It is my pleasure =)

I don't know how many times I have mentioned about it
But no matter how many times I mention
I still can't show my appreciation completely
Actually I know you knew all this
You are so wonderful
You understand me so well
I'm glad to be your other half
Thanks for being there when I am in need
Thanks for caring and loving me like nobody else
What I did for you is actually very little
The purpose is very simple
You happy,I happy
And you really deserve all that
Actually I planned to type sth emo
After that I changed my mind
Why don't I think of some happy stuff to blog leh?
That's why is "It is my pleasure" instead of "Saturated"
The calendar becomes thinner
People keep on reminding me
But I am much more clearer than others
I know not many days left
Like what you said
The memory is big
Really not easy to find someone like you
You and me can accept all the weaknesses
Sometimes may get hurt accidentally
But after a while,that doesn't really matter
We are human what
So it is normal to say sth which you don't really mean it
We have gone through most of the things
Tasted most of the bitter-sweet
But sweetness is still the largest proportion lar
Thanks for loving me
Thanks for making me your other half
I really appreciate you
And I'm grateful that God brings us together

Even though we face some obstacles
That's life,isn't it?
No matter what decision you make in the future
I have no regret
Dear
ILY

To sweet pumpkin
I'm so sorry for being selfish
I think I am quite bad
I don't know how to console you when you are undergoing your emo season
I'm such an useless intimate
Give you trouble but can't help you to fix your problem
Thanks for being there for me
Sorry for being so suck
All the best k?

*Result is out on Thursday
God bless me
Crossing fingers
And God please lead me to the right way
To solve my frets that I'm facing now

Go with the flow...

Go with the flow
顺其自然
船到桥头自然直

That's what we will say when we have no idea about a matter
Scratching our head and squeezing the brain juice for whole day also pointless
So our conclusion will be
Let's GO WITH THE FLOW

When there is a sunny sky in our life
That represents the happy moments we have in life
Whenever we have no frets and we enjoy the moment the most
Everything we touch we feel we see we hear will be so wonderful
No flaw
But...
Something which is wonderful sure follow by a "but"

Mood weather changes when there are frets,sad news
We start getting panicked 

Don't know what to do and feel helpless
Yelling and shouting like nobody business
Keep on thinking for the solutions
End up with NOTHING or Tears
Start getting moody and gloomy
Then follow by weeping

Eventually,tearing...
You and me are clear that tearing doesn't help at all
It is just a way to release our emotion
After wiping the tears
Take a deep breath
We have to tell ourselves that
We have to move on
Face the obstacles bravely
No one will know what will happen in the future
We are like playing by chance
What if you do this
The consequence will be bla bla bla
We are worrying about the result of our decision
That makes us feel frustrated

Conclusion:
Let go when there is a need
No matter how painful it will be
Hold tight when you think you should
No matter how tough it will be
Do not be too stubborn
Do not expect anything which you shouldn't have expected
It is normal to get hurt when you put more efforts
(The efforts as in loves and cares)
If everyone feel scared to get hurt and refuse to love and care
How dull the world will be
Do not make yourselves regret
Do what you think you should do
Even though I will get hurt at the end
But I never regret

I wonder..

Life can be so wonderful,so lovely
Can you be with me?
Walk through every obstacles in life
Face and fix every problem in life

I am in dilemma again
Pharmacy or Medicine?
I just need to press "declaration" button and my application form will be submitted
Now I am putting BPharm in IMU as my first choice
BPharm (2+2) in IMU and Queensland as my second choice
MBBS as my third choice
I don't know my decision is right or not
For the sake of my future family
I just worried that life as a doctor will be too hectic for a mother-to-be in the future
I might think too much or think too far
But I think I have to
I know I have changed my mind for quite a few times
This sounds so annoying
I am so sorry
You are not me and you wouldn't know what I feel
I am hurt when you just push me away when I am in need
But never mind
I have expected to face all that alone
Decide it on my own
Now I haven't pressed the button yet
Will do it quite soon as I don't want to wait anymore
I wish I can get into uni by this year
I am lost and confused..
Seriously..

Walking down Memory lane..

Taking a trip down memory lane
Time flies through the spaces between my fingers without me realising
Many of you have accompanied in my journey of life
Some of you are gone without saying goodbye
I am glad that some of you are still here for me
Willing to share happiness and sadness with me in our life

Camera is the only thing that can be used to capture any moments that we want
Photos are things that can make us go back to the nostalgic moments
When I was viewing photos that I have captured
I recalled so many things
So many different types of feelings appeared at the same time
I remember how we met,how we get closed,how we get along,how we care for each other,how we fight,how we communicate....
Besides my happy moments with my dearest family
I spent most of my time with my intimates,friends,classmates
I captured stuffs that I bought,I liked,I made...
To Zi Chian
I knew you since form 1
Such a noisy and daring girl
But we only get close when we were in form 3
And you were sitting beside me
You helped me,listened to me,gave me opinion when I need
You are such a wise friend
Enjoy talking to you because of your character
Get to know more and more about you afterwards
Even until now
Our way of communication is still the same
You are still a nice person to approach to when I face any problem
*Don't fly in the jungle k?
To Pui Shan
I knew you since form 1 too
Such a quiet girl with a nice handwriting
Obviously,you are the one whom I sayang the most
Give you what you want if I manage to
Just to make you happy
You are just like a little sister who needs more cares and loves
But undeniably,you are a good listener
I can tell you most of the things
Sometimes you just don't know how to express yourself
Keep everything inside
Make people feel that you are unpredictable
You notice most of the small details which others may not notice
Don't always underestimate yourself
You can do more than you thought
To Thara
I knew you since form 1 too
First impression,arrogant!
Hahahaha..such a talkative friend I have
But this talkative friend has a great mind because she is the Great Mind Tharo
I won't forget our crazy texting session
I couldn't recall how and when we were close to each other
You are my source of motivation who always motivate and encourage me
My very first close Indian friend who always give me wise and useful opinion
When come to decision making,you will always be the right one to approach to
To Li Chin
I knew you since form 1 too
My assistant monitor for 4 years
You helped me a lot and give me support
Sometimes you are very rational
Can analyse some problems rationally
You are such a caring friend who will never let friendship fade 

You can be wordy like a mum if your friends fall sick
You can be very crazy sometimes
When comes to emo time, I can hardly help you
What I can do is accompany and give you support as what a friend should do
Others can't let you feel the warmth
I wish I can
Sometimes I make lame jokes
*as lame as you
Just to make you smile and don't think too much
I can complain what I dislike to you as most of the things that I dislike are same as you
To Sin Yee
I knew you since form 1 too
Such an awesome all-rounder
Good at drawing,studying,thinking,joking
Always LOL and =.=lll
A cool girl with a crazy character
Sounds contradicting but that's what I know about her
You are the one who always can lighten my burden when I was the monitor
You can understand my stand well
I like your straight forward character
Because I know that's what you really think
That's your inner voice
Sometimes just don't be over straight forward because not everyone can take it
Some people may get hurt
Your character is more to Western style
I don't know why I feel so but that's what I feel
Hehehe..
To the Only one
I knew you since last year
You look quiet but actually you have a wonderful social skill
I don't know you realise or not
Somehow you can break the awkward silence
At that moment,I will think
You should be more confident as you are very fantastic
You know how to discipline yourself

Sometimes you are naughty and playful

But this character is the one which will make me laugh
You are very alert and understanding

You can notice some small details
You know how use others' mistakes to do self-reflection
I think you influence me a lot
You wish I can be stronger to face anything happen in the future
I will try my best to do so just not to make you worried
As time goes on
The feeling of uncertain gets stronger and stronger
Just feel kinda helpless about the future
I have expected that will happen somehow
The reminder set in my mind keeps on reminding me
So when the time comes
What have to be ended,should be ended
As what you told me
Think positively
At least we owned
True?
Regretfully,we can't go further due to the obstacles
No matter how,I never regret about the decision I made
A tick for you will always be the right decision

We will not know what will happen in the future
Thanks to fate which bring us together
I'm glad to have you to be my special one
NGCMLFY

Selective

Something which is suitable for you
doesn't mean it is suitable for everyone
Sometimes you feel like sharing something with someone
However,the someone may not take in what you shared
The feeling is quite miserable
You mean to share
The someone doesn't mean to listen to you
Try to think by using a different way
Keep some to yourself
Once you know what kind of thing the person will not listen
Then don't tell even the matter is stuck in your throat
I experienced it for quite a few times
But I am sucks in controlling myself for not telling it
I should always remind myself
As I may annoy people by doing that
Talk to the particular person about the particular matter
You happy I happy
Have fun at the right time
Have private time at the right time as well
Sharing is caring
But I know your friends can't share everything with you and vice versa
So we can have our own sweet private time
Learn how to think
Learn how to behave
Sometimes,we just need to switch on "crazy" mode
To actually make ourselves relax
Lose control a bit
Not too over then come back to the original
Everyone will have their own remote control
It is just the matter of time and self regulation
We know where is the "stop" button
We just refuse to press the "stop" and follow by "next"
This is a life process which everyone will go through it
But not everyone is strong enough to hold the pain and do so
It takes time
For those who are going to go through or who is going through this
Good luck and Ganbatte
Stop the pain and start writing a new chapter of life
And don't forget to apply the international language
S.M.I.L.E

Few days later
I am going to start my third sem of A-Levels
My last sem of A-Levels
All the best
I will appreciate every moment I have with you all

Lastly
IMYVM
Don't you feel more tired today?

Be Grateful..

After visiting buddies' bloggies
I have the inspiration to loiter here
My title - Be Grateful
A simple phrase but most of us couldn't make it
Keep on complaining on what we don't have
But we never appreciate and be grateful on what we have
Things that you don't care could mean a lot for other people
We can never care for everyone's feelings
But at least do show we care others' feelings
Somehow people can feel they are concerned and secured
Just a simple action can put a broad smile on a person's face
Why not?
I may not be a good daughter,good sibling,good friend,good intimate,good girlfriend
I may be too mean and bad sometimes
Or even most of the time
But sometimes I really hope I can do anything to make someone smile
Just to make them feel contented
That's all
I don't know whether I succeed or not
But that's my simple purpose
Sometimes thing happens unexpectedly
Which will ruin every single plan
No matter how
Plan is better than unplanned
Things will be done better with planning than without
Unplanned event is meant to be surprise but not rubbish
When you think you are not happy
Then you should do some stuff
Think of some things which you should feel grateful
Maybe you will feel better
Simple is the best
Try not to make things complicated
*actually I am telling myself as well..xD

The Very First Time..

其实真的很不喜欢在自己需要人陪的时候
独自一个人
寂寞难耐
真的很不喜欢这种感觉
大年除夕的早上
独自一个人在家
有一种被人遗忘
被人落掉的感觉
心里很苦涩
在这个时候
除了电脑播放的歌曲以外
也只听得见自己的呼吸声
在一个冷冷的早上
我感觉更冷了
我只能不断的告诉自己
你应该去温习了
不应该在浪费时间
想一想
我应该要快点让自己习惯
习惯自己一个人面对一切
尽管过程有多么的苦涩
偶尔会想想
当你离开的那一天来临时
我会有怎么样的感受
尽管心里再怎么不舍
也要让你看到我
微笑着跟你道别
It is not the end of the world
I should be able to cope it
I still have my garden with me
Still have people around me
Thank you for coming to my world
This is my first CNY in KL with my books
Happy Chinese New Year
=)