First Day

20112011
The day we were coupled together
There was a sleepless night
So unbelievable 

The kind of feeling lasted for few days
Still cannot believe it until "yours fits mine"
08072012
The day you migrated 

There were few sleepless nights
Still cannot believe that now my life is without you
Now what I feel is numbness
I don't know what I should feel
Just now in the bathroom
I wept
The water mixed with my tears
I couldn't even differentiate between them
Dear readers
I'm sorry for my emo posts recently

But this is the only way I can express myself without hiding any feeling,any sorrow
Shed tears
Wipe tears

When come to night
Sleep is the best way to control my emotion
Stopping you from running in my mind
Keeping you nicely in my deep heart core
When will the sorrow in me subside?
Seriously,I don't know what I feel now
I'm happy to receive your messages
I'm really really excited to read it!
But at the same time,I feel ....
Fine,maybe I should be as positive as you
Hehe haha hehe haha hehe

Sleepless Night

I couldn't sleep well this few nights
Guess this will continue for a couple of days
In another 11 minutes time
Bee will be flying to Perth,Australia
Tears dried yesterday
Today my eyes are dry
No more tear
But the pain from inside is still the same
Heartache
Very painful
My eyelids very heavy
Guess this is the effect after crying and have not enough sleep
Bee
I will try to be strong and positive
Thanks for trusting me
You just off phone and my heart become heavy
Thanks God for arranging our meeting
The awesome and wonderful guy in syane.ms.h2o's life
The hen ke ai bee
Now my mind is pretty empty
But I just want to come here to gain some tranquility
Bee
I love you
All the best in Australia
In your UMAT,part time job,uni application and further study
Take good care of yourself
I won't forget our hearts are related
I happy you happy
So I will try not to emo
Goodbye,my beloved...

080712

0835

The moment I lose someone whom I love

An endless night 1

Actually I don't mean to tear
But I just can't control
I wish I can just cry and everything will be fine
But that is not possible
If I really think that way then I'm just too naive
When you asked me what I want
Seriously I don't know
I have to consider about your situation
I cannot be so selfish
I wish to continue but what you consider is not wrong
God gave me such a great challenge
Mean I must learn to overcome it
How nice if you are with me
At least I'm not alone
And you're not alone
Distance further,bond length longer,bond strength weaker with time
This should be the mindset now?
Can I ?

Don't tell me to find a better one now
My heart is closed now
Give me some time
This is not puppy love for me
This is my first love
Which is the most memorable one
I don't know what will happen in the future
But now
I know it is pain
Count down
20 hours
Bee...
I can't afford to lose you
But I will try my best to let you go
Bon voyage

Sometimes when we touch

You always on my mind
I'm happy because you were surprised by my surprises
I'm glad that you like the presents
It is worthy for me to spend time going there just to get the hard case
Luckily I managed to get a hard case which Helix 1 can sleep nicely
And you can put so many other accessories inside
Worth it worth it
Another surprise
Our first couple thing
I really worried that you won't like the design
Because it is so different from what you have it now
Luckily you said you like it so much
And I can really see the happiness from your cute face
My excitement rises from the deep heart core
Don't need to feel what and keep asking about the price

It is for you so is doesn't matter
Just want to do something for my beloved bee
That's all
I didn't think that much
Really worth it to do all this for you
Our first guitar session since I got H3lix
I know I'm a bit dumb and slow right
Fingers and strumming still very cacat
The homework from my "teacher"
By next Saturday
I must master every chords and the transition
I can do it!
Count down
61 hours
ILY 

Be grateful Part II

Thanks dear for organising
He is unable to celebrate my birthday this year
So he asked some of my close friends to chip in to buy me a guitar
Which he wanted to do so badly
Never know Cavan and Raj will appear!
That's the mini surprise dear meant
I stunned for more than 0.01 s okay?
Hahahaha
We went for badminton session
Sweat sweat sweat
Lunch together
That is the first time we all talked about C&S relationship
So it is no longer a secret for them
After lunch then Bentley
Quite surprising actually
The guitar costs 400 bucks with bag,picks and tuner
Ibanez Acoustic
My Helix3
Thank you Dear,Jenn,Cavan & Raj
Really touched and surprised
This is the most expensive present I received from friends
Thank you once again
I'm happy to spend time with you guys
Maybe this will be the last time for us to reunion?
And dear
Guess I'm ready to accept ady
You can do it
I can do it too
I want you to go without any sadness
And I will always remember about the deal
God let me enjoyed for 7 months plus
I should be grateful enough to let go
Keep in touch
Will keep all the fond memories
Miss your everything
Last but not least
You can't stop me from saying
ILY

知足

六天五夜的trip 终于告一段落了
期间发生了一些不愉快的事情
但也有很多大家共同的回忆
这将会是我们最后一次那么完整的group trip

现在觉得很疲惫
但很想来这里抒发自己的情绪
原来我
真的真的真的真的真的真的真的真的
很不舍得你
尽管多么努力的压抑自己的情绪
最终也崩溃了
机场的离别拥抱
我忍住了眼泪
因为我认为那不是我们最后一次见面
就很不想那么早跟你告别
接下来的离别拥抱
我决堤了
泪水再也忍不住了
很想笑着跟你说再见
那么你就不需要有任何的牵挂
放心的离开我
但是我还是失败了
当下的感觉就是不舍得
你真的很特别，很独特
令我没有办法放手
就很想继续走下去
但我知道现在这一切都是不可能了

你常常告诉我要知足

跟你在一起这220天
让我学会了很多
很快的，我必须适应没有你的日子

少了你对我的嘘寒问暖
少了你对我撒娇
少了你那些无聊但好笑的joke
少了你温柔的声音
少了你的吉他声与歌声
少了你对我的唠叨
少了你跟我分享日常生活照
少了你那一些很特别很特别很特别的sound effect
少了你那一些我听不厌的故事
少了你那些大道理
少了你的拥抱
少了你的疼爱
少了你的吻
少了你的爱
少了你的一切一切
留下的就只是我们之间的回忆
留下的只有遗憾
留下的只有曾经幸福的感觉
留下曾经被你拥有过的幸福
留下一些悲伤
尽管如此
我从来没有后悔过我当初的决定
就是跟你开始
你真的有种魔力
可以让我空荡荡的脑袋
充满着你的模样
你的声音
我们的一切
眼泪干了
时间少了
真的真的真的真的真的真的
不
舍
得
还有
我
爱
你
恒

 

Marathon

Hello peeps
Today is 220612
The day which syane.ms.h2o finish her exam marathon since 150612
Finally,the super hectic A Levels life has come to an end
The feeling is not as great as I thought
Freedom is here wee..
So wertttt
Busy for 1.5 years and suddenly become so free
It is more likely to be emptiness instead of freedom
I have friends who don't like to snap picture
End up with 0 picture with classmates
So...a bit wasted lar
I don't care! Hope I can have a lot of pictures in Tioman Trip
Next Monday off to Tioman
My last trip with my gang
Today one of my classmates told me about the date of their flight
One of them is going to fly to Nottingham,UK on 18 Sept (pursuing Law)
One of them is going to fly to London,UK on 18 Sept (pursuing Medicine)
One of them is going to fly to Bristol,UK around end of Sept (pursuing Medicine)
One of them is going to fly to Hong Kong around Aug (pursuing Medicine)
One of them is going to fly to Hong Kong around Aug (pursuing Accounting)
The most important one is going to fly to Perth,Australia on 8 July (pursuing Medicine)
So sad
Result is coming out on 16 Aug
Basically now I have no idea where to go
No news from Singapore application
Just day-dreaming
Hahahaha
I'm happy to spend time with you today
A lot more to tell you
Seriously..
Really don't feel like letting you go
But I know it is impossible
The feeling is getting more and more real
Getting more and more =(
Let me keep some to myself
Mmmmmmm...