不懂怎么了

最近老是觉得事事很不顺心

心里的不到安慰，得不到平静

一直焦虑不安，也不知道自己在执着些什么，烦恼些什么

想法很负面

在这个时候，没有一个值得我依靠的地方-雪上加霜

尽管家人都在我身边，但我却难以启齿

朋友？一个字-忙

曾几何时我们之间的距离已经越来越远

我以为只要我坚持，事情会有转机，原来事实不是如此

朋友不需要很多，真心的有几个都够了

我还是头一次遇到那么失败的session

还蛮难相信这会发生在我身上

一向喜欢什么事情都安排好好的我

似乎不再这么想了

因为无论你安排得多么妥当，事情也会变得不妥当

我懂我不是一个很好相处的人，不是一个好惹的人

有些东西，坚持久了，人也会累的

尤其是单方面的坚持

真让人心力交瘁

不再敢渴望从你那里得到任何的安慰

很多事情已经变了

人长大了，什么都变了

思想也跟以前不一样了

人都是自私的，你在说那些话的时候，又是否考虑过我的感受？

有些时候遵从，并不代表我自己没有想法，这只是不要让局面变得很难堪

我不说你不懂，我说了你会懂吗？

我很想现在睡了都不要再醒来

Goals

Long-termed goals

• Be a successful and professional pharmacist. Get a good job scope and a working environment which I like. Earn money to give my family a better life. 
• Buy a house. This has been my dream since long time ago. 
• Travel. I hope I can get the chance to go around to understand the cultures in different countries. 
• Continue my study abroad. (if only it is possible). I understand it is not easy to study abroad but I just wish to have a try. 
• Slim down! I think most of us wish to do this! 
• Be moderate. Don't think I have a good character and temper. So I think I have to work harder.
• Speak fluent English. This may sound silly but I really wish I can. 

Short-termed goals

• First class honour!! 
• Get 30% off for my tuition fee to lighten my parents' burden. It is extremely hard to get CGPA 3.9 and above!
• Master guitar. At least learn one song in a month. 

I can't think of any at this moment. 

So far these are what I can think of.

See you. 

Announcement

If you're interested in reading my blog, here is another blog you may want to read.

Hope you like it. 

http://journey-to-my-heart.blogspot.com/

A Lesson To be Learnt

Someone told me
God loves us, that's why He gave us many challenges in order to make us tougher

As we grow, we met different kinds of matters 

When we were young, we used to think we will get whatever we crave for as long as we work for it

For example, parents offer a great present and request you to get excellent result

You will definitely work harder than usual in order to achieve the target that they set

After you have experienced certain thing, you will not think the same way

Too many things are beyond our control

Sometimes, no matter how hard we work, how much effort we put, we will never get what we want

We are just able to hope and wish to get it

That's how minute we are

Anyway, I always believe thing happens for a reason

All the things that happen to us in our lives are somewhere down the line, destined to happen

Try hard to convince yourself, your effort is not in vain
I extracted this from somewhere else

"Everything that happens to us in our lives happens for good and teaches us a lesson. Perhaps one should learn from every kind of experience whether good or bad. People who keep their chin up even in the worst testing circumstances can always end up making a lot out of their lives."

This comes to the end of my first issue

This thought came across my mind recently

The relationship between human seems so fragile

It is not easy to get friends who appreciate you 

At certain time, we will just get some obscure motivations

Things just don't go right when your eyes are blinded by something else

I should say heart instead

I just can't help it when I miss my friends who treasure me 

Feeling lonely when I can't get someone whom I trust to talk to, to rely on

We just need companion
Anyway, I shall stop here 

Hope you peeps are doing well

Enjoy your day ahead
Last but not least, thank you for spending your precious time

Say I LOVE YOU when You're not listening..

Today, 20112012

A memorable day which I will never forget

The same day in 2011, I hid in the blanket and said "tick"

I remember how fast my heartbeat was, I remember how warm my face was

And I remember how happy I was

That kind of intangible feelings still stuck in my head

I will never forget

Throughout the year, many things have happened and changed

We smiled, we laughed, we looked at each other, we sang together

We are glad that we are owned by each other

We were so happy to be together

Recall how we met, how we started the first conversation, how we started the first text message, how we got close, how we cared for each other without we knowing it, how we started our relationship...

Until one day, you told me that your PR in Australia was granted 

I cried terribly because I knew it cannot be continued any more

From the day onwards, there was a reminder set in my mind

We must appreciate the time we left 

After our Tioman trip, the feeling grew intensely as you were going to leave in few more days

The night before you left was a sleepless night for me

Recalled those nostalgic moments-our first "yours fits mine", our first hug, our first kiss

I still remember how many times I woke up and checked my phone

I woke up at the time you woke up, you set off from your house, you reached airport, before you departed 

I won't forget how terrible I felt during the first two weeks after you left

We are 2594.74 miles apart and I respect your decision

Until one day you said you wanna try LDR

I was happy but I was worried too

LDR is not easy to maintain and great determination is needed

I restricted myself from thinking too much

 I told myself to believe and persevere 

I believe you do too

So we trust each other and we text everyday 

I read a few of articles on LDR to get my stand firm 

Sometimes I will be touched by those words as they really describe my feeling 

We are far apart but we are happy 

In such a long distance, we still have someone whom we love to support each other

Communication is vastly important in order to catch up every single details of each other's lives

You will always be the wise one for me to refer and share my problems

You have such a power to make me feel calm and clear all my doubts

Of course, you always have the ability to make me smile

However, thing didn't go smoothly

Something has happened which led to the end of our relationship

"In a relationship" or "single" is just a status 

For me, we're not end yet

I still have the faith even though I know I shouldn't have this thought

I don't know how to stop myself from loving you and let you go

Today, I want to tell you

"Bee, happy 1st anniversary!

Our bond is extraordinary, beautiful and real.

It's remarkable how wonderful you make me feel.

Sometimes I look at the sky and I will think that you and I are looking at the same sky.

You will never know how much you mean to me.

I love you bee and thank you for loving me.

I don't know how you feel now but I just wanna let you know how I feel.
Tear drops because we are no longer together.

Heart smiles because we are still the ONE.
Thanks for telling me I'm still important to you.

I'm not going to text you all this as I don't want you to give me some kind of reply which I don't like.

So, I will just leave the message here and don't think you will see it.

Everyday I wake up and every night before I sleep, you're the one who occupy my mind.

I miss you very much.

Bee,I love you."

Nice mail

Many people feel unhappy, health-wise and security-wise, after 60 years of age owing to the diminishing importance given to them and their opinion. But it need not be so, if only we understand the basic principles of life and follow them scrupulously. Here are ten mantras to age gracefully and make life after retirement pleasant. 

1. Never say ‘I am aged': There are three ages, chronological, biological, and psychological. The first is calculated based on our date of birth; the second is determined by the health conditions and the third is how old you feel you are. While we don't have control over the first, we can take care of our health with good diet, exercise and a cheerful attitude. A positive attitude and optimistic thinking can reverse the third age. 

2. Health is wealth: If you really love your kith and kin, taking care of your health should be your priority. Thus, you will not be a burden to them. Have an annual health check-up and take the prescribed medicines regularly. Do take health insurance cover. 

3. Money is important: Money is essential for meeting the basic necessities of life, keeping good health and earning family respect and security. Don't spend beyond your means even for your children. You have lived for them all through and it is time you enjoyed a harmonious life with your spouse. If your children are grateful and they take care of you, you are blessed. But never take it for granted. 

4. Relaxation and recreation: The most relaxing and recreating forces are a healthy religious attitude, good sleep, music and laughter. Learn to sleep well, practice meditation, love good music and see the funny side of life. 

5. Time is precious: It is almost like holding a horse's reins. When they are in your hands, you can control them. Imagine that everyday you are born again. Yesterday is a cancelled cheque. Tomorrow is a promissory note. Today is ready cash — use it profitably. Live this moment. 

6. Change is the only permanent thing: We should accept change — it is inevitable. The only way to make sense out of change is to join the dance. Change has brought about many pleasant things. We should be happy that our children are blessed. 

7. Enlightened selfishness: All of us are basically selfish. Whatever we do, we expect something in return. We should definitely be grateful to those who stood by us. But our focus should be on the internal satisfaction and happiness we derive by doing good to others, without expecting anything in return. 

8. Forget and forgive: Don't be bothered too much about others' mistakes. We are not spiritual enough to show our other cheek when we are slapped in one. But for the sake of our own health and happiness, let us forgive and forget them. Otherwise, we will be only increasing our BP. 

9. Everything has a purpose: Take life as it comes. Accept yourself as you are and also accept others for what they are. Everybody is unique and right in his own way. 

10. Overcome the fear of death: We all know that one day we have to leave this world. Still we are afraid of death. We think that our spouse and children will be unable to withstand our loss. But the truth is no one is going to die for you; they may be depressed for some time. Time heals everything and they will carry on. 

Hope you peeps enjoy reading it
To the only one

Thanks for sharing

Safe and sound

I remember you said
Don't leave me here alone

This will be a hectic month for most of us

That's why I seldom get the chance to know about you,my friends

How are you? Hope you are doing well

For those who are going to sit for STPM on 19 Nov
syane.ms.h2o wishes you all the best in your exam

For those who are going to have any midterm test or class test or final exam

syane.ms.h2o hopes the lady luck will be with you all the time

Today I'm just being random 

Suddenly miss here so much 

I think it's because I have not been blogging for quite a long time

That's why I have the inspiration but I fail to express it completely

Actually sth happened which made me wonder WHY

God,You keep sending me some messages which I think somehow it is a clue for me

To teach me how to behave 

However, it doesn't work 

I just can't restrict myself and my feeling

Maybe I have misinterpreted Your message

I just need Your guidance

Or should I just go with what I think and hold for such a long time?
I don't know and seriously I have no idea

God, please guide me

You want me to CHANGE or TRANSFORM 

I will really think about it 

In the process, I will need a lot of determination and courages

I sincerely hope You can guide me to the right path

I don't wish to pursue the wrong thing even I hope it is right for me at this moment