVE
I know some Love cannot be replaced
But you lost one of it doesn't mean it is the end of the world
You will still be able to find those who are be with you
They will never ditch you
I feel honoured to be your dustbin
Welcome yea
Actually after few hours
My inspiration has gone
But I just want to be here to share sth
Hope you all get what I mean yea
Btw,today I saw noobie's name in the movie
And I laughed
Haha
I miss guitar too
I'm in love with guitar
When I can own him leh?

I wish to buy one and learn how to play DESPERATELY
While I'm wandering in Garden of Tranquility
I think of a lot of things
Like walking down the memory lane again
But this time is different because I realise I didn't miss the thing I missed that day
It is an improvement actually
Now I don't mind to have no phone with me
It doesn't make much difference
I don't care ady
So now I'm out of inspiration
I'm so sorry..> <
So the conclusion is
YOU'RE SPECIAL wee...=)

Emptiness...

Out of sudden
I feel emptied
At the small corner of my heart
I miss your companion
Maybe because of habit
You used to accompany me
But when you're not here
I will feel one kind
Is it because I'm too dependent?

I don't know
Many of you play important roles in my life
Life is like a drama
Different characters will play their own role
But without one of the character
The drama will not be that interesting
So I cannot afford to lost anyone
At the same time
I shouldn't be too dependent
Must learn to live alone
Because no one is going to be with you every single moment
I can only overwhelm myself in the music
I have no idea how to cure my emptiness
Music and time will cure it
Sing to make myself feel better
I wish to find the peacefulness here
Thanks to Jessica
Thanks for your feedback =)
Glad to have you as my reader
Wish I can have an audience now
Who is willing to be here while I'm singing
=)
The world now is changing
Human being has transformed to be a monster
Dear readers especially girls
Please be careful if you are alone on the way back home
The next block of my government apartment
There are 2 rapists who raped a lady
They are monsters
Don't trust people easily
If people treat you sincerely then have to appreciate
But be alert in judging them
I will not hope to see any of you get hurt

Superwoman

I wish I can be a superwoman to help my friends to solve problem
Friends will confront to me because of trust
They trust me can be a good audience
To give some useful opinions
To ease their burden
I really really wish I can do so
I wish I can think better
I want to help them desperately
I wish I know all the solutions to help them
Do you know the feeling
When you know they are sobbing and suffering due to the problem
And you can do nothing
This feeling is suck
I just want to help because I don't want them to suffer
Sincerely
Faithfully
Please give me the ability...

Family & Love...

F.A.M.I.L.Y.
A term which is so familiar to everyone
But not everyone is able to enjoy the warmth of family
This few days I wonder the novels that I read
All are related to family
Dear readers
If you have a wonderful family
Do appreciate your family
You wouldn't know how envious they are
Those who don't have a complete family
They sobbed
They cried
They did a lot of things in order to have a complete family
But some of them don't know how to appreciate
Yet they hurt their family members
No matter what happen
Family is the one who will not abandon you
How best the friends you have
You will never know whether they are really nice
and when they are going to betray you
This is the reality
Even your lover
Nothing is forever
The human nowadays make me feel insecure
Not everyone can be trusted
Everything looks so perfect
But actually it is fake
Even love
Love can also be fake
Love is something which is amazing
Maybe because I attended a wedding dinner yesterday
I have the inspirations about this
L.O.V.E.
No matter how grand a wedding dinner you have
But your future is the main point
Is your partner loyal & love you
No one can predict

Every people will have some demands on their partners
But we must know how to be tolerate

There is a line of lyric in a Chinese song
I translated it on my own

" It is an easy matter for you to fall in love
But it is hard when you're together and getting along "
It is pretty meaningful
Because we will learn to be tolerate,understanding,considerate
You're not just with your partner
But you have to consider about your partner's family
Pay your love to your partner
Be serious in every relationship
Because it is not easy to find someone who love you and you love him/her
Appreciate

Yet single is not a bad thing
About relationship
We talk about fate and timing
Bless everyone here

*To UTPians ( Sweet pumpkin & darling )
Hope both of you will be fine soon
Quite worried to hear that actually

*Wee wang wang
I miss you when I listen to certain songs
Feel a bit emptied yesterday wee=)

*To the noname.mr.h2o aka sha po
You're too active
Move here and there
Like a hyper kid
Hahahahaha

First and foremost...

Today is 1st of June
Happy birthday to Brandon Khye
A June baby who always remind me today is his birthday
and desperate to get a pressie from me

Thanks to Raymond
An awkward picture is in Group Bomb page

Have a nice date with my h2o molecules
Although the duration is not long
I wish we can meet up more often
Nice date and chatting time
Remember h2o spirit
syane.ms.h2o will always be with you

Today is my 1st day of working
Stood for 8 hours
This is my new working experience
Sampling & promoting
Btw,I prefer to be a tutor
Wahahaha
2 days to go
Time flies faster in these 2 days can ar?
Haha

I'm a lazy bug :p

To darlz
Get well soon from home sick
I'm here for you to bug k?
All the best in UTP

To sweet pumpkin
All the best in your study
Pray hard for you
Good luck,good time will go to you
Cheer =)

Why nice thing cannot be long-lasting?
I wonder WHY...
Or maybe because of myself?
Good thing that happened on me won't last for long time
Sad case
*Sobbing*

Saved in Memory...

160511 - 260511
Within this period
I experienced many things
I had my 1st A Level examination
I made an important decision which is related to my future
I was in dilemma
I set my resolution
I hope I grew up after those incidents
After the important examination
Now it is the time to enjoy our one-month-holiday
Play & do whatever we want within this month
After that we are going to face the toughest semester
Now a lot of things are set in my calendar
Too many things have to do
I joined the 30 Hours Famine
which is one of our SASA project
Our Genting Trip on 250611,260611
Group BOMB
270511
This is my 1st outing with my gang in HELP
First and foremost
Happy birthday to our Princess Jenn
Who attended the outgoing?
Jenn,Li Shiann,Jia Yee,Cavan,Raj,Sam,Khai & Raymond
Initially should be Cohen instead of Raymond
But Cohen cannot make it and there is an extra movie ticket
That's why Raymond is with us

Thanks to Cavan
We waited for 1 hour plus because he couldn't find the parking
Haha
We had our lunch at Nando's
Jia Yee had ordered too much
Thanks to Jenn & Samuel for the wonderful lunch
After lunch was our movie time
Fast & Furious 5
An interesting & awesome movie
Even though I didn't watch the previous episodes
I didn't feel lost by the way
Thanks to my Friends
You guys are SO understanding & Naughty
After movie time was Laser Tag
This is my 1st time to play laser tag
No,I should say is our 1st time instead
Since none of us play before
Li Shiann didn't join us because she had to go
So 8 of us were separated into 2 groups
Red & Green

But we lose to Blue team which is formed by KIDS
Quite embarrassing but they are the members there
Which means they played for N times
So is ok lar
Raymond was the one who scored the highest among us
What I can say is
I can't really play sports
Lousy wee...
This laser tag which lasted for 10-15 min made me sweat a lot
After the nice game,we cut the birthday cake in the food court
Sang birthday song as loud as we can
Jenn felt embarrassing
Yet she felt happy and touched
Raymond became the professional photographer with his Canon 60D
We snapped pictures after our laser tag and during the cake cutting session
Family portrait pulak
Thank you very much
LOL
All the guys played monopoly in the food court
Once again,Raymond became the winner
Actually this is because the others are 1st-time players
So it is just luck
Haha
Thanks to Jenn's SPECIAL request
I learnt to be sporting
Sam & Raj played pool
Raymond,Khai & I were chatting
In the nutshell
Thanks for giving me a nice memory
Khai will be the one who is teased by the majority due to his "brightness"
Too bad Cohen is not with us
We should have our next and next and next outing
=)
Just now I was viewing the Teacher's Day photos posted by my juniors
Then suddenly I felt that
Wow..I'm old

Without knowing it,I left my secondary school life for almost 6 months
I miss my teachers suddenly
I miss my Cekalians suddenly
All the best in the future and we shall meet up
*To darlz
Congratulations
And you can keep on bothering me
Because I will do so too
So you don't have to worry about that
Hahaha

Walk down the Memory Lane..

I think I'm too bored
That's why I read my older blog posts
So nostalgic
I miss some moments
Of course not those emo moments
A lot of things fly in my mind
Out of sudden
I miss you

I can see the crest and trough
Can really feel my mood when I'm reading my posts
Pity my readers
Thank you because you are always here to be my audience
Listen to what I vomited
I'm glad to have you
Ooooo..
I wish I can go back to some special moments
Experience again what I have experienced
But I know it's impossible lu

Keep in my heart
You are still here
That's the truth
And I found that I'm quite crazy huh?
Sometimes can really come out with some random stuffs

That's my inspirations
But seems long time didn't have that anymore
I wish I can have it back
Because it makes my Garden of Tranquility perfect
=)
Tomorrow is my last paper,C2
Then I'm free for one month
270511
Hang out with my friends
Celebrate Jenn's birthday and bid farewell to Samuel
Then I may find a job to earn my next sem exam fee
And I may have to work and study simultaneously
Since I choose to reject JPA
But I have to consider very very well

Nothing is Forever..

Forever & Eternal
These words will never exist in my dictionary
Due to some factors
I think "promise" will be deleted from my dictionary too
Happiness will not be eternal
Sadness will not be eternal
Promise may not be fulfilled
Many people betray their partner,their friends
Many people promise but never fulfill it
Many people give hope to others
But at the end,people walk away with disappointment
The world is dull without care & love
People nowadays are too selfish & self-centered
People treat you good
It doesn't mean that it will be long-lasting
Cannot be too innocent
Not to say pessimistic but just prepare myself to face the society
I'm not emo-ing
Don't worry
Suddenly think of that
Witness too many of this kind of incidents
Experienced some on my own
People promised you
Wow
You feel so happy & sweet at that moment
But who knows what will happen in the future
Human will change like the weather nowadays
Sad to say
Maybe changes like me
Nowadays I dare not to put so much "hearts" on sth
I'm scared
You may say I'm coward
You may say this is nonsense
Well,different people will have different perspectives
I saw someone's status few days ago
You feel that someone has changed
This is because the someone doesn't live in the same way as you did anymore
Everything has its limit
Thing that exceed the limit
May come back to the original
But most of the time,NO
It undergoes plastic deformation
Haha
Today is not the end of the world
We are still breathing
Now,do what we should do
Play our role well
Smile and continue our journey
210511
Nothing is forever

Support

Finally I have made the decision
I changed my mind
I signed the agreement to reject the offer
Thanks for those who support me
Thanks for those who encourage me
Thanks for those who accompanied me when I was in need
I appreciate you
Now the road in the future
I have to explore on my own
Once I choose to stay in A levels
I must score very well
Like what piggie said
No matter what course we are taking
We must study hard and work for it
It's true
Because you wouldn't want to feel regret
To sweet pumpkin
All the best in UTP
I know you can adapt well and do well there
Keep in touch
To darling
Wish you can get what you want
Even can't,you must be tough and pick up what you have missed
*touch wood*

Share sth with you
*Attitude is a little thing that makes a big difference.*

For those who know Chemistry
There is a lame joke which I would like to share
One day, argon walks into a bar and asks for a glass of water. The bartender says "Sorry, we don't serve noble gasses."
Argon doesn't react.

DOESN'T REACT:)))

Can you hear me?

Where is syane.ms.h2o?
Anybody know?
She couldn't find herself now
She doesn't know what she wants
She doesn't know where is her heart
She doesn't know everything
"Why you make the thing so complicated?
It's just simple! "
I really don't know what to do
I don't even know how to interpret thing
I'm trying to make the thing perfect?
I wish to make everyone satisfied?
I'm so sorry because I'm being too annoying
I bring a lot of troubles to my friends & my family
Just a simple stuff
And I keep on bugging others
I'm so sorry for being so annoying
I apologise here
I don't know what I am doing
I don't know which one is the best solution
Everyone believe I can make the best decision
But I think I'm going to disappoint you all
Because the truth is I CAN'T
I'm sucks
TT
Talk about sucks
To tempura
You're not sucks okay?
Now we have to be far-sighted
Because our "circle" before is too small
Now you're in a bigger "circle"
It is normal for you to feel that
But convert it into the energy which can drive you to learn and master it
Add oil yea=)
I think for so many days
Many brain cells died
Much h2o are wasted
I'm dehydrated
I may need a long sleep
I know that I should be brave
I'm running out of time
My heart is pumping slowly
I have no energy ady
Low battery
I'm exhausted
syane.ms.h2o,can you hear me?
God,can you hear me?

Haemolysis...

Finally can log in my bloggie
I'm sorry because I can't control myself
There is a matter which troubles me
Today my mum told me
" Your godmother guessed that the reason you don't want to become a doctor is not because you scare of blood butis because you scare to face death."
I think it is quite true
Now I'm in dilemma
I hate to face the truth that someone is leaving
Now I'm the one who is going to choose to leave
I need to say goodbye to Edexcel A-Levels and Group B
All my friends I met in HELP University College
I'm heavy hearted to leave you all
Actually I haven't decided yet
But most of them said is good to pursue
Can ease parents' burden
And you are 100% confirm you can do Pharmacy
If you continue studying A-Levels
The probability for me to get scholarship in the future is 50%
Honestly,I like A-Levels because it is challenging
I really scare I choose the path wrongly
as it is related to my future
God,can you give me guidance or hint?
I really don't know how to choose
*To -___noob___-
You really...
Make me loss of h2o
I'm not going to forget the "large" file we have
I'm not going to forget every single moment we had
Never
Seriously
I have intangible feeling lu
Don't know how to describe
Sad will do

I'm really don't know how to do
But I will still sit for my exam on mon
Anyone who pass by Garden of Tranquility
Give me some ideas please
*syane.ms.h2o got an offer from JPA
Foundation in Science for 18 months in UCSI
Bachelor in Pharmacy for 4 years in UCSI
She has to reply before 20 May

Register at UCSI on 21st May if she has decided to accept the offer
Insomnia