The 9th Day-170712

In one month time

I am going to get my final result

By that time,I will know where and what I will pursue

During this holiday

I just continue my teaching and I didn't look for any other part time job

Actually I don't know whether I should or not

Maybe I should work for one month from now?
But I worry after my result day
I will be busy with my uni application

So now I'm like half-hanging there

When we have nothing to do

We tend to think a lot

About anything

Life is so complicated...
Don't really like to slack like now
But those friends who are doing their degree now
Complain how busy they are how stressful they are
Kinda scary though
That's life
In the future,we will miss this kind of life

Honeybee
Get well soon okay?
Take good care of yourself

Aimless life
I don't really like it
What to do...

The First Week

Time flies

You have been there for one week time

Glad to know that you like the place

But kinda worry when you worry about future life there

I wish I'm able to make you feel secured

I don't know what we are

But even as a friend,a close friend

I just hope I can help you when you're in need

It seems the pain is getting lessen

Maybe we get used to it

What I feel is

I miss you more and more as time goes on

When I'm free

Our sweet memories keep popping out

I smile alone when I recalled those memories

At the same time

I feel sad 

I'm satisfied because I get the chance to chat with you everyday

Even the duration is so much shorter compared to last time

You're just too hard for me to let go and forget at this moment

My C cube bebe

Hope everything is alright there and take care 

Once again I want to thank those who care for me

Some of you really kind because you all received the instruction from the boss

You guys really take good care of me and make sure I'm okay

Thank you very much and I'm touched

To Pumpkin

I don't really know how to help you when you told me how busy you are

I know I'm pretty useless

I don't know how to give you motivation and support

I suck

To Noname

All the best in HELP

Let's rot together before we start our degree

To syane.ms.h2o

Please master your guitar

4th Day

The daily question

How you feel today? Is the pain lessen? 

The answer will be okay okay lu. 

I don't know

I need you and I miss you SO badly today

Heartache too

Night time I suffer

No more tearing,weeping and crying

Yet the sorrow never subside 

The society is falling sick

I never expect this kind of thing will happen to my family

My house was intruded by thief 

The thief stole a laptop,my mum's purse and hand phone,my brother's PSP

This morning I got shocked when I woke up because I saw the gate was opened after I opened the door

The lock was missing and the gate was widely opened

Something bad must be happened

When I walked to my parents' room,I noticed that the laptop in the living room was missing

I immediately woke my mum up and she realised her purse and hand phone were stolen

My mum was sleeping with the door open in the morning

This happened in the morning in between 8am to 9am!

Such a busy and terrifying morning

Luckily my room's door was closed and my guitar in my bro's room is not stolen

And fortunately we were sleeping that time

I can't imagine what will happen if we were awake that time

Guess the thief will show us his weapon and force us to give him everything that are valuable

I feel so insecure now

If I stay at home alone,I will make sure I find something to do

If not I will start thinking and feel insecure

My mum was traumatised by this incident

God gave me too many bad things recently

My mum's foot injured in May

My bro's new hand phone was robbed few weeks ago

My mum's car was knocked by someone few weeks ago

My dad's car was knocked by someone few days ago

My sis cannot do their job smoothly this few days

I lose someone important few days ago

God,if you can hear me

Please..I pray to You..please take all these bad things away

We just want an ordinary and safe life

We work so hard to get money and things that we want

Never steal never rob 

Please give us a more stable life 

Please bring some good lucks and good things to our life

Thank You

Too many things happened recently

I'm really exhausted

And I feel so helpless

Even my intimate is facing problems also I can't help her

I'm such an useless friend

I can't help people to lessen the pain

I keep making people worry about me

I can't help people to solve problems

I'm just too

Useless....

HENG LI XUAN

Please get up from the pain and start living like a man

Third Day

I thought I get an answer in the afternoon
But I saw sth at night
It didn't really make me confused but it made me feel a bit "shaken"
Now I tell myself
I will continue doing that
Start changing my mindset slowly
And let go slowly
It is going to be a long term project 

No one can help in this project but only syane.ms.h2o alone

Thanks for those who commented,texted and called

I appreciate your concerns

I will be fine soon

This afternoon

Sitting alone

Clearing my room alone

I have no one to talk to 

I'm all alone

My world is so silent at that moment

Loneliness doesn't attack me during daytime 

Yet I didn't feel peaceful

Kinda contradicting and complicated

And you

My cute friend broke the silence

I feel that the world is so warm and secured when I know you are at the another corner of the world

This few days my mind is so messy

To do or not to do

This or that 

The worst thing is that night

All I have to do is 

Sail to slumberland now

Hope you can sleep well too

 n $$!w ! 13 3 3

Second Day

Somewhere must be sunny all the time because someone awesome is there
Here raining for whole day

Thanks noname.mr.h2o for the day
As what she said
A memorable day
She got wet because of me
I feel so bad
Thanks for accompanying me to get my online pin and settle some other stuff
Thanks to the rain
I walked until I get blisters
One thing is settled
One more to go
Had an awesome 5.5 hours K session with noname

Snapped pictures
You made my day
You really like a small kid
I don't know why I feel that
Seriously
A very relaxing day with you
Thanks a lot
Appreciate a lot
Love yea

To sweet pumpkin
Take care
I don't know how to help you
I can only give you some moral supports
Please don't fall sick and don't give up
Persevere..

When I was thinking about the issue
Coincidentally,my laptop is playing I Won't Give Up by Jason Mraz
Night time too free
Have a lot of time to think
Just now I practised to play chords
Now I think I left F,Fm and Gm
Going to learn transition and scales soon
Hwaiting,syane.ms.h2o and h3lix
Should have forgotten what happened last night
Smile and move on
God,please guide me what to do..
Crossing fingers

First Day

20112011
The day we were coupled together
There was a sleepless night
So unbelievable 

The kind of feeling lasted for few days
Still cannot believe it until "yours fits mine"
08072012
The day you migrated 

There were few sleepless nights
Still cannot believe that now my life is without you
Now what I feel is numbness
I don't know what I should feel
Just now in the bathroom
I wept
The water mixed with my tears
I couldn't even differentiate between them
Dear readers
I'm sorry for my emo posts recently

But this is the only way I can express myself without hiding any feeling,any sorrow
Shed tears
Wipe tears

When come to night
Sleep is the best way to control my emotion
Stopping you from running in my mind
Keeping you nicely in my deep heart core
When will the sorrow in me subside?
Seriously,I don't know what I feel now
I'm happy to receive your messages
I'm really really excited to read it!
But at the same time,I feel ....
Fine,maybe I should be as positive as you
Hehe haha hehe haha hehe

Sleepless Night

I couldn't sleep well this few nights
Guess this will continue for a couple of days
In another 11 minutes time
Bee will be flying to Perth,Australia
Tears dried yesterday
Today my eyes are dry
No more tear
But the pain from inside is still the same
Heartache
Very painful
My eyelids very heavy
Guess this is the effect after crying and have not enough sleep
Bee
I will try to be strong and positive
Thanks for trusting me
You just off phone and my heart become heavy
Thanks God for arranging our meeting
The awesome and wonderful guy in syane.ms.h2o's life
The hen ke ai bee
Now my mind is pretty empty
But I just want to come here to gain some tranquility
Bee
I love you
All the best in Australia
In your UMAT,part time job,uni application and further study
Take good care of yourself
I won't forget our hearts are related
I happy you happy
So I will try not to emo
Goodbye,my beloved...

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The moment I lose someone whom I love