A Silent Night

I thought Friday night should be a relaxing night
But today is a silent night for me
I was waiting because I think you guys will online
And we can update each other
Whenever I have time
I will online
But now I think I will want to online during weekends only
I wish I can practise it
I want to train myself to adapt life without Internet
I should have utilise my time for my study instead
Should not use it to wait
Waiting is quite wasting
It made me can't focus well
I should not touch my lappie that frequently
Thanks for your message today
Unexpected event = surprise
I never expect you will send me a message
Thanks =)
Now I'm looking at the spaces between my fingers
I'm not only thinking yours fits mine
I'm thinking to remove my fingers from the keyboard too
And hold a pen instead
*I worry about you
I should not slack off anymore
Will update when there is a necessity
I hope I can keep my words
See you after N days

Spill H2o...

Don't ask me why I put "Spill H2o" as my blog title
I'm lost
I'm depressed
I'm tensed up
I feel insecure
My To-Do-List is long
But my determination & willpower just last for a short while only
I feel helpless
I can't describe what's my mood now
Will off to bed to cure
I left my Physics worksheet to lie peacefully in my file without completing it
I know I'm acting like an ostrich
I want to conquer it
I really want to.....
Desperately....
You know what
I dreamt sth bad yesterday night
I saw a little girl fell from a tall building right in front of me
It was a nightmare
It made me think of one of my dreams last time
My own death
I don't know what I'm doing right now
My mind is messy
Don't worry
I will be fine
Soon...

Sunday Mood again...

Sunday should be a nice day for everyone
People can take their rest after a hectic week
People can do whatever they want on Sunday
But for me, Sunday night is the most suffering night
I start to think about the days in the week
Need to plan everything
Indirectly, stress and tension will come to me
Eventually, my emotion graph fluctuates
People can do many things during weekends
But I fail to do so
That's my problem
I understand
But now I just wish I can have somebody to talk to
Listen to the songs that played by Sungha Jung
Hope can make my graph become linear with positive gradient
At least a constant horizontal line
I was happy to chat with my 2 dears and 1 darlz in the afternoon
Thanks for the companion
I wish we can do that again
I'm looking forward to our date
Hope can chat with you guys soon
Take care
Many people have fell sick recently
Must take good care of yourself
Continue with what you have been doing
Hope everything can go smoothly
Strong willpower
Please stay with me...

To You & To Me

[ TO ME ]
= Reply =
We have lost contact for one week
Unbelievable leh
Pity you
That's really a hectic week
I think mine is better than yours
Clarify it soon yea
I believe your willpower will drive you to do so
Don't tell me you cannot do it
I have faith on you
Enjoy your life yea
Do whatever you can to enjoy your life
I will update you now
Hehe

[ To You ]
Actually I don't have much things to update
Just tell you about my life in the week lu yea
Basically,I repeated the daily routine
So nothing special lu
I drove to Mid Valley on Thursday after my class
Two of my friends were in my car
We spent one hour to find parking
How sad it is
We went there to buy pressie for my friend who had birthday yesterday
Since we went to her birthday party
Had fun in her party lu
Although it was awkward at the beginning
Haha.
I'm going to teach on Monday lu
Quite scared because I cannot spoil Mr.Sho's reputation
Haha
So I have to teach well
Hope can earn $$ to support my own expenses
Then I don't have to get allowance from my dad
To lighten his burden lu
And I decided to take IELTS on 17 Sept
Most probably lar
Will register in Aug
Many of my friends start applying to overseas
And they planned what to do soon
I don't know whether I should apply to overseas or not
And I should choose Pharmacy instead of Medicine
Worse come to worse
Stay in local and study in IMU
And now I must train myself
I must force myself to finish my homework after I reach home
Then revise what I learn on that day
It needs a lot of determination & willpower
I must be able to handle work & study simultaneously
Don't know why
I just wanna say
I'm just ordinary
I'm no longer in secondary school
I'm syane.ms.h2o and I need h2o

Haha
Congratulation & celebration to The Great Mind
Tharo aka Darling
Hehehe~~

Jar of Hearts Part II

Thanks to my dear
I feel like making 102.6 FM to work again
Can sing a lot of songs to you
I miss those moments
And now I know a thing
When I feel alone
I just need to look at the spaces between my fingers
and remember
That's where yours fit perfectly
I'm glad to have you
You really mean a lot to me
No matter I have what mood weather
You always stand by me and support me
Actually,we are building our memory gradually
It is like puzzle
Because of you,our puzzle is perfect
All of a sudden,I wanna post this
I'm not boasting or showing off
Human will always appreciate when sth is not with us
At that moment,the "sth" is the worthiest
It is a treasure which is priceless
Dear,thanks for being here for me even I'm not good
Once again
O(∩_∩)O谢谢你，sweet pumpkin.=)
Remember I mentioned about love and habit
Habit makes someone to love the thing
But
Habit =/= Love
Every time after I adapt myself to the particular habit
After it became part of my life

You will take it away from me
It is not a bad habit,isn't it?
Why must you take away from me
It has became part of my life ady
It is so cruel to take it away from me

But I must understand the reality
Once it happened,I have to accept the truth
And adapt myself to the new life
My friend said I'm sentimental
Yes,I admit
I like to keep things that are related to my fond memories
But sth cannot be kept
It is feeling
It can only be kept in the brain memory card
Unlimited capacity
Unless you delete it from your memory card
Huge files you know?
Thanks for the jar of hearts
I don't mind to blog and vent all my feelings
even though I just have 1 reader
All the best in your life
My dear readers...

 That's what I want to tell you
Yes,It's you.

A circle is without an end
And that's how long I wanna be your friend..

Jar of Hearts

Love vs Habit
Many of us are confused
You miss because you love or because you used to have it
It is an unknown
Unless you are pretty sure with your feeling
In doing many things,we need "heart"
Without heart,it means insincere
Nothing is impossible with the presence of "heart"
For me,heart = determination
So now I wish I can have jar of hearts
Because I need it desperately
I can't stand it because it is so contradicting
I need it but I lost it
It is under my control but I made it contradict
It's my fault wee
On the other hand,
For your information,I'm going to study and work simultaneously
I hope I can manage my time well
I don't want to disappoint those who help me
Dear,I miss you
I need jar of hearts
To do many many many things
Take care my friends,my family

Temporary

Actually I don't want myself to online that frequent
But it seems internet is the only device to link everyone together
You won't be isolated or outdated if you are using Internet
This is my second week of my new semester
Stress and pressure come to me
Even laziness comes to me too
Eventually,emo comes to me too
Like what Darlz said
Emotion graph fluctuated
I'm slow
Seriously,my ability to absorb seems fast
Yet,this is not the fact
I can't remember what I have learnt on the next day
I'm just 18 but why my memory is like 81?
Kinda depressed
Physically and mentally exhausted
That should not be my maximum limit
I can undergo further stretching supposingly
What's wrong with me ar?
Extremely exhausted
Homework & house chores are waiting for me everyday
Even today I spent few hours in doing house chores
Then I left very little energy in doing my homework and revision
6 hours of classes (non-stop), few hours for house chores, then come to homework
I'm exhausted
I'm forcing myself to stay awake now
I'm too slow in absorbing
I don't think I put my effort in my study
Study what forget what
The feeling is sucks you know?
Sigh~~~~
Sorry for making my Garden dull
To sweet pumpkin
I have done what I promised
I like the new method
You should know what I mean
Don't worry about me
I'm fine here =)
To darlz
Thanks for your companion when I was in need
To piggie
Get well soon
To my friends who are going to have test soon
All the best yea
I hope the angel of luck will be with you. xD
To all my readers
Please take good care of yourself
The haze is quite terrible
Drink more h2o
I'm going to handle many things at the same time
IELTS soon.
Application soon.
Mock soon.
Hectic life is in the progress
No time to slack off like now
See you

Ex-sigh-ment

Ex-sigh-ment is created from the words "excitement" and "sigh"
This word can be used to represent my first week of new semester
Start a new semester
I started my hectic life again
Maybe I'm not well prepared yet
Sometimes my soul is flying during the class
But I still concentrated in the class
Sounds contradicting right?
Now must keep my study mode button on
Going to deal with 11 papers in this semester
3 units for each pure science subjects
2 math papers
The most important thing is most of the killer papers are in this semester
It is something like the History paper during our SPM
Killer paper ever
So I must have 99% hard work and 1% luck
The luck is minority lar
The main thing is I must use my brain to think
Sigh~Have to work super hard
Recently will get tired easily
So I hope Brand's Chicken Essence can really help me
070711
The first day I drove to college ALONE
Last time I drove but my parent was with me
But now I have tried parking
From 070711 onwards
I will be driving to college lu
Because it is very inconvenient for my dad to work half way and fetch me back
I hope my parking skill can be improved through my experiences
070711
Sweet pumpkin & Darling came back
I was hanging out with them since 1pm till 10pm+
Get scolded by my mum
But it's okay because we seldom meet
I had fun time with you guys
"Traveled" so many places
Met Mr.Sho some more
Sir,I miss you so much
I'm really glad to receive such a sweet message from you
Haha
But I appreciated your precious advices
You're such an understanding teacher
All the best to piggie's IELTS test on Saturday and Sunday
Sigh~
I still don't know when to sit for the test
I have the form with me for such a long time
Noobie is going to take from other branch
No choice lu and I may have to do on my own
Take care my friends
Long time I didn't chat with my skype-pal ady
I miss the moments
Long time didn't hear from noname.mr.h2o too
Hope you are doing well now
Yesterday was Hari Terbuka in JIGSS
As what darling said,feel like visiting our beloved teachers
All of sudden,we felt like serbu-ing to Pn.Low's house
To visit Baby Lewis too
Nyek3~~~
Tomorrow is like having darurat
Better stay at home and don't go anywhere
I hope the demonstration won't bring any -ve effect to our country,our society
Now less people update their bloggies
So "quiet"
syane.ms.h2o is going to update soon
See ya

Transformer

I think of the title not only because I just finished watching
Transformers 3 : Dark of the Moon
It is quite nice
The flow is awesome
In the nutshell, it is worth to watch it =)
On the other hand
I put "Transformer" as my blog title
The second reason is I'm going to start my second semester on tomorrow
I wish to transform
From what had happened just now
I wish to be a soft-spoken girl
Honestly,I am not a good girl
Now I wish to be a good girl
Be a considerate & understanding girl
Not to be too impulsive and too straight forward
People will always ignore others' strength
but exaggerate their shortcomings
I know I have a lot of shortcomings
But the problem is
something is actually inherited from our parents
Our genes carry the characteristics
What to do?
Brand new life from tomorrow onwards
I may want to make myself busy
I hope I can have the chance
If I have the chance,please cross your fingers
I wish I can have the ability too
The ability to take care of many things at the same time
Perhaps I think too much
To Group Bomb
We can meet tomorrow and let's have an awesome Sem 2
All the best in getting our result on Aug
To those who are not be with us in Group Bomb
All the best in your future
Don't forget you have awesome & brilliant Bomb-ians
To noname.mr.h2o,sweet pumpkin and bee chin
Take care
Get well soon =)

At that Moment...

In our daily life
The same thing may happen for so many times
We may be ignorant
As I have mentioned for so many times
Unexpected event = surprise
At the moment
I may find the thing is so beautiful
At the other moment
I may find the thing is just ordinary
Both are the same thing
but we may feel differently at different moments
Yesterday my cousin held my hand when I hugged him
Don't know why
I felt the warmth
On the other hand
When I viewed photos which were captured recently
I found that my dad looked older nowadays
White hair, white moustache, white sideburns
That's the "sin" of time
At the particular moment
You may have been determined to do sth
So sometimes it's better to be impulsive
Do it when you want to
I think I'm crapping now
My mind is messy now
Intangible feeling
I opened my files in my brain
Went through all the files
I have a lot of thoughts
But I don't know how to sort it out
Complicated
Those "heavy files" were buried
Because those are past tense
Luckily the files are saved
OMG
Feel like spilling h2o
I want to be quiet
Zip my mouth and immerse myself in h2o
My h2o world