Third Day

I thought I get an answer in the afternoon
But I saw sth at night
It didn't really make me confused but it made me feel a bit "shaken"
Now I tell myself
I will continue doing that
Start changing my mindset slowly
And let go slowly
It is going to be a long term project 

No one can help in this project but only syane.ms.h2o alone

Thanks for those who commented,texted and called

I appreciate your concerns

I will be fine soon

This afternoon

Sitting alone

Clearing my room alone

I have no one to talk to 

I'm all alone

My world is so silent at that moment

Loneliness doesn't attack me during daytime 

Yet I didn't feel peaceful

Kinda contradicting and complicated

And you

My cute friend broke the silence

I feel that the world is so warm and secured when I know you are at the another corner of the world

This few days my mind is so messy

To do or not to do

This or that 

The worst thing is that night

All I have to do is 

Sail to slumberland now

Hope you can sleep well too

 n $$!w ! 13 3 3

Second Day

Somewhere must be sunny all the time because someone awesome is there
Here raining for whole day

Thanks noname.mr.h2o for the day
As what she said
A memorable day
She got wet because of me
I feel so bad
Thanks for accompanying me to get my online pin and settle some other stuff
Thanks to the rain
I walked until I get blisters
One thing is settled
One more to go
Had an awesome 5.5 hours K session with noname

Snapped pictures
You made my day
You really like a small kid
I don't know why I feel that
Seriously
A very relaxing day with you
Thanks a lot
Appreciate a lot
Love yea

To sweet pumpkin
Take care
I don't know how to help you
I can only give you some moral supports
Please don't fall sick and don't give up
Persevere..

When I was thinking about the issue
Coincidentally,my laptop is playing I Won't Give Up by Jason Mraz
Night time too free
Have a lot of time to think
Just now I practised to play chords
Now I think I left F,Fm and Gm
Going to learn transition and scales soon
Hwaiting,syane.ms.h2o and h3lix
Should have forgotten what happened last night
Smile and move on
God,please guide me what to do..
Crossing fingers

First Day

20112011
The day we were coupled together
There was a sleepless night
So unbelievable 

The kind of feeling lasted for few days
Still cannot believe it until "yours fits mine"
08072012
The day you migrated 

There were few sleepless nights
Still cannot believe that now my life is without you
Now what I feel is numbness
I don't know what I should feel
Just now in the bathroom
I wept
The water mixed with my tears
I couldn't even differentiate between them
Dear readers
I'm sorry for my emo posts recently

But this is the only way I can express myself without hiding any feeling,any sorrow
Shed tears
Wipe tears

When come to night
Sleep is the best way to control my emotion
Stopping you from running in my mind
Keeping you nicely in my deep heart core
When will the sorrow in me subside?
Seriously,I don't know what I feel now
I'm happy to receive your messages
I'm really really excited to read it!
But at the same time,I feel ....
Fine,maybe I should be as positive as you
Hehe haha hehe haha hehe

Sleepless Night

I couldn't sleep well this few nights
Guess this will continue for a couple of days
In another 11 minutes time
Bee will be flying to Perth,Australia
Tears dried yesterday
Today my eyes are dry
No more tear
But the pain from inside is still the same
Heartache
Very painful
My eyelids very heavy
Guess this is the effect after crying and have not enough sleep
Bee
I will try to be strong and positive
Thanks for trusting me
You just off phone and my heart become heavy
Thanks God for arranging our meeting
The awesome and wonderful guy in syane.ms.h2o's life
The hen ke ai bee
Now my mind is pretty empty
But I just want to come here to gain some tranquility
Bee
I love you
All the best in Australia
In your UMAT,part time job,uni application and further study
Take good care of yourself
I won't forget our hearts are related
I happy you happy
So I will try not to emo
Goodbye,my beloved...

080712

0835

The moment I lose someone whom I love

An endless night 1

Actually I don't mean to tear
But I just can't control
I wish I can just cry and everything will be fine
But that is not possible
If I really think that way then I'm just too naive
When you asked me what I want
Seriously I don't know
I have to consider about your situation
I cannot be so selfish
I wish to continue but what you consider is not wrong
God gave me such a great challenge
Mean I must learn to overcome it
How nice if you are with me
At least I'm not alone
And you're not alone
Distance further,bond length longer,bond strength weaker with time
This should be the mindset now?
Can I ?

Don't tell me to find a better one now
My heart is closed now
Give me some time
This is not puppy love for me
This is my first love
Which is the most memorable one
I don't know what will happen in the future
But now
I know it is pain
Count down
20 hours
Bee...
I can't afford to lose you
But I will try my best to let you go
Bon voyage

Sometimes when we touch

You always on my mind
I'm happy because you were surprised by my surprises
I'm glad that you like the presents
It is worthy for me to spend time going there just to get the hard case
Luckily I managed to get a hard case which Helix 1 can sleep nicely
And you can put so many other accessories inside
Worth it worth it
Another surprise
Our first couple thing
I really worried that you won't like the design
Because it is so different from what you have it now
Luckily you said you like it so much
And I can really see the happiness from your cute face
My excitement rises from the deep heart core
Don't need to feel what and keep asking about the price

It is for you so is doesn't matter
Just want to do something for my beloved bee
That's all
I didn't think that much
Really worth it to do all this for you
Our first guitar session since I got H3lix
I know I'm a bit dumb and slow right
Fingers and strumming still very cacat
The homework from my "teacher"
By next Saturday
I must master every chords and the transition
I can do it!
Count down
61 hours
ILY 

Be grateful Part II

Thanks dear for organising
He is unable to celebrate my birthday this year
So he asked some of my close friends to chip in to buy me a guitar
Which he wanted to do so badly
Never know Cavan and Raj will appear!
That's the mini surprise dear meant
I stunned for more than 0.01 s okay?
Hahahaha
We went for badminton session
Sweat sweat sweat
Lunch together
That is the first time we all talked about C&S relationship
So it is no longer a secret for them
After lunch then Bentley
Quite surprising actually
The guitar costs 400 bucks with bag,picks and tuner
Ibanez Acoustic
My Helix3
Thank you Dear,Jenn,Cavan & Raj
Really touched and surprised
This is the most expensive present I received from friends
Thank you once again
I'm happy to spend time with you guys
Maybe this will be the last time for us to reunion?
And dear
Guess I'm ready to accept ady
You can do it
I can do it too
I want you to go without any sadness
And I will always remember about the deal
God let me enjoyed for 7 months plus
I should be grateful enough to let go
Keep in touch
Will keep all the fond memories
Miss your everything
Last but not least
You can't stop me from saying
ILY