Day 18

At this tranquil night

My mind is quite peaceful

There are many inspirations but they are not organised

I'm not going to sort it out 

Just a simple and random post about my day and feeling will do

Today bee sat for his UMAT

Couldn't get the chance to chat with him more 

But I was able to wish him before his UMAT

Feel kinda sad for him because he couldn't manage to finish the paper and he felt quite disappointed

Anyway,you have done your best

Now you can relax 

Don't need to suffer in practising it any more

Please take good care of yourself

I miss you more tonight

One of my bestie told me this

To take the first step is always the toughest one

But when you continue in doing it,things will become much easier

The main secret of recipe is perseverance 

When you want to learn sth,for example I learn guitar

No one teach me and I have no basic at all

Keep searching for the guitar tutorial video in youtube

No one will know whether the way I put my fingers is correct or not

When I took the first step to learn,I need to bear with the pain 

Hold the pain and keep practising the chords 

The strings have to be pressed harder in order to produce perfect sounds

I found it tough and I wondered why my fingers are so retarded

At the same time,I tell myself not to give up

People can do it means I can do it as well

After some time,there are callus on the fingers

I can stand the pain and the pain is totally insignificant now

Although my basic still not strong and a simple intro of a song also I can't master

I choose to persevere in order to master it

Nothing is impossible

Despite I feel tired in persevering,there will be a power from my subconscious mind

Asking me not to give up and continue practising

I think that's what I should do for my study and relationship as well

I won't know what the result is
But I know if I never attempt to persevere,I will get nothing

Today I had a wonderful outing with Karen
Too bad Jenn cannot make it
We shopped and had an awesome lunch at Tony Roma's
Had a nice chatting session with her as well
A simple yet nice outing
I miss my college classmates
I'm glad to meet you
Thanks for painting one of the chapter of my life

Jenn & Sin yee
Good luck in your driving test
All the best and be confident

Half of A month

Yesterday was discussing about us 

I'm glad to come out with such a decision

You happy I happy

Distance is far but we can overcome it right?
It has been half of a month we continue like this

Hope our bond is strong enough to persevere

At the same time

We promised to be frank and trust each other

If the thing that we considered happens,then we promised to give ourselves a chance to start a new life and let go

Maybe at this time being,this will be the best way?

We won't know

But I will not regret with my own decision

In the process,we will need a lot of trusts,loves,understanding

distance between two hearts is not an obstacle,rather a beautiful reminder of how strong a true love can be 

Stay strong and move on!

Happy birthday to Karen

I'm so sorry because I couldn't manage to wish you at 12.00am

Have a blast 

Thanks for your concern 

I appreciate it

A friend who always motivate me when I'm slacking

Push me and encourage me when I'm lost

Thank you

Sorry to Sin Yee for the last minute cancellation

I would like to replace one if there is a chance 

Promise

Sorry to Zi Chian and Li Chin

I couldn't play my role well when you vent your depression to me

I know my reply is seriously terrible and useless

Couldn't manage to console you when you're emo and frustrated

Couldn't manage to encourage and motivate you when you're demotivated and stressful

Couldn't manage to make you smile even when you're sad and depressed 

I fail in being a good listener and friend

I seriously hope that I can give you the strength to move on

Maybe not that great but at least something that can make you feel relax for a while or relieved

I will support you from my deep heart core

Hope you can receive it and stay strong

This is just a part of life

Go with the flow

Another 30 minutes 

It will be 20th of July

Our 8th monthsary

Maybe you will feel weird as he is not here anymore

But our final decision
GO WITH THE FLOW

So now we consider together?

I don't know

Don't think so much

He will always be the one whom I will refer to when I have problems or anything to share 

He will always be the reason for me to smile

Even it is just a text message

I saw a quote

"never give up on anybody because miracles happen everyday."

Don't know whether I should believe or not but it is kinda true

Just go with the flow will do

About my h3lix

I'm practising "qing tian" by Jay Chou

At the same time I'm practising my transition

Today my fingers are naughty

My ring finger kept touching the next string 

Once I have adjusted my ring finger

My pinky pressed improperly 

I really have some problems in coordinating my limbs and fingers

That's why I have to put much more effort to play string instruments

But I won't give up easily as I believe practice makes perfect

Now my intro part sounds like an intro 

Hope I can play it more smoothly

Then come to strumming part

Life still the same

Managed to sort my photos out and made it more organised

So I spent some time in doing it 

I wish I can improve myself during this holiday before I start my degree

My brain is a bit lag 

Even a simple calculation also I will make mistake

It seems I have to put some efforts in improving myself in order to be a better person

I bought an English book which I hope I can improve my word power for better expression

Those words or preposition that we will get confused are in

But seriously I hope I can start reading English novels

I just don't understand why I don't have the interest in reading it

Partly because I always need a dictionary beside when I'm reading English novel

This is really potong stim

Friday comes again

It comes to the end of a week

Very soon we have to say goodbye to July and say Hi to August

Today should be the 12th day since you have been there

Take care

Noname 

I understand the "last minute" feeling

No worries yea

Keep the good memories and let go the bad one

It is good enough to have a chance to enjoy with them yea

And I know you may take a while to mmm

Because I understand the feeling very well

So...take time and stay strong

Your ming zhong zhu ding..what doesn't kill you make you stronger!

Cavan

So sorry because I couldn't manage to help you to get your thing done

Hope you can find a suitable one and she will feel surprised

She will like whatever you buy 

I'm sure

Sinyee

All the best in your job

I'm sure you can handle quite well

Zichian & Lichin

The busiest one

I understand how busy and stressful you are

But please take good care of yourself 

Take a rest or a deep breathe after burying yourself in the tonnes of tasks for long time

Okay

I'm sorry for being wordy and long-winded 

Good night peeps

And it is 12:00 AM now

=)

ILY

The 9th Day-170712

In one month time

I am going to get my final result

By that time,I will know where and what I will pursue

During this holiday

I just continue my teaching and I didn't look for any other part time job

Actually I don't know whether I should or not

Maybe I should work for one month from now?
But I worry after my result day
I will be busy with my uni application

So now I'm like half-hanging there

When we have nothing to do

We tend to think a lot

About anything

Life is so complicated...
Don't really like to slack like now
But those friends who are doing their degree now
Complain how busy they are how stressful they are
Kinda scary though
That's life
In the future,we will miss this kind of life

Honeybee
Get well soon okay?
Take good care of yourself

Aimless life
I don't really like it
What to do...

The First Week

Time flies

You have been there for one week time

Glad to know that you like the place

But kinda worry when you worry about future life there

I wish I'm able to make you feel secured

I don't know what we are

But even as a friend,a close friend

I just hope I can help you when you're in need

It seems the pain is getting lessen

Maybe we get used to it

What I feel is

I miss you more and more as time goes on

When I'm free

Our sweet memories keep popping out

I smile alone when I recalled those memories

At the same time

I feel sad 

I'm satisfied because I get the chance to chat with you everyday

Even the duration is so much shorter compared to last time

You're just too hard for me to let go and forget at this moment

My C cube bebe

Hope everything is alright there and take care 

Once again I want to thank those who care for me

Some of you really kind because you all received the instruction from the boss

You guys really take good care of me and make sure I'm okay

Thank you very much and I'm touched

To Pumpkin

I don't really know how to help you when you told me how busy you are

I know I'm pretty useless

I don't know how to give you motivation and support

I suck

To Noname

All the best in HELP

Let's rot together before we start our degree

To syane.ms.h2o

Please master your guitar

4th Day

The daily question

How you feel today? Is the pain lessen? 

The answer will be okay okay lu. 

I don't know

I need you and I miss you SO badly today

Heartache too

Night time I suffer

No more tearing,weeping and crying

Yet the sorrow never subside 

The society is falling sick

I never expect this kind of thing will happen to my family

My house was intruded by thief 

The thief stole a laptop,my mum's purse and hand phone,my brother's PSP

This morning I got shocked when I woke up because I saw the gate was opened after I opened the door

The lock was missing and the gate was widely opened

Something bad must be happened

When I walked to my parents' room,I noticed that the laptop in the living room was missing

I immediately woke my mum up and she realised her purse and hand phone were stolen

My mum was sleeping with the door open in the morning

This happened in the morning in between 8am to 9am!

Such a busy and terrifying morning

Luckily my room's door was closed and my guitar in my bro's room is not stolen

And fortunately we were sleeping that time

I can't imagine what will happen if we were awake that time

Guess the thief will show us his weapon and force us to give him everything that are valuable

I feel so insecure now

If I stay at home alone,I will make sure I find something to do

If not I will start thinking and feel insecure

My mum was traumatised by this incident

God gave me too many bad things recently

My mum's foot injured in May

My bro's new hand phone was robbed few weeks ago

My mum's car was knocked by someone few weeks ago

My dad's car was knocked by someone few days ago

My sis cannot do their job smoothly this few days

I lose someone important few days ago

God,if you can hear me

Please..I pray to You..please take all these bad things away

We just want an ordinary and safe life

We work so hard to get money and things that we want

Never steal never rob 

Please give us a more stable life 

Please bring some good lucks and good things to our life

Thank You

Too many things happened recently

I'm really exhausted

And I feel so helpless

Even my intimate is facing problems also I can't help her

I'm such an useless friend

I can't help people to lessen the pain

I keep making people worry about me

I can't help people to solve problems

I'm just too

Useless....

HENG LI XUAN

Please get up from the pain and start living like a man

Third Day

I thought I get an answer in the afternoon
But I saw sth at night
It didn't really make me confused but it made me feel a bit "shaken"
Now I tell myself
I will continue doing that
Start changing my mindset slowly
And let go slowly
It is going to be a long term project 

No one can help in this project but only syane.ms.h2o alone

Thanks for those who commented,texted and called

I appreciate your concerns

I will be fine soon

This afternoon

Sitting alone

Clearing my room alone

I have no one to talk to 

I'm all alone

My world is so silent at that moment

Loneliness doesn't attack me during daytime 

Yet I didn't feel peaceful

Kinda contradicting and complicated

And you

My cute friend broke the silence

I feel that the world is so warm and secured when I know you are at the another corner of the world

This few days my mind is so messy

To do or not to do

This or that 

The worst thing is that night

All I have to do is 

Sail to slumberland now

Hope you can sleep well too

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