An endless night 1

Actually I don't mean to tear
But I just can't control
I wish I can just cry and everything will be fine
But that is not possible
If I really think that way then I'm just too naive
When you asked me what I want
Seriously I don't know
I have to consider about your situation
I cannot be so selfish
I wish to continue but what you consider is not wrong
God gave me such a great challenge
Mean I must learn to overcome it
How nice if you are with me
At least I'm not alone
And you're not alone
Distance further,bond length longer,bond strength weaker with time
This should be the mindset now?
Can I ?

Don't tell me to find a better one now
My heart is closed now
Give me some time
This is not puppy love for me
This is my first love
Which is the most memorable one
I don't know what will happen in the future
But now
I know it is pain
Count down
20 hours
Bee...
I can't afford to lose you
But I will try my best to let you go
Bon voyage