A Lesson To be Learnt

Someone told me
God loves us, that's why He gave us many challenges in order to make us tougher

As we grow, we met different kinds of matters 

When we were young, we used to think we will get whatever we crave for as long as we work for it

For example, parents offer a great present and request you to get excellent result

You will definitely work harder than usual in order to achieve the target that they set

After you have experienced certain thing, you will not think the same way

Too many things are beyond our control

Sometimes, no matter how hard we work, how much effort we put, we will never get what we want

We are just able to hope and wish to get it

That's how minute we are

Anyway, I always believe thing happens for a reason

All the things that happen to us in our lives are somewhere down the line, destined to happen

Try hard to convince yourself, your effort is not in vain
I extracted this from somewhere else

"Everything that happens to us in our lives happens for good and teaches us a lesson. Perhaps one should learn from every kind of experience whether good or bad. People who keep their chin up even in the worst testing circumstances can always end up making a lot out of their lives."

This comes to the end of my first issue

This thought came across my mind recently

The relationship between human seems so fragile

It is not easy to get friends who appreciate you 

At certain time, we will just get some obscure motivations

Things just don't go right when your eyes are blinded by something else

I should say heart instead

I just can't help it when I miss my friends who treasure me 

Feeling lonely when I can't get someone whom I trust to talk to, to rely on

We just need companion
Anyway, I shall stop here 

Hope you peeps are doing well

Enjoy your day ahead
Last but not least, thank you for spending your precious time

Say I LOVE YOU when You're not listening..

Today, 20112012

A memorable day which I will never forget

The same day in 2011, I hid in the blanket and said "tick"

I remember how fast my heartbeat was, I remember how warm my face was

And I remember how happy I was

That kind of intangible feelings still stuck in my head

I will never forget

Throughout the year, many things have happened and changed

We smiled, we laughed, we looked at each other, we sang together

We are glad that we are owned by each other

We were so happy to be together

Recall how we met, how we started the first conversation, how we started the first text message, how we got close, how we cared for each other without we knowing it, how we started our relationship...

Until one day, you told me that your PR in Australia was granted 

I cried terribly because I knew it cannot be continued any more

From the day onwards, there was a reminder set in my mind

We must appreciate the time we left 

After our Tioman trip, the feeling grew intensely as you were going to leave in few more days

The night before you left was a sleepless night for me

Recalled those nostalgic moments-our first "yours fits mine", our first hug, our first kiss

I still remember how many times I woke up and checked my phone

I woke up at the time you woke up, you set off from your house, you reached airport, before you departed 

I won't forget how terrible I felt during the first two weeks after you left

We are 2594.74 miles apart and I respect your decision

Until one day you said you wanna try LDR

I was happy but I was worried too

LDR is not easy to maintain and great determination is needed

I restricted myself from thinking too much

 I told myself to believe and persevere 

I believe you do too

So we trust each other and we text everyday 

I read a few of articles on LDR to get my stand firm 

Sometimes I will be touched by those words as they really describe my feeling 

We are far apart but we are happy 

In such a long distance, we still have someone whom we love to support each other

Communication is vastly important in order to catch up every single details of each other's lives

You will always be the wise one for me to refer and share my problems

You have such a power to make me feel calm and clear all my doubts

Of course, you always have the ability to make me smile

However, thing didn't go smoothly

Something has happened which led to the end of our relationship

"In a relationship" or "single" is just a status 

For me, we're not end yet

I still have the faith even though I know I shouldn't have this thought

I don't know how to stop myself from loving you and let you go

Today, I want to tell you

"Bee, happy 1st anniversary!

Our bond is extraordinary, beautiful and real.

It's remarkable how wonderful you make me feel.

Sometimes I look at the sky and I will think that you and I are looking at the same sky.

You will never know how much you mean to me.

I love you bee and thank you for loving me.

I don't know how you feel now but I just wanna let you know how I feel.
Tear drops because we are no longer together.

Heart smiles because we are still the ONE.
Thanks for telling me I'm still important to you.

I'm not going to text you all this as I don't want you to give me some kind of reply which I don't like.

So, I will just leave the message here and don't think you will see it.

Everyday I wake up and every night before I sleep, you're the one who occupy my mind.

I miss you very much.

Bee,I love you."

Nice mail

Many people feel unhappy, health-wise and security-wise, after 60 years of age owing to the diminishing importance given to them and their opinion. But it need not be so, if only we understand the basic principles of life and follow them scrupulously. Here are ten mantras to age gracefully and make life after retirement pleasant. 

1. Never say ‘I am aged': There are three ages, chronological, biological, and psychological. The first is calculated based on our date of birth; the second is determined by the health conditions and the third is how old you feel you are. While we don't have control over the first, we can take care of our health with good diet, exercise and a cheerful attitude. A positive attitude and optimistic thinking can reverse the third age. 

2. Health is wealth: If you really love your kith and kin, taking care of your health should be your priority. Thus, you will not be a burden to them. Have an annual health check-up and take the prescribed medicines regularly. Do take health insurance cover. 

3. Money is important: Money is essential for meeting the basic necessities of life, keeping good health and earning family respect and security. Don't spend beyond your means even for your children. You have lived for them all through and it is time you enjoyed a harmonious life with your spouse. If your children are grateful and they take care of you, you are blessed. But never take it for granted. 

4. Relaxation and recreation: The most relaxing and recreating forces are a healthy religious attitude, good sleep, music and laughter. Learn to sleep well, practice meditation, love good music and see the funny side of life. 

5. Time is precious: It is almost like holding a horse's reins. When they are in your hands, you can control them. Imagine that everyday you are born again. Yesterday is a cancelled cheque. Tomorrow is a promissory note. Today is ready cash — use it profitably. Live this moment. 

6. Change is the only permanent thing: We should accept change — it is inevitable. The only way to make sense out of change is to join the dance. Change has brought about many pleasant things. We should be happy that our children are blessed. 

7. Enlightened selfishness: All of us are basically selfish. Whatever we do, we expect something in return. We should definitely be grateful to those who stood by us. But our focus should be on the internal satisfaction and happiness we derive by doing good to others, without expecting anything in return. 

8. Forget and forgive: Don't be bothered too much about others' mistakes. We are not spiritual enough to show our other cheek when we are slapped in one. But for the sake of our own health and happiness, let us forgive and forget them. Otherwise, we will be only increasing our BP. 

9. Everything has a purpose: Take life as it comes. Accept yourself as you are and also accept others for what they are. Everybody is unique and right in his own way. 

10. Overcome the fear of death: We all know that one day we have to leave this world. Still we are afraid of death. We think that our spouse and children will be unable to withstand our loss. But the truth is no one is going to die for you; they may be depressed for some time. Time heals everything and they will carry on. 

Hope you peeps enjoy reading it
To the only one

Thanks for sharing

Safe and sound

I remember you said
Don't leave me here alone

This will be a hectic month for most of us

That's why I seldom get the chance to know about you,my friends

How are you? Hope you are doing well

For those who are going to sit for STPM on 19 Nov
syane.ms.h2o wishes you all the best in your exam

For those who are going to have any midterm test or class test or final exam

syane.ms.h2o hopes the lady luck will be with you all the time

Today I'm just being random 

Suddenly miss here so much 

I think it's because I have not been blogging for quite a long time

That's why I have the inspiration but I fail to express it completely

Actually sth happened which made me wonder WHY

God,You keep sending me some messages which I think somehow it is a clue for me

To teach me how to behave 

However, it doesn't work 

I just can't restrict myself and my feeling

Maybe I have misinterpreted Your message

I just need Your guidance

Or should I just go with what I think and hold for such a long time?
I don't know and seriously I have no idea

God, please guide me

You want me to CHANGE or TRANSFORM 

I will really think about it 

In the process, I will need a lot of determination and courages

I sincerely hope You can guide me to the right path

I don't wish to pursue the wrong thing even I hope it is right for me at this moment

October!

It has been few weeks I didn't blog

I guess everyone is so busy until no one notice I have ditched my bloggie for so long

It seems that October is a busy month for everyone

Those who are having study break, especially Lichin

All the best in your EOS examinations

Study hard and take care!
First and foremost, I would like to thank those who planned so hard to give me a birthday surprise!
It was an advanced birthday celebration on 221012

I'm dumb as usual

Actually I guess sth is going on but I didn't know it was on yesterday 

I'm happy and surprised by those awesome friends

This surprise was very special because there are my high school friend, pre-U friends and uni friends

Now I would like to thank them one by one

Thank you, Karen. My only Punjab friend!
Thanks for putting so much effort in making the gift and I knew you started planning it one month ago

I really appreciate that 

Thank you for bringing those pizzas and flying from Bangsar to Bukit Jalil just to give me a surprise

Thanks for running here and there to get some "things" done 

Seriously,I really APPRECIATE!

Thank you, Jenn. One of my awesome and super caring friends!

Thanks for wasting your money to invite friends to join this "surprise giving event"

I know you get stressed up because you couldn't have enough time to get your tasks done

I really hope you can cure your insomnia 

Thanks for everything

Thank you, Lichin. My 7 years friend!
Never know you come here was part of the plan

Thought you really miss me and want to meet me up :p

Your "study plan" in IMU sounds real and convincing

Never expect you to come here and give me surprise too! 

And stay overnight!!!

I feel so close and warm! Sincerely...

I really hope you enjoyed too

Thank you,sweetheart!

Thank you Khai for flying from Taylor to Titiwangsa LRT Station

From Titiwangsa to Sri Petaling

It made me feel so touched and I was so shocked to see you

Thank you for sparing your time to come here

I'm glad to meet you up and know you're doing well

Thank you Zac and Teck Kok. My uni brothers!

I know it is quite awkward for you guys to join my pre-U friends and high school friend to give me surprise

I'm touched because you guys made it for me 

It is my pleasure to meet you guys even though we like to tease each other

But seriously, I appreciate you guys! 

You guys did help me quite a lot

Thanks a lot!

I would like to thank my housemate as well because he needs to bear with our noisiness 

Thank you Chia Ren

Last but not least,

I want to thank the most special friend, my only one who is far far away!

I don't know what you did behind me to arrange or plan all this

I heard from someone that you put in effort to give idea 

You are the one who know me the most 

You know what I like and you're trying so hard to give me what I like

I'm touched! Besides touching, I don't know what word I should use to express

I know something is flying to me and you are the sender

Thank you in advanced for that 

I appreciate you...really...

In a nutshell, I would like to bow 90 degree to thank all of you

To show my appreciation, I will love you guys more 

And treasure you as my super awesome friends! 

Muacxxxxxzzzzz...
The photos will be uploaded soon!

Enjoy the cam-whore session with Jenn and Lichin!
<3

*A random message to Zichina Cheah
May God help you to make you stronger 

May God help you to solve your problems 

*A random message to Puishan Tan

I hope you have a happy starting in HELP

All the best in your degree life!
<3

眼泪

时间越久，我以为我越能放得下

其实我越不能放下

走到哪里，我都仿佛能感觉你

看到你的影子

从来没有试过这一种感觉，这一种痛

躺着躺着，眼泪不知觉地流下来，弄湿了枕头

脑海里不断浮现同一个影子

其实现实一直不断在告诉我，是时候放手

没有了爱做基础，那什么都不是

既然对方那么努力地隐藏及说服自己放手

那我又何必紧捉着不放呢

因为我爱，我在乎，我不希望这样子结束

我一直不断地说服自己，做回朋友

可是还有爱，我就会期待，我真的希望会有转机

一向认为只要曾经努力去争取过

就算没有成功也没关系

至少对得起自己的心，至少努力过

这一回，我想努力的机会被剥夺了

我真的是彻底的失败了

难道是我太天真？

我的情绪很低落，因为我们再也不是我们了

一切有意义的，如今都变得没有意义了

嘴里的面条，掺杂着泪水的咸与苦

此刻的我只想找一个可靠的肩膀或者是一双耳朵

让我发泄，让我诉苦

不断的抽泣与哽咽，让我没有办法好好的进食

现在的我只能告诉自己，I'm on my own..

有很多想要跟他分享的东西，我都得往肚里吞

Let those unsaid words remain unsaid

我告诉我自己，我要自私一点，绝一点

到底要怎样我才做得到？

因为还有爱，我心软，我做不到

王俐璇，振作一点，你可以的！

First Day of Oct- Monday Blue

I woke up quite early this morning to get my PTPTN documents done

I went to have breakfast with my dad

When I was eating halfway, I recalled our fond memories

I recalled a scene where you and I were sitting in the bus 

I recalled a scene where both of us were studying in DSA room

I recalled our Tioman trip

I recalled our Singapore fried meehoon 

Then the first thought which came across my mind is

I want to tell you how much I miss you

"Bee,I miss you so badly.."

I did say it in another way

End up with a reply of "haha"

So many things have changed which I don't really wish to

I thought I have accepted the truth

However, when come to certain point, I just can't 

How much I miss you..all my thoughts..

I dare not to share and I think I'm not supposed to share

I have no one to share about all this

It is so suffering because I have to keep all to myself

Type halfway now and my vision is getting blurrer 

Heartbroken..heartache..

I'm no longer important to you

No longer..

I feel so sad when I think about this 

My time was occupied with quite a lot of stuff 

But I just can't help it when those things keep popping out

And you keep running in my mind

Nowadays, I think you can hardly spare time for me

You sounds normal but I keep feeling one kind

I don't know this is because I'm too sensitive or what

It seems that I varnish in your life

No longer care no longer important no longer love

I don't know what you feel actually

I don't know...

It seems that you won't feel lonely or empty without me

You are still okay even without me

My existence doesn't give any impact to your life anymore

I know I'm negative now 

I may regret with what I typed here in the next min

I hate the feeling of insecure 

I'm on my own..

To do everything..

I'm tired

By the way, I know some of you are very caring 

I feel it! Seriously..

I keep it in my heart

I really appreciate

To noname

Remember what I told you in the evening

Don't think so much..