It's time to punish myself...

I know what I'm trying to say now wouldn't help much
But I feel depressed and frustrated
I know it is my fault
What I can do is to blame myself
Why didn't I work hard?
Such a brainless person
I overestimate myself
I am not that brilliant
I thought I can but actually I cannot
Can I have a fridge to keep my motivation?
I'm always being motivated FOR A WHILE ONLY
Maybe like Ms.Ng said
We will cry after seeing our result
Then only we're willing to work hard and buck up
Now I dare not to have motivation ady
Since it will not be long-lasting
I feel like doing many things
But I don't have the strength
I want to be a nerd
I want to punish myself
I have to strive for the best in the future with the past at my back
to constantly remind me that my potential has to be fully optimised
God,please give me the strength to go on and fulfill this purpose
Will hope to disappear as long as I can
See you
Hope you guys are doing well in your life

Recently

The calendar is getting more skinny
Time passed without leaving any footsteps
It is just too fast
The date that we have been waiting for is approaching
The speed of time is so scary
Now I'm having my 3 week-break
At the same time,my result for my sem 1 is coming out soon
18 August 2011
I just hope I can score well
At the same time,I must follow my checklist
I must accomplish my tasks
I must keep myself inspired to do well in Unit 2
Train myself to be prepared for the A2 Level units
Settle IELTS before October
Make my mind as soon as possible
Medicine or Pharmacy
I must decide it soon
Recently I get tired very easily
Feel like sleeping only
But I cannot be like that
It makes me feel lazy
I hope I can lighten my parent's burden with my steady salary
Time is the one that I have to sacrifice
Money is burnt when books are bought
Need to pay for exam fee soon
I may be having exam during the 1st day of CNY
Whole Jan'12 will be busy
Time time time
Why are you in rush?

Once in A while

Dear my readers
I'm here for a while
It has been long time I didn't update my bloggie
Such a rare case
Recently I'm inspired
So I wish I can keep the inspiration and move on
So sorry if I miss anything or can't be with you when there is a need
Especially to dear,darlz & bee chin chin
Talk about my recent life lu
I was being quite busy
Buried myself with homework
Revision...Not really...
Saturday I joined 30 Hour- Famine
It was my very 1st time to starve for 30 hours
I never expect I'm able to do so
Such an amazing experience
Wow. I'm great.xD
Such a meaningful camp
But the last few hours before breaking fast was terrible
No energy
Hands shaking
Felt like vomiting
Half dead like that
Finally,we did it!!!!!!
We raised our V soy Soya sponsored by V soy
And said CHEERSSS!!!!!!
My very 1st time to feel the small little chocolate muffin was so tasty
It was the most delicious food in the world
You can't imagine the gratefulness & satisfaction if you didn't go through it
I learnt to appreciate food
I learnt to be grateful with what I have
August break is coming soon
The break is not for me to take my rest and stop my journey
Yet, it is a path for me to accelerate
I should utilise it well
I hope I can make it
I can feel the determination flow in me nowadays
I wish I can share with dear
Dear,your dear here will always support you
She will send her support all the way from KL to Perak
Noname
I saw Danille Lee in the Count Down of 30 Hour-Famine
I just wanted to share with you
But sadly no response from you
Maybe you're busy
But his live singing was really nice
With guitar some more
Like Like Like
That's all
I got to go
See you soon

A Silent Night

I thought Friday night should be a relaxing night
But today is a silent night for me
I was waiting because I think you guys will online
And we can update each other
Whenever I have time
I will online
But now I think I will want to online during weekends only
I wish I can practise it
I want to train myself to adapt life without Internet
I should have utilise my time for my study instead
Should not use it to wait
Waiting is quite wasting
It made me can't focus well
I should not touch my lappie that frequently
Thanks for your message today
Unexpected event = surprise
I never expect you will send me a message
Thanks =)
Now I'm looking at the spaces between my fingers
I'm not only thinking yours fits mine
I'm thinking to remove my fingers from the keyboard too
And hold a pen instead
*I worry about you
I should not slack off anymore
Will update when there is a necessity
I hope I can keep my words
See you after N days

Spill H2o...

Don't ask me why I put "Spill H2o" as my blog title
I'm lost
I'm depressed
I'm tensed up
I feel insecure
My To-Do-List is long
But my determination & willpower just last for a short while only
I feel helpless
I can't describe what's my mood now
Will off to bed to cure
I left my Physics worksheet to lie peacefully in my file without completing it
I know I'm acting like an ostrich
I want to conquer it
I really want to.....
Desperately....
You know what
I dreamt sth bad yesterday night
I saw a little girl fell from a tall building right in front of me
It was a nightmare
It made me think of one of my dreams last time
My own death
I don't know what I'm doing right now
My mind is messy
Don't worry
I will be fine
Soon...

Sunday Mood again...

Sunday should be a nice day for everyone
People can take their rest after a hectic week
People can do whatever they want on Sunday
But for me, Sunday night is the most suffering night
I start to think about the days in the week
Need to plan everything
Indirectly, stress and tension will come to me
Eventually, my emotion graph fluctuates
People can do many things during weekends
But I fail to do so
That's my problem
I understand
But now I just wish I can have somebody to talk to
Listen to the songs that played by Sungha Jung
Hope can make my graph become linear with positive gradient
At least a constant horizontal line
I was happy to chat with my 2 dears and 1 darlz in the afternoon
Thanks for the companion
I wish we can do that again
I'm looking forward to our date
Hope can chat with you guys soon
Take care
Many people have fell sick recently
Must take good care of yourself
Continue with what you have been doing
Hope everything can go smoothly
Strong willpower
Please stay with me...

To You & To Me

[ TO ME ]
= Reply =
We have lost contact for one week
Unbelievable leh
Pity you
That's really a hectic week
I think mine is better than yours
Clarify it soon yea
I believe your willpower will drive you to do so
Don't tell me you cannot do it
I have faith on you
Enjoy your life yea
Do whatever you can to enjoy your life
I will update you now
Hehe

[ To You ]
Actually I don't have much things to update
Just tell you about my life in the week lu yea
Basically,I repeated the daily routine
So nothing special lu
I drove to Mid Valley on Thursday after my class
Two of my friends were in my car
We spent one hour to find parking
How sad it is
We went there to buy pressie for my friend who had birthday yesterday
Since we went to her birthday party
Had fun in her party lu
Although it was awkward at the beginning
Haha.
I'm going to teach on Monday lu
Quite scared because I cannot spoil Mr.Sho's reputation
Haha
So I have to teach well
Hope can earn $$ to support my own expenses
Then I don't have to get allowance from my dad
To lighten his burden lu
And I decided to take IELTS on 17 Sept
Most probably lar
Will register in Aug
Many of my friends start applying to overseas
And they planned what to do soon
I don't know whether I should apply to overseas or not
And I should choose Pharmacy instead of Medicine
Worse come to worse
Stay in local and study in IMU
And now I must train myself
I must force myself to finish my homework after I reach home
Then revise what I learn on that day
It needs a lot of determination & willpower
I must be able to handle work & study simultaneously
Don't know why
I just wanna say
I'm just ordinary
I'm no longer in secondary school
I'm syane.ms.h2o and I need h2o

Haha
Congratulation & celebration to The Great Mind
Tharo aka Darling
Hehehe~~