Fruitless

It is kinda depressing to realise that you work for 100%
Your hard work doesn't pay off
Then why must we struggle to do that?
Well,that's life,isn't it?

Sometimes we just have no choice
In study,relationship between couples,friends,family
We just can't get what we want or eager for
People get demotivated after undergoing all that
Really feel tired when I look at all those
All mess up
But what to do?
Life still goes on and I have to move on
Just settled my IMU application last Saturday
Just settled my NTU application few hours ago
But I haven't paid for the application fee and submit the supporting documents for NTU application
Get fed up when I do application
Sigh~why life so hard?

Just handed in my drop form today
Look at the papers that I suppose to retake
Oh Gosh~ 11 papers again~
In less than 9 weeks time
I'm going to denature like what enzyme did as I'm subjected to extreme condition
All the sickness please go away from me
I have no time to sick
I apologize as I don't really have the mood to talk recently
I don't have the mood to take initiative to chat
But my friends,I still concern about you guys
Always...
I'm so sorry
Tend to think too much recently
What's wrong with me ar?
Another big wave is coming to attack me soon
Guess what? I feel it is too fast
I am aware of being attacked by the big wave
How I wish the ocean is peaceful
No big wave like tsunami
But then again
FRUITLESS
There is no point for me to look at the same ocean
Even after the wave has gone
How sad I feel
Since I wish I can
In the nutshell
Enjoy the moments which my eyes still can see the ocean
This wonderful ocean
Switch off the alarm or reminder temporarily
Now the main focus should be the beach or other thing else
Hold the pain and move on
I am a strong girl in most of the people's eyes
Maybe I should keep this image
Stay strong!