Over..

I shouldn't have thought too much
Sometimes God arranges the incident in your life
Just mean to make you to be tougher
Somehow I do get hurt
But I will tell myself
It is over
It was a small matter only
I care so much for what?
I expect for what?
Do what I should do
I never forget about this
I'm clear what I should and what I shouldn't do
Am I exceeding the limit?
I don't know
Maybe I did
Over the limit
This makes myself suffered
Since I thought there will always be a hand to hold me or pull me
But no matter what happen
I have to face on my own eventually
I should stop myself from thinking
Only at here
I can feel peaceful
Do and type whatever I want without considering others' feeling
Why we care but others don't care?
What's the point?
I wonder

Fruitless

It is kinda depressing to realise that you work for 100%
Your hard work doesn't pay off
Then why must we struggle to do that?
Well,that's life,isn't it?

Sometimes we just have no choice
In study,relationship between couples,friends,family
We just can't get what we want or eager for
People get demotivated after undergoing all that
Really feel tired when I look at all those
All mess up
But what to do?
Life still goes on and I have to move on
Just settled my IMU application last Saturday
Just settled my NTU application few hours ago
But I haven't paid for the application fee and submit the supporting documents for NTU application
Get fed up when I do application
Sigh~why life so hard?

Just handed in my drop form today
Look at the papers that I suppose to retake
Oh Gosh~ 11 papers again~
In less than 9 weeks time
I'm going to denature like what enzyme did as I'm subjected to extreme condition
All the sickness please go away from me
I have no time to sick
I apologize as I don't really have the mood to talk recently
I don't have the mood to take initiative to chat
But my friends,I still concern about you guys
Always...
I'm so sorry
Tend to think too much recently
What's wrong with me ar?
Another big wave is coming to attack me soon
Guess what? I feel it is too fast
I am aware of being attacked by the big wave
How I wish the ocean is peaceful
No big wave like tsunami
But then again
FRUITLESS
There is no point for me to look at the same ocean
Even after the wave has gone
How sad I feel
Since I wish I can
In the nutshell
Enjoy the moments which my eyes still can see the ocean
This wonderful ocean
Switch off the alarm or reminder temporarily
Now the main focus should be the beach or other thing else
Hold the pain and move on
I am a strong girl in most of the people's eyes
Maybe I should keep this image
Stay strong!

久

有好一段时间没有用中文来打部落格了
今天心血来潮
想念起中文
每个晚上
若我的电池还很足够的时候
那就会是我想起这一天所发生的事
做个自我反省
前两天
成绩出炉了
问我考得如何
我只是一脸无奈
因为我不懂得回答
搔搔头
又是得烦恼升学的问题了
有两个好人
不断地在提醒我一件事
谢谢你们的好意
我真的感受到了
昨天在考虑关于申请去NTU的事情
唉~疑惑疑惑~
今天去了IMU了解了自己将来可能升学的环境
进一步了解自己所要的的课程
清楚多了
现在要想的是
2+2?还是本地?
想想想
今天晚上有一个很特别的晚餐
谢谢你的offer
我真的很感激
真的很不一样
我还蛮享受那个感觉的
至于我的“久”
我真的不懂未来会是怎么样
真的很不舍
真的会很怀念
我真的无言无奈
无能为力
：(

It is my pleasure =)

I don't know how many times I have mentioned about it
But no matter how many times I mention
I still can't show my appreciation completely
Actually I know you knew all this
You are so wonderful
You understand me so well
I'm glad to be your other half
Thanks for being there when I am in need
Thanks for caring and loving me like nobody else
What I did for you is actually very little
The purpose is very simple
You happy,I happy
And you really deserve all that
Actually I planned to type sth emo
After that I changed my mind
Why don't I think of some happy stuff to blog leh?
That's why is "It is my pleasure" instead of "Saturated"
The calendar becomes thinner
People keep on reminding me
But I am much more clearer than others
I know not many days left
Like what you said
The memory is big
Really not easy to find someone like you
You and me can accept all the weaknesses
Sometimes may get hurt accidentally
But after a while,that doesn't really matter
We are human what
So it is normal to say sth which you don't really mean it
We have gone through most of the things
Tasted most of the bitter-sweet
But sweetness is still the largest proportion lar
Thanks for loving me
Thanks for making me your other half
I really appreciate you
And I'm grateful that God brings us together

Even though we face some obstacles
That's life,isn't it?
No matter what decision you make in the future
I have no regret
Dear
ILY

To sweet pumpkin
I'm so sorry for being selfish
I think I am quite bad
I don't know how to console you when you are undergoing your emo season
I'm such an useless intimate
Give you trouble but can't help you to fix your problem
Thanks for being there for me
Sorry for being so suck
All the best k?

*Result is out on Thursday
God bless me
Crossing fingers
And God please lead me to the right way
To solve my frets that I'm facing now

Go with the flow...

Go with the flow
顺其自然
船到桥头自然直

That's what we will say when we have no idea about a matter
Scratching our head and squeezing the brain juice for whole day also pointless
So our conclusion will be
Let's GO WITH THE FLOW

When there is a sunny sky in our life
That represents the happy moments we have in life
Whenever we have no frets and we enjoy the moment the most
Everything we touch we feel we see we hear will be so wonderful
No flaw
But...
Something which is wonderful sure follow by a "but"

Mood weather changes when there are frets,sad news
We start getting panicked 

Don't know what to do and feel helpless
Yelling and shouting like nobody business
Keep on thinking for the solutions
End up with NOTHING or Tears
Start getting moody and gloomy
Then follow by weeping

Eventually,tearing...
You and me are clear that tearing doesn't help at all
It is just a way to release our emotion
After wiping the tears
Take a deep breath
We have to tell ourselves that
We have to move on
Face the obstacles bravely
No one will know what will happen in the future
We are like playing by chance
What if you do this
The consequence will be bla bla bla
We are worrying about the result of our decision
That makes us feel frustrated

Conclusion:
Let go when there is a need
No matter how painful it will be
Hold tight when you think you should
No matter how tough it will be
Do not be too stubborn
Do not expect anything which you shouldn't have expected
It is normal to get hurt when you put more efforts
(The efforts as in loves and cares)
If everyone feel scared to get hurt and refuse to love and care
How dull the world will be
Do not make yourselves regret
Do what you think you should do
Even though I will get hurt at the end
But I never regret

I wonder..

Life can be so wonderful,so lovely
Can you be with me?
Walk through every obstacles in life
Face and fix every problem in life

I am in dilemma again
Pharmacy or Medicine?
I just need to press "declaration" button and my application form will be submitted
Now I am putting BPharm in IMU as my first choice
BPharm (2+2) in IMU and Queensland as my second choice
MBBS as my third choice
I don't know my decision is right or not
For the sake of my future family
I just worried that life as a doctor will be too hectic for a mother-to-be in the future
I might think too much or think too far
But I think I have to
I know I have changed my mind for quite a few times
This sounds so annoying
I am so sorry
You are not me and you wouldn't know what I feel
I am hurt when you just push me away when I am in need
But never mind
I have expected to face all that alone
Decide it on my own
Now I haven't pressed the button yet
Will do it quite soon as I don't want to wait anymore
I wish I can get into uni by this year
I am lost and confused..
Seriously..

Walking down Memory lane..

Taking a trip down memory lane
Time flies through the spaces between my fingers without me realising
Many of you have accompanied in my journey of life
Some of you are gone without saying goodbye
I am glad that some of you are still here for me
Willing to share happiness and sadness with me in our life

Camera is the only thing that can be used to capture any moments that we want
Photos are things that can make us go back to the nostalgic moments
When I was viewing photos that I have captured
I recalled so many things
So many different types of feelings appeared at the same time
I remember how we met,how we get closed,how we get along,how we care for each other,how we fight,how we communicate....
Besides my happy moments with my dearest family
I spent most of my time with my intimates,friends,classmates
I captured stuffs that I bought,I liked,I made...
To Zi Chian
I knew you since form 1
Such a noisy and daring girl
But we only get close when we were in form 3
And you were sitting beside me
You helped me,listened to me,gave me opinion when I need
You are such a wise friend
Enjoy talking to you because of your character
Get to know more and more about you afterwards
Even until now
Our way of communication is still the same
You are still a nice person to approach to when I face any problem
*Don't fly in the jungle k?
To Pui Shan
I knew you since form 1 too
Such a quiet girl with a nice handwriting
Obviously,you are the one whom I sayang the most
Give you what you want if I manage to
Just to make you happy
You are just like a little sister who needs more cares and loves
But undeniably,you are a good listener
I can tell you most of the things
Sometimes you just don't know how to express yourself
Keep everything inside
Make people feel that you are unpredictable
You notice most of the small details which others may not notice
Don't always underestimate yourself
You can do more than you thought
To Thara
I knew you since form 1 too
First impression,arrogant!
Hahahaha..such a talkative friend I have
But this talkative friend has a great mind because she is the Great Mind Tharo
I won't forget our crazy texting session
I couldn't recall how and when we were close to each other
You are my source of motivation who always motivate and encourage me
My very first close Indian friend who always give me wise and useful opinion
When come to decision making,you will always be the right one to approach to
To Li Chin
I knew you since form 1 too
My assistant monitor for 4 years
You helped me a lot and give me support
Sometimes you are very rational
Can analyse some problems rationally
You are such a caring friend who will never let friendship fade 

You can be wordy like a mum if your friends fall sick
You can be very crazy sometimes
When comes to emo time, I can hardly help you
What I can do is accompany and give you support as what a friend should do
Others can't let you feel the warmth
I wish I can
Sometimes I make lame jokes
*as lame as you
Just to make you smile and don't think too much
I can complain what I dislike to you as most of the things that I dislike are same as you
To Sin Yee
I knew you since form 1 too
Such an awesome all-rounder
Good at drawing,studying,thinking,joking
Always LOL and =.=lll
A cool girl with a crazy character
Sounds contradicting but that's what I know about her
You are the one who always can lighten my burden when I was the monitor
You can understand my stand well
I like your straight forward character
Because I know that's what you really think
That's your inner voice
Sometimes just don't be over straight forward because not everyone can take it
Some people may get hurt
Your character is more to Western style
I don't know why I feel so but that's what I feel
Hehehe..
To the Only one
I knew you since last year
You look quiet but actually you have a wonderful social skill
I don't know you realise or not
Somehow you can break the awkward silence
At that moment,I will think
You should be more confident as you are very fantastic
You know how to discipline yourself

Sometimes you are naughty and playful

But this character is the one which will make me laugh
You are very alert and understanding

You can notice some small details
You know how use others' mistakes to do self-reflection
I think you influence me a lot
You wish I can be stronger to face anything happen in the future
I will try my best to do so just not to make you worried
As time goes on
The feeling of uncertain gets stronger and stronger
Just feel kinda helpless about the future
I have expected that will happen somehow
The reminder set in my mind keeps on reminding me
So when the time comes
What have to be ended,should be ended
As what you told me
Think positively
At least we owned
True?
Regretfully,we can't go further due to the obstacles
No matter how,I never regret about the decision I made
A tick for you will always be the right decision

We will not know what will happen in the future
Thanks to fate which bring us together
I'm glad to have you to be my special one
NGCMLFY