Say I LOVE YOU when You're not listening..

Today, 20112012

A memorable day which I will never forget

The same day in 2011, I hid in the blanket and said "tick"

I remember how fast my heartbeat was, I remember how warm my face was

And I remember how happy I was

That kind of intangible feelings still stuck in my head

I will never forget

Throughout the year, many things have happened and changed

We smiled, we laughed, we looked at each other, we sang together

We are glad that we are owned by each other

We were so happy to be together

Recall how we met, how we started the first conversation, how we started the first text message, how we got close, how we cared for each other without we knowing it, how we started our relationship...

Until one day, you told me that your PR in Australia was granted 

I cried terribly because I knew it cannot be continued any more

From the day onwards, there was a reminder set in my mind

We must appreciate the time we left 

After our Tioman trip, the feeling grew intensely as you were going to leave in few more days

The night before you left was a sleepless night for me

Recalled those nostalgic moments-our first "yours fits mine", our first hug, our first kiss

I still remember how many times I woke up and checked my phone

I woke up at the time you woke up, you set off from your house, you reached airport, before you departed 

I won't forget how terrible I felt during the first two weeks after you left

We are 2594.74 miles apart and I respect your decision

Until one day you said you wanna try LDR

I was happy but I was worried too

LDR is not easy to maintain and great determination is needed

I restricted myself from thinking too much

 I told myself to believe and persevere 

I believe you do too

So we trust each other and we text everyday 

I read a few of articles on LDR to get my stand firm 

Sometimes I will be touched by those words as they really describe my feeling 

We are far apart but we are happy 

In such a long distance, we still have someone whom we love to support each other

Communication is vastly important in order to catch up every single details of each other's lives

You will always be the wise one for me to refer and share my problems

You have such a power to make me feel calm and clear all my doubts

Of course, you always have the ability to make me smile

However, thing didn't go smoothly

Something has happened which led to the end of our relationship

"In a relationship" or "single" is just a status 

For me, we're not end yet

I still have the faith even though I know I shouldn't have this thought

I don't know how to stop myself from loving you and let you go

Today, I want to tell you

"Bee, happy 1st anniversary!

Our bond is extraordinary, beautiful and real.

It's remarkable how wonderful you make me feel.

Sometimes I look at the sky and I will think that you and I are looking at the same sky.

You will never know how much you mean to me.

I love you bee and thank you for loving me.

I don't know how you feel now but I just wanna let you know how I feel.
Tear drops because we are no longer together.

Heart smiles because we are still the ONE.
Thanks for telling me I'm still important to you.

I'm not going to text you all this as I don't want you to give me some kind of reply which I don't like.

So, I will just leave the message here and don't think you will see it.

Everyday I wake up and every night before I sleep, you're the one who occupy my mind.

I miss you very much.

Bee,I love you."