Saturday, March 24, 2012

Share..=)

My attention has been shifted to my scholarship application
So the ms.emo and ms.lonely couldn't stand
They feel sad because I ignored them and they just went away
I'm glad to feel that
I'm really useless..
Emo for nothing,feel empty and lonely for nothing
But come to think of it
Quite sad when you can't find anyone to talk to
Okay. Stop emo topic
Just to share this
* Make peace with your past
So it doesn't spoil your present
* What others think of you is
None of your business
* Time heals almost everything
Give time,some time
* No one is the reason of your happiness
Except you yourself
* Don't compare your life with others
You have no idea what their journey is all about
* Stop thinking too much
It is alright not to know all the answers
* Smile
You don't own all the problems in the world

Good luck
To me and To you

Friday, March 16, 2012

我不懂

最近的压力真的很大
大到我的“朋友”都到我的额头来探望我
不懂是不是因为压力的关系
最近的情绪很容易有波动
也有很多的感慨
有时真的很无奈
也很讨厌
应该做的东西多到我不会安排
到最后自己也慌了
甚至慌到眼泪也不知不觉的掉了
但此时此刻的我
必须自个儿面对这一切
尽管心里多想有人可以让我靠一靠
可以跟我分担
因为害怕失去
现在的我变得很胆小,很懦弱
我不喜欢这样
他人现在正在主宰我的生命
我不是应该自己驾驭自己的情绪的吗?
最近真的常常想太多
做很多多余的东西
让自己觉得难过
是不是时间长了
人与人之间的感情就会淡掉?
难道这是一个必经的过程吗?
我不是已经学会不要把琐碎事情看得太重吗?
结果呢?
我也不懂~

Wednesday, March 14, 2012

Over..

I shouldn't have thought too much
Sometimes God arranges the incident in your life
Just mean to make you to be tougher
Somehow I do get hurt
But I will tell myself
It is over
It was a small matter only
I care so much for what?
I expect for what?
Do what I should do
I never forget about this
I'm clear what I should and what I shouldn't do
Am I exceeding the limit?
I don't know
Maybe I did
Over the limit
This makes myself suffered
Since I thought there will always be a hand to hold me or pull me
But no matter what happen
I have to face on my own eventually
I should stop myself from thinking
Only at here
I can feel peaceful
Do and type whatever I want without considering others' feeling
Why we care but others don't care?
What's the point?
I wonder

Monday, March 12, 2012

Fruitless


It is kinda depressing to realise that you work for 100%
Your hard work doesn't pay off
Then why must we struggle to do that?
Well,that's life,isn't it?
Sometimes we just have no choice
In study,relationship between couples,friends,family
We just can't get what we want or eager for
People get demotivated after undergoing all that
Really feel tired when I look at all those
All mess up
But what to do?
Life still goes on and I have to move on
Just settled my IMU application last Saturday
Just settled my NTU application few hours ago
But I haven't paid for the application fee and submit the supporting documents for NTU application
Get fed up when I do application
Sigh~why life so hard?
Just handed in my drop form today
Look at the papers that I suppose to retake
Oh Gosh~ 11 papers again~
In less than 9 weeks time
I'm going to denature like what enzyme did as I'm subjected to extreme condition
All the sickness please go away from me
I have no time to sick
I apologize as I don't really have the mood to talk recently
I don't have the mood to take initiative to chat
But my friends,I still concern about you guys
Always...
I'm so sorry
Tend to think too much recently
What's wrong with me ar?
Another big wave is coming to attack me soon
Guess what? I feel it is too fast
I am aware of being attacked by the big wave
How I wish the ocean is peaceful
No big wave like tsunami
But then again
FRUITLESS
There is no point for me to look at the same ocean
Even after the wave has gone
How sad I feel
Since I wish I can
In the nutshell
Enjoy the moments which my eyes still can see the ocean
This wonderful ocean
Switch off the alarm or reminder temporarily
Now the main focus should be the beach or other thing else
Hold the pain and move on
I am a strong girl in most of the people's eyes
Maybe I should keep this image
Stay strong!

Saturday, March 10, 2012

有好一段时间没有用中文来打部落格了
今天心血来潮
想念起中文
每个晚上
若我的电池还很足够的时候
那就会是我想起这一天所发生的事
做个自我反省
前两天
成绩出炉了
问我考得如何
我只是一脸无奈
因为我不懂得回答
搔搔头
又是得烦恼升学的问题了
有两个好人
不断地在提醒我一件事
谢谢你们的好意
我真的感受到了
昨天在考虑关于申请去NTU的事情
唉~疑惑疑惑~
今天去了IMU了解了自己将来可能升学的环境
进一步了解自己所要的的课程
清楚多了
现在要想的是
2+2?还是本地?
想想想
今天晚上有一个很特别的晚餐
谢谢你的offer
我真的很感激
真的很不一样
我还蛮享受那个感觉的
至于我的“久”
我真的不懂未来会是怎么样
真的很不舍
真的会很怀念
我真的无言无奈
无能为力
:(

Sunday, March 4, 2012

It is my pleasure =)

I don't know how many times I have mentioned about it
But no matter how many times I mention
I still can't show my appreciation completely
Actually I know you knew all this
You are so wonderful
You understand me so well
I'm glad to be your other half
Thanks for being there when I am in need
Thanks for caring and loving me like nobody else
What I did for you is actually very little
The purpose is very simple
You happy,I happy
And you really deserve all that
Actually I planned to type sth emo
After that I changed my mind
Why don't I think of some happy stuff to blog leh?
That's why is "It is my pleasure" instead of "Saturated"
The calendar becomes thinner
People keep on reminding me
But I am much more clearer than others
I know not many days left
Like what you said
The memory is big
Really not easy to find someone like you
You and me can accept all the weaknesses
Sometimes may get hurt accidentally
But after a while,that doesn't really matter
We are human what
So it is normal to say sth which you don't really mean it
We have gone through most of the things
Tasted most of the bitter-sweet
But sweetness is still the largest proportion lar
Thanks for loving me
Thanks for making me your other half
I really appreciate you
And I'm grateful that God brings us together
Even though we face some obstacles
That's life,isn't it?
No matter what decision you make in the future
I have no regret
Dear
ILY

To sweet pumpkin
I'm so sorry for being selfish
I think I am quite bad
I don't know how to console you when you are undergoing your emo season
I'm such an useless intimate
Give you trouble but can't help you to fix your problem
Thanks for being there for me
Sorry for being so suck
All the best k?

*Result is out on Thursday
God bless me
Crossing fingers
And God please lead me to the right way
To solve my frets that I'm facing now