Point of No Return

Hi! How are you doing? I just realise this is my first post in 2013! Surprisingly, it will be a good post! Hahaha.. I hope you have a great beginning of year 2013.

This message is addressed to the special bee.
" Thanks for your advices yesterday and thanks for being frank to me. You know it is pretty important to me. I thought a lot last night before I sleep. I shouldn't be so stubborn. People will grow after they have experienced something in lives. So do I. I think this is a good experience for us to deal with our lives, deal with the problems that we faced. It made us more matured in thinking as well as our behaviours. I believe things happen for a reason and there will be a good lesson behind the incident. If you are mine, you will definitely still be mine but if you are not, then force no happiness. Maybe I am a perfectionist and I can hardly accept what you told me yesterday. But I know we have to be practical and consider about some other thing else. I'm not in an island alone and I have family and friends who love me and care about me. Same goes to you. Those memories are not fake definitely. They are the evidences which show your existence in my life as my first love. Undeniably, you are an awesome friend who can light up my world when I am in darkness or so called dilemma. I am glad that I have you to lend me a hand when I need to walk through the dark tunnel. You should know I will always do the same for you. When you need me, I will be there for you and give you support. If you need to be secured or you need warmth, I can give you. I will still miss you when I am alone at night. I will still miss you when I hear your favourite songs or songs that belong to us. I will definitely miss the time when I was the only girl whom you had in your arms. I will learn to let go and expect less. I expect you to be my close friend yea! I hope I really can pull through and take it. It has been a long journey for me to do so, yet I failed. Now, I must make this as my new year resolution. You, my only one will still be my only one but with different meaning and different role. I will keep those laughters, happiness, tears, sorrow in my heart. Those were the elements of the process which are quite memorable. You must do the same and let's grow up together. Even though I still haven't let go totally at this moment but I am slowly accepting the truth. It has been six months since you left me. It is so short yet so long. Time will heal right? I hope I can keep this positive thinking until the day we both let go. One more thing I want to tell you, you are not the one who can decide who deserve me or stuff like that but God will do. So don't think that you are not good and I deserve a better one. I am not as good as you think and you should know I have many shortcomings. Perhaps, I won't go into any relationship at this moment. I won't hunt as I know the person will come to me if we are meant to be together. Last but not least, thank you bee. I am proud to be your first love. "

This message is addressed to the other two musketeers.
" Both of you are the most awesome friends I have ever had in my life. My sisters and my buddies! Yo! One of you is going to leave soon but I know you will still miss us right? You like ooVoo instead of Skype right? Hahaha.. We will make it! We still have a lot of crazy stuffs to do together right? Hope we can hang out more and stick together more. By the way, distance shouldn't be the obstacle between us. We can still maintain as we are connected! Both of you take care and all the best in your study k? We will meet soon! I hope busyness is not the reason to separate us apart and disconnect us. You are my bra and I am your bra. We support each other yea! "

This message is addressed to the birthday girl tomorrow.
" Happy birthday in advanced. I can see your event went quite well and you had fun! Sorry because I can't make it to support you. All the best in your study and don't stress yourself too much. You must always believe that you can make it. Thanks for your support and guidance which you have given to me. I appreciate you as my friend. Smile more and be crazy when you are with me k? No more image. Hahaha. Have a blast, sweetheart! "

This message is addressed to all the Chinese readers!
"Happy Chinese New Year in advanced! Don't eat too much because it is CNY. Hehehe.. Take good care of yourselves. Enjoy the moment with your beloved family. Lover put it aside first. Wahaha. Just kidding! Have fun! Uhm.. I am not being racist but those who are non-Chinese, Happy Holidays! You still can celebrate with your Chinese friends ( especially to Tharo ). "